4/28/33 EC's letter:
I have yours of the 26th, and am indeed very glad that you
feel somewhat better after having read and - possibly -
digested the contents of the reading we were able to get for
you.
Yes, it is my sincere conviction from the reading that in
the near future, possibly in the next few months or earlier,
you will see Mr. ["Speck"] again and at that time there may
be the forming of the basis for a reconciliation of the
nature that will be the most helpful, the most worth while,
to you both. As to just what course this will take, of
course, remains to be seen.
We do not always understand how it is that if God loves us
He allows us to suffer so much. Often we realize, however,
that it is only those whom we love or that love us who may
hurt us in any way or manner. Then, if we can only reach
the consciousness that our experiences from day to day, in
our associations with our fellow man, are very much in the
same order as our TRAINING in school, we will better
understand; that is, they are FITTING us for the
circumstances that will arise in our lives. Then, if we will
allow the divine laws, the divine experiences that may be
ours, to guide; through prayer, meditation on His words from
day to day, everything will come right. Don't understand
from this that I am harking on this phase of individuals'
experiences; for I believe that the religion of Jesus Christ
should make every individual the HAPPIEST person in the
world! even as HE was happy, even in the garden of
Gethsemane. For, as He said, while it is very hard, "For
this purpose came I into the world." May we just gain such a
concept, "For this purpose, or for THY purposes, Lord, use us
day by day!" THEN we will know that whatever comes, whatever
arises in our experience, is for the best. We may not be
able to see it, but I'm sure that you and ["Speck"] will be
better individuals for having had this varied experience,
even though we may feel that one or the other has been at a
great fault. Did Christ condemn? Never, except for UNBELIEF
in His promise! And He has promised to show us the way, to
be with us, to tell us what to say - even - at all times.
I appreciate your comment as to what you think of the Work.
If I may use whatever gift that may be mine in assisting my
fellow man to know our Maker better, I trust that I may ever
be used in such a way and manner. That is my hope; that is
my desire.
The way this Work has spread from year to year, Miss [
316],
has been rather by word of mouth than by any proclamation
from the housetops. It is hard often for individuals,
without a personal experience in such matters, to understand
how such a thing may be possible. Yet, "By their fruits ye
shall know them." You, I am hoping, will be able to judge in
this same way and manner.
It is very wonderful of you to offer to interest someone
else. We are sending to you, then, a few booklets with
application blanks, that you may submit to any who might be
interested. If there is any other data that you would like
to have, we will be glad to send it, if you'll just let us
know.
Trusting that we may have been of a service, that we may at
some time come to know you personally, and asking that His
blessings may be with you always, I am
Sincerely,
Edgar Cayce [EC:GD]
6/13/33
My dear Mr. Cayce:
Attached you will find a small contribution - I wish it could
be more, and regret that even this small sum was so long in
coming to you.
In May, I went to Charleston to see ["Speck"]. I called
him, asked him to come where I was - he said he could not -
although he easily could have - and suggested that I come
to his address. Finally, I said that I would, but when I
got there, he had left. I made no further effort to see him
and later came on home. Some days after that, I wrote him,
and have written again telling him I would begin all over
again, and that the past could be forgotten if he would let
it be, and that I'd be willing to start at the very bottom
and live anywhere, anyhow. I have had no answer - then I
had a letter from the head of the Pittsburgh office for which
["Speck"] formerly worked saying that if he would fill in
his application, that in all probability he could get his old
job back again, so I wrote again, simply telling him what
Mr. [...] had said. I've heard nothing in response to that
letter either. He's drinking and simply content, apparently,
to laze around doing nothing - staying with friends and is
not, or was not working at the time I was in Charleston. He
is so fine and sweet, really, that I can't bear to think of
his being so changed. I believe it is mostly sham and
pretense - simply to cover something else - and that really,
he is most unhappy. Thinking that had a lot to do with my
going to Charleston, but you see how that turned out. I have
honestly done all I know to do to right things - he's hurt
me, humiliated me in every way, but even so, I'd still be
willing to go ahead, but I can't without the first move
coming from him. I feel utterly discouraged and don't know
what to do. There's nothing to do - I suppose - just wait.
But waiting is very hard, especially when you have been for a
year and things don't get any better. I find that I am very
tired. I've been working a long time now, and what I want is
to be married - to have a home and family of my own, and to
experience a little peace and security. In my present
attitude, I'm afraid I'll marry the first person who asks me,
and that might not make for future happiness to either
concerned. I have tried to get a job away from here, but
that is difficult, and I certainly can't give this one up
until I know definitely that I've something else. I feel
very much discouraged and uncertain as to the future.
Hoping that you are meeting with great success in your work
and that all is well with you, I am
Sincerely yours,
[
316]
6/21/33 EC's letter:
We have yours of the 13th, with your contribution, for which
we want to thank you very much. I certainly wish that it
might have been possible for you to have been here during our
recent Congress. Our series of meetings, I'm sure, would
have been very much worth while and possibly enlightening to
to you, also very practical at this time when you are no
doubt halting between two opinions.
Aren't you going to have some little period this summer when
you may spend a vacation at Virginia Beach? I'm sure that
you, as most of us, are faced with the necessity of
considering expense, but I feel too that you would find you
could make it a very inexpensive trip, if you can get the
time off from your work. If you could do that, and have the
opportunity to talk over these things, possibly hear a
reading or two, talk with Miss Davis - my secretary, who has
had several years of experience with the Work and who knows
just how the information has been presented to people from
time to time who have been having just such troubles in their
own lives, and how that it has assisted them to get hold of
that which has helped them to find themselves, in such a way
as to meet the conditions that were arising in their
experience, with a satisfaction that possibly could not have
been found in any other source - well, I feel that such a
visit would be very valuable to you.
I know how disappointed you must have been, in going to the
expense of subjugating your own thoughts for yourself and
then have seemingly no response whatsoever from the one that
to you means most of everything just at this time. But how
little we realize that we are, from day to day, preparing
ourselves, our minds, our hearts, and even our bodies, for
many emergencies; when our beings will be at times, as it
were, torn asunder and we will feel so discouraged and that
our efforts are not worth while. Yet we must realize that we
are so conducting our own minds, hearts, and lives as to not
only merit but FIND that the Father, the great God of us all,
has been appealed to such that He worketh with us - and we
must arrive at that consciousness wherein we can truly say,
"Not my will, not my way but Thine, O Lord, be done in me -
and use me as a channel of blessing for someone, just now."
If we can only get ourselves to this point, where such a
prayer may be constantly held, then there will come a
contentment within that cannot be measured by material things
nor circumstances.
This, I'm sure, at some times must sound very much like poor
consolation, but it will answer - it will bring a
contentment, a harmony, a peace within our inner selves such
that we won't fly off and do something that we will regret
the rest of our natural days.
But you arrange to come down and see us, can't you? And let
us hear from you real often, won't you?
Know that we are thinking about you, praying with you, and
sending our kindest regards and best wishes. May the
blessings of our merciful heavenly Father remain with you
always.
Sincerely,
Edgar Cayce [EC:GD]
12/04/68 GD's note: We never heard from Miss [
313] again.
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