5/11/44 "I have hesitated asking you for a Physical Rdg.
because I can imagine that you are all overloaded with work
at VB. I have not been well for a long, long time, perhaps
it is that a heart cannot take too much punishment. I have
struggled through these heart attacks time after time - as I
have a tough responsibility at home - Mother [
403] and [
1211]
both invalids.
"I came down here March 1st as I thought the change and rest
would help me carry on, and for a while I made very good gain
- but when I felt my best, a couple weeks ago, I came down
with another heart spell, and although I am now up I don't
dare do anything except creep around, for the pain returns
with every slight exertion. I've never lost faith before,
and I don't now, even though the doctor says that I will
never be better. I can't see any SENSE in it - when I KNOW
that it is possible for the power of God to heal and sustain
us. The question comes again and again, why? Why, when I
try to do all in my power to create good - when I have
unlimited faith in God - when I try to carry on the work
which it seems that I am destined for, but I am stopped again
and again by a faulty heart - something that I am powerless
to bring healing to.
"One is supposed to show a HEALTHY body in this work; and
when I am prepared to work, and give everything to the work,
does it not seem that the least the Masters can do is to help
me? There is something wrong somewhere - I do not know what
it is - but of course it must be MY fault, whatever it is.
Dear Brother Cayce, will you please have a Physical Rdg. for
me - and put me on the right track. I have so much work to
do before I leave this earth, and I WANT to do it - not for
myself, but for the glory of God in the earth.
"I have explained your work here to several who are
interested, Mrs. Lewis, Mrs. Molineax and Mrs. Andrews are
especially interested - all have studied metaphysics in one
way or another.
"I left home with just a few clothes - no literature of any
kind - as I was ill coming, but I will do what I can for your
work while I am here. I have a reservation to return on the
28th of this month - but I'm not sure now that I will be able
to travel.
"I know that you will, as always, come to my rescue, and will
be eagerly awaiting the advice.
"Perhaps Mrs. Cayce would be willing to compile a few ques-
tions from this letter that would help in understanding WHY
I've got to go through this, year after year, without help -
is it perhaps a karmic condition?...
"God's peace be with you and your loved ones... $20
enclosed."
5/25/44 "I was taken very ill with flu last Sat. [5/20th],
and - as an aside - I also have the shingles, if you know
what they are. I've HAD to postpone my leaving here until I
am feeling stronger to travel, and so I will be here at the
above address the 30th, if you have the 30th still open for a
rdg. I expect to stay two weeks longer, which should put me
on my feet again. I am coming out of the flu all right but
have a bad cough with it, on my lungs."
5/30/44 See
338-9.



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