(Q) [
900]'s, Wednesday Night, May 5, or Thursday Morning,
May 6, 1926. "I seemed to be enlisted in the army as a
private and was marching with my squad. It seemed we were
marching in into the hall of the old Sunday school, when
suddenly my lieutenant ordered me to step out for not keeping
my line straight. For not following in line I was to be
brought before the commander on charges. I spoke to another
soldier in service and he told me he had been sentenced to a
heavy prison term and that he had suffered and gone through
much. I felt this couldn't happen to me. He seemed to be on
the mat again, so to speak. We both went before the
commander to be tried. I felt awkward before the judge -
didn't know just what to do. I noticed my lieutenant adopt
the proper and customary form, clicking his heels together
and saluting. I tried to follow suit, but was clumsy and
self conscious. The charge was made against me, and I
wondered why so much fuss was made about such a little thing
and why I was taken so to task when I really intended no
wrong. The commander stood up and drew lines on a
blackboard to explain it to me. It all seemed unnecessary
detail, making something out of nothing - paying too much
attention to this detail. Suppose I was a little out of
line, why fuss so - why not let it pass - why so particular
with me? So I reasoned and felt. The commander drew an
illustration so: [See Source Key File #900 for hand-drawn
diagram re 900-234]. Pointing out that the solid line was
the proper line of direction, the One course, and that while
I followed it up to a point, I then varied, strayed in
direction as the dotted line indicated or wavered back and
forth from the condition of a straight to a crooked line,
thus causing an imperfect whole line - i.e. not a straight
line at times. At this, it seemed a whole class of
subordinate students appeared, many raising their hands to
ask questions - most it seemed the same question, namely:
'We do not mean or intend to get out of line from certain
points - why punish us?' The teacher or commander for the
moment disregarded our signalling hands and went on showing
how we waver or spoil our lines, our one straight course at
times at different points, at which we grew eager and
impatient, I in particular. The commander finally came to
that proposition we wanted to ask, knowing full well the
question in our minds. 'What if you don't intend getting out
of line?' he asked. 'That is it,' I blurted out, as though
to say 'At last you come to the important point, which you
seem to have missed.' My lieutenant, angered that I should
dare to talk to my superior and not observe proper military
form and respect, clapped his hand over my mouth and kept it
there. It was none too gentle either. In an impatient and
exasperated way and gesticulating the commander used a
pointer to indicate cell windows in a jail and said: 'Then
if you are guiltless and not subject to punishment because of
unmeaning breaking of the law (here to keep in line), then so
also is this man and that and that and that,' - indicating
men in jail or those occupying the cells. Turning to my
lieutenant, simultaneously, with this explanation by the
commander, I said through his hand that muffled my voice:
'You can take your hand away, I am not going to talk any
more.' I tried to smile and be good natured. He became
incensed at my seeming insubordination. 'How dared I talk to
a superior? I should speak when spoken to and obey - not
question or talk!' Then he thrashed me thoroughly. 'I am
going to give you a little advance punishment,' he said, and
proceeded to do so. He did a good job too, for I felt his
blows fall as I dropped to the floor. All the while the
commander, himself angered, continued explaining. Now then,
thrashed and mortified, I picked myself up. Self conscious
again, I wondered how I should look. If I looked angry my
punishment became evident to all, and besides if I deserved
it why be angry at the lieutenant? My eyes, I remembered,
reflected my soul, the inner mind power, so I caused no look
of anger to come into my eyes by reflecting a condition of
mind that cast out any condition of anger. Again, should I
manifest self sympathy and thus show weakness? How could I
manifest other than the pain (physical) and mortification
(mental), I felt? By banishing the thought of both from my
mind. I saw my own eyes, not flashing in anger, not full of
self sympathy, but expressionless, my head up and shoulders
squared. So I marched out of the room to the jail and my
attitude, for the first time excited favorable comment from
my immediate superior - the lieutenant. Then in the jail
cell paying the penalty, I noticed the filthy mattress on the
couch and the cell bare. 'Alright,' I thought, 'If I have to
pay this penalty, I'll use the same method.' I looked at the
bars and put them from my mind and they disappeared and in
their place sunshine and a beautiful countryside view
appeared. That mattress worried me though, for its filth
may indicate someone diseased slept there before. I though
of putting my head where the feet generally were, but that
would do no good. This was a condition not so easily
disposed of."
(A) In this there is seen and experienced by this entity, in
the mental faculties of same, that correlation of
subconscious forces of the entity in that experience
necessary for the mental mind to gain that full conception
of the entity's attitude towards the conditions in the
physical manner, that are presented by those who would in
any way and manner attempt to deter the entity from the path
that has been set by the entity, in the way of following the
truth as appears in the correct way and manner for this
entity, and in same (as is seen that the entity reasons from
within self for that necessary to meet or cope with
punishments that are meted out to the body, for
indiscretions that are unintentional on the part of the
entity in physical action), as is seen, the entity filling
the mind with that that is beautiful, and does not place
self first, or does not condemn, the bars turn to sunshine
and open spaces, or as may be seen in another way and manner
- that the entity should ever be ready to answer for that
truth, that faith, that lies within, and as is seen by
punishment by superior numbers, by superior in rank, these
appear as are seen only in the material or in the physical
life, for when the mental mind is made One with the Universal
Forces, then the overcoming is as that necessary to make the
body, mentally and physically, free indeed; for, as is seen,
the strength for the physical comes by the intent, by the
purpose, of the mind, for the Mind is the Builder in the
physical as well as in the spiritual, and again, as is seen
in the manner of the couch, or of the mattress that is
filthy, and the reasoning as is seen - that when these may
not be removed, even as the bars, that the fault lies from
within, and in the entity's or in the mental force of the
individual toward that of the force as applied, and as this
again may be taken as a whole by the entity in applying those
lessons as are seen in the application of the truths as are
being set as truth, in that way that others may apply same in
their individual lives, for the Mind the Builder - the Mind
filled with good, there is no place for the subordination -
of that which is superior.