(Q) Third part: In this connection - that is, in
preparation for conditions connected with just this
problem, I saw opposite many riding motorcycles at a
dangerously low angle in order to avoid an enemy. I went
into some training, for I fenced with a sword with many and
proved exceptionally skillful. "You are excellent at it,"
praised my companions. "I am only a beginner," I replied
modestly. Then came war in earnest. Our group retreated to
a room or fortress. In one or in groups the enemy entered
and as they did so I slew them with my sword or spear. Once
I sat down to rest, and it seemed one of the enemy had
gotten in. The latter sneaked up behind me and was about to
strike at me with his sword. "Look out, [
900]!" some of
our men shouted. I saw the shadow on the wall, saw the
upraised weapon and jumped just in time to escape death. As
I turned on my enemy, he called "Kamarad!" "Kamarad,
nothing," I replied, and slew him. Then two others of the
opposing side entered. They were of very high rank and wore
brilliant uniforms decorated with medals. I was in complete
command now. The conspicuous two saluted me and begged for
mercy. "Mercy," I said. "Mercy - wherein do you deserve
it?" [
137] interrupted here. "Silence!" I commanded.
"Can't I even speak?" asked [
137] humorously. "Silence!" I
reiterated. Then, turning to my antagonists, I continued:
"You people ought pray to God to forgive you for causing me
to do this." Then I threw the weapon and slew them both. I
was the master and recognized as such.
(A) In this another emblematical condition as regarding the
studies, and of the preparation for those conditions as are
being presented by the entity. In that of the cycle to avoid
the enemy, in the low way and manner, or the stooping
position, or the angle as is seen, just so the angle, as
the truth, will be presented by the entity to the peoples,
to prevent much of the criticism or scoffing that the entity
has long feared. Direct conditions, then, that may be
applied in the entity's life by the entity, in the conditions
in the attempts of the literary forces of the entity.
(Q) The Leviathan again? The previous master, Achilles?
Achilles killed his enemies - he was master to this extent,
but [
900] blesses his enemies - thus becomes master, not in
a limited fashion (Anchorage) but of life and its creative
action (Leviathan). Correct? [See
900-38 Ck. Life on
Achilles.]
(A) Correct.
(Q) That is, I wonder at times, why life plays me such a
trick as making me that which cannot again be the master in
the way Achilles was. This the answer - i.e. that Achilles
mastered the earth and death was his weapon. [
900] may
master the Universe, tho the earth may not even know it
- altho later it may, for now "life" is the weapon.
(A) (Interrupting) Correct.
(Q) A leader in spirit - yet Moses fought and was a good
soldier and did not believe himself capable of spiritual
leadership, but God said, "Yes, I will help you." I, too
feel too insignificant for the part - feel often like
throwing up the sponge. My present leadership requires
more courage than Achilles - it is not conspicuous - it is
a lonesome job and not understood. Peculiarly enough before
this dream my mother said to me: "Don't act as tho you are
beaten. Be happy with the rest of them - show them you are
in spite of them - fight!" God has said, "I will help you,"
- not in general but directly to me. Then a little of
Achilles' courage might do me good just now. I may again
lead my forces - not against the Trojans - but against
ignorance, blindness, unconsciousness and death.
(A) (Interrupting) and superstition.
(Q) (Continuing) Correct?
(A) Correct.
That is all.
Then, take counsel with self, and through same gain that
closeness of the God, the Father, with the entity, even
as Moses spoke face to face. Take then from that counsel
that courage, that desire, to throw self in that position
of defense for a principle, even as Achilles, and the answer
will be the courage, the leadership, the position, exercised
by the present entity above them all.