1/01/34 Mr. [
479]'s letter to GD verifying appointment: "I
must admit that I have been skeptical of any form of
spiritual communications or aid. I say this, not to have you
think I go into this thoroughly incredulously, but that you
may understand as much about me as it is possible for me to
tell. Though I cannot say why, I now find myself vastly
interested.
"It is difficult for me to communicate seriously to you
anything about myself and at the same time keep you aware of
my skepticism, so I shall forget any doubts and write as
plainly as I may what I wish from this reading. I have no
idea what insight you may have into the nature of people
corresponding with you. I do not know just which type of
reading would be most beneficial to me. My particular worry
is the predominant factor in determining my life. I realize
that upon my handling wisely this matter and my adaption to
my thoroughly handicapped position depends my entire future.
I sincerely desire to solve the problem before me so that I
can live proudly with the people I admire and respect. I
cannot do so unless I decide the best course to take in
regard to this problem.
"I want you to know that [
641], whom I think to be the finest
person I have ever known and who has been my best friend, has
been my chief support in the problems I have had to face in
the past year.
"Though my 'malady' is primarily physical, it has so direct a
bearing upon my mental and spiritual development that it
cannot be classed merely as a physical ailment. I find it
difficult to choose one of the three types of readings you
offer, for I am afraid no one of them will offer a solution
to my problem. Yet, I suppose for a start we may take the
Physical Reading. If from my letter you can judge one of the
others to be more to the point, you are free to change my
choice... Between 3 P.M. and 4 P.M. Monday,
1/08/34, I will
be at ..., Alabama. That is the address of the ... Company.
I do not know if my questions will be of any assistance to
you, as I cannot ask directly what I wish to know.
Nevertheless I have one or two questions I would like to ask:
"Must I live so that my conduct would, were it generally
known, win general approbation, or may I safely conduct
myself to my own moral satisfaction? (I do not admit of low
moral standards.) [GD's note: Is he confessing to being
homosexual?]
"Is there any way I can attain physical and mental strength,
and spiritual poise enough, to retain the few friends I am
capable of making, or must I always find it necessary to part
with my friends? I might explain that it has usually been my
inability to 'get along' with my friends that has disrupted
our relationships. I have always been afraid of my friends
tiring of me, and that constant fear has made me too
watchful, too observant of their dispositions toward me.
That in turn has aroused my imagination to slights that I
suppose were never meant. I know that really that is merely
hyper-sensitiveness. It all, I believe, connects up with my
primary misfortune.
Now, after such a serious and revealing letter as this, where
is my skepticism?..."
"P.S. Please excuse this carelessly written letter. I'm
sorry I haven't time to rewrite it in better form and more
legibly. I do want to add one more question and also to make
clear one thing. First: What is exactly the nature and
source of my weakness and what remedy is there? I do not
know whether I have made it clear that I am thoroughly in
doubt as to the type of reading that would best suit my case.
After thinking the matter over I doubt seriously that the
Physical Reading is what I want. Yet I am sure that there
would be something of value to me in it. I shall leave it to
your judgement as to which of the three readings I need.
"I will not try now to express my appreciation for your time
and consideration, but I have to thank you substantially and
materially a little later on..."
REPORTS
1/09/34 GD's letter to [
479]: "...Never, in my whole ten
years of experience with this work, have I witnessed such a
reading in answer to a Physical Suggestion. We decided
to get the Physical Reading first, for I felt that whatever
might be the cause or cure of the condition would be given.
"You will notice that we got the reading on Saturday before
the appointment was set for Monday, as we had a message from
New York saying that one of our members would be here Monday
only for a reading. We felt it would be all right to go
ahead and get the reading for you ahead of time. I've been
delayed in getting it written.
"I wish you could have heard the reading being given. It was
simply marvelous. Of course, I have no way of knowing just
how it will affect you - or whether it will mean anything at
all or not. I do feel that I have a pretty good
understanding of the cause and the remedy, from this reading.
There is so much in it that I would like to discuss with you;
for reference is made in several places to understandings and
information which we have heretofore received through the
readings. In your reading, briefly, there is a whole history
of the fall of man and his rise again - through the
perfection of the man Jesus into the Christ, through eons of
time and incarnations in the earth - and we are supposed to
follow after; in fact, our only hope is in doing that. You
will notice that a saying of Joshua [Josh. 24:15] is
accredited to the Master. That is because we have had
information saying that Joshua was one of the incarnations of
the Master. You can see from this just why your reading is
so all-inclusive, and why it is impossible in one little
letter to give you a comprehensive view of the whole thing
but I do hope that you write me about it, and ask any
questions about any part of it that especially appeals or
does not appeal to you. I'll be glad to enlarge on any
portion of it which I feel I understand. But first it would
be better for you to ask the questions.
"Further on I think it would be well for you to have a Life
Reading, to explain your own individual purpose in relation
to the Whole - just where and when was the cause, in your own
soul, which has brought about the effect in the present.
Because always there is a cause, in each individual - not in
someone else. There is a cause in other individuals' for
their association and "relationship in connection with you,"
but the primary cause for your OWN predicament is within your
own soul's development. See what I mean? That is true with
each of us. 'As ye sow, so shall ye reap.' And as we reap
what we have sown, we come to realize just what was wrong
with our sowing and how we can make a better planting of the
next crop. You see? It is only through passing through the
shadow that we can appreciate the light. So, as the reading
says, even our greatest hindrance may come to be our greatest
blessing - a blessing in disguise. Our weakness becomes our
strength. It was so with the Master, who is our example. If
He had not endured the Cross, He would not have gained the
Crown - neither would He have been the Savior of the world.
'The people that walked in darkness have seen a great light.'
It is always through trials and tribulations and sufferings
that we arrive at any great understanding or worthwhile
existence.
"Please study this over with [
641], and both of you ask me
questions in regard to it - and I will answer from the
understanding that I have gained from a study of the
information that comes through these sources. It has meant
much to me to know that the answer to every problem is within
my own soul. 'The kingdom is within.' The cause has been
within, hence the remedy must be from within. Let me hear
from you..."
4/20/34 EC wrote offering to give his interpretation if [
479]
wanted it.
8/22/34 Mr. [
641] said that [
479] had discarded the reading
as of being not pertinent to his problem.
7/06/78 GD's note: Today Mr. [
641], friend of [
479], told me
that [
479] died in 1973. His problem had been the
homosexual tendencies and he managed to live with it; never
got married but for many years had the close companionship of
a younger man. Apparently it did not make him an outcast,
since he finished his education, became a teacher of English
in a college. He must have been a good teacher, since he
remained with the school all those years until his death at
the age of 60.


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