(Q) "I was anywheres at any given time. I was contemplating
the wonder of the inner power of all phenomena of the Lord.
I was reflecting upon this power's directing force away from
one self - hypnotizing its portion (as Bergsen [Henri
Bergsen] puts it) so as to appear in individual flesh form
and material phenomena. Also my experiences in this form,
and I was very happy in my double vision of the outer form
and inner process. Then a girl, seemingly representing the
wisdom and consciousness of this inner power, and who seemed
perfectly aware of my limited knowledge, threw a stone into
space. It passed like a shooting star thru the skies and hit
some animal there in space. 'He is going to get something he
doesn't expect,' said the girl, referring to me, and beheld
it was so, for the stone striking the animal in space brought
it to earth. There were two of them and they were in cages.
On earth they crawled along on their belly like a hideous
snake, yet with head and neck upraised like powerful dragons.
They moved around, dragging their cage with them. They came
close to the girl, close to other things, and altho they
looked dangerous, and I feared greatly for everything and
everyone the animal came near, they seemed to do no harm -
in fact helped matters. How I cannot say, for I felt them a
menace - i.e. viewed them with fear, but observed they did no
harm. The fear was in me, the hideous interpretation of what
I cognized in me, but good seemed to be in them, for they
suddenly changed from hideous animals to pretty little
children, free, laughing and dancing in glee. This pretty
vision, this inspiring experience was repeated in this
fashion: I was in a house with this girl who seemed to
represent the power, the inner impetus - the Lord of
creation, or as represented in me, my subconscious self,
which in a lower dimension is present in all things. I was
in the material house and knew my elusive pretty companion
was also there. Yet I had much to learn about her, and she
determined to give me a lesson. Mind, now, I knew she was
there, saw in the vision the lesson she planned to surprise
me with - that is, I was (supposedly) unaware of her plans.
I climbed up the stairs of the house, and as I did so the
girl said to someone: 'We'll give him a surprise and teach
him.' This all behind my back, so to speak. As I entered
the room, instead of the beautiful girl I expected to find
I beheld a hideous black face, so ugly and so ferocious that
I fainted with fright! Upon awakening I beheld the figure
transformed again into the pretty girl. She stood over me,
winsome, smiling and encouraging. Happy - recognizing the
spirit - I was yet afraid."
(A) In this there is seen to the entity that emblematical
experience of the conditions as have [been] and are taking
place within the inmost self, for these emblematical visions
are as the truths the entity is propounding to self and those
preparations for those being given to others, and, as is
seen, each condition represents to the entity those various
phases of same, and the fear as is seen from within self
being that condition that prevents the entity from gaining
the full concept, full joy, full purpose of the lesson as
would be gained through those higher forces, as are
represented in the girl, the figure, and the fear is seen
to turn these conditions into those monsters that would be
either dragging the cages about, or of the hideous black
monster, for these are as truths, and the entity gains the
lesson from same.
(Q) This represents FEAR, again and again presented to me
and I divide it into these phases: 1. Fear of the
supernatural. 2. Fear of criticism, social and in daily
life. 3. Fear of physical failure in undertakings - being
made a fool of. 4. Fear of the ferocious or savage
appearing things in nature (snakes, savage beasts and men).
5. Fear that I may push too far, too hard or in a direction
displeasing to the Lord. Is this the correct
interpretation?
(A) Just as given. The entity sees, understands, knows the
lessons. The perfect love casteth out fear. Put the love,
trust and faith perfectly in Him, the Giver of all good and
perfect gifts, for, as has been said, "The Silver and the
Gold is mine, saith the Lord."