2/04/37 "Some people can step right out of their sick
troubles. I wish I could. I haven't the will power of a
Jack Rabbit. I have been doctoring with Dr. Case for 6 mos.
and I am just about the same. If a doctor gives me a pill I
want to know what is in that pill and what it is for. If it
is a nerve pill there will be a reaction when I stop taking
them. So when I get a reaction I am down and out again. I
have been with you a long time. I am a neurotic and I know
it, and I know there is no help for me except through myself,
and I haven't the courage to get right up and fight this
thing out to a finish. One in my condition is in an agony of
mind all the time. I am scared to death of myself and
nothing else, although I do think that my weak legs are apart
from the nervous trouble and that aggravates the nerves and
upsets me...
"My two girls are both good to me and I am very glad I have
them. [Husband] is good too in every way except the way a
wife loves the best and in that he is quite inhuman, so I
don't bother him and he doesn't bother me.
"You will be glad to get rid of me and my mournful letters.
I never was so lonesome in my life as I have been this
winter... I am glad that I have met you through your good
work and hope that I have not been too much of a nuisance to
you all. Life has given me a raw deal from childhood up.
Being supersensitive I get everything. A hair feels like a
rope on my hand. So you may know how my nerves are."
2/08/37 EC's letter: "Am thinking you will find a great deal
in Christian Science. It is like everything else, possibly
not for all of us, at just this stage of development, but for
those who will make practical application of it there is
nothing that can equal it. I know of some very lovely
experiences of a great many with its principles... We have
enjoyed your letters. I am still looking forward to the
opportunity of talking with you in person. I feel sure that
I will sooner or later. We usually get around to the things
we plan, even though they seem to fail for the time. You
know, our minds are the builder, and we keep on thinking a
thing until we make it a part of us, be it sickness or
health. As Jesus said, 'it is not by taking thought alone,
but by working at it, that we accomplish.'"
4/26/37 "I don't go up to Dr. Case any more. The pills he
gave me made my stomach upset, but I still think he is fine
and he did help me a lot, but I have gone back to Dr. Leavitt
- he is in Chicago. He is a psychologist and I think he is
fine too, but I find it most awful hard to do the things he
wants me to do - take physical exercises and walk out every
day and accustom myself to doing the unusual things. In
short I have to face the music...I have been 2 mos. with him
and I have a little more confidence in myself, but my
strength is very slow in returning. I don't give in to every
little thing any more like I used to. I don't know how all
this will turn out. Dr. Case was not very good at giving
powerful auto-suggestions, the result of which is more than
half the battle in many cases of illness - that I have proof
of...Dr. Leavitt says I can have health if I will work for
it. He knows all about the nervous people, so I can't fool
him with any of my symptoms. He calls them feelings and
emotions only to be swept aside, ignored, trampled on,
forgotten."
5/17/37 "In Dr. Leavitt's letters he asks if I have a serious
heart trouble. I had the flu in Feb. and kept getting more
cold and my heart has been on the rampage more or less ever
since, so I am writing for a rdg. I have had a cough and
wheezing and so short of breath over the least exertion for a
long time, and my eyes and ears are affected."
5/22/37 See
464-19.



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