(Q) Then briefly Gary pointed out, in terms of business of
a kind that we both understand, a definite specific example
of what the matter with me is. Here it is: A tall young man
brought in a bill of $4.75 for our firm to pay. I turned to
him and said: "Now listen here. I told the boy before that
we don't owe that bill and when I say a thing I mean it. We
don't owe that bill and won't pay it. We didn't execute
those orders." "Don't owe this bill of $4.75? We corrected
it from $8.25. Look how it is figured," and he showed me
the sheet on which a lot of lines were drawn and a lot of
figures. "We don't owe it and won't pay it," I said. "Look
it over," he said. "Say, get out, will you?" I said, "or
must I call the porter to show you out." He persisted and I
- aggravated - called the porter to show him out. Then the
man turned out to be J. D. Frankel, the head of the firm who
is giving me business in Park & Tilford Stock. How mortified
I was. I tried to fix things up by seating him at my desk
and trying to come in with a bill to him and thus make him
see my viewpoint. I tried to explain my way out. I was
disgusted with myself for allowing myself to get into such a
predicament. It finished that I owed $8.75 instead of $4.75
and had to pay it. I lost in business, in self respect, and
in personal regard of others for me, and I above all need
these three - for that I am attempting to do and achieve -
i.e. at least respect of others, and respect for myself,
and that measure of business success that will facilitate
my achieving the necessary economic freedom to do the
educational and Association work I seek to do.
(A) This representing a specific conditions, or a trend, as
it were, to the entity, as respecting the various things that
will be - and as are being presented to the entity through
these communications as are being presented to the entity
through these communications as are being gained from that
force as represented in the earth plane through that of Gary.
Well the entity has gained the interpretation as is necessary
for the entity's application, and the entity through this way
and manner - and through these various channels - may gain
for self that better understanding, that better peace, that
better application of those truths as may be applied in the
life, whether as to social, business, of WHATEVER the
relation may be - for all force is as one force, and the
application is applicable, whether it is selling shoes or
selling stocks, or whether worship in the church or whether
making love in the home - for love is law, law is love.
Application of all force is as one, varying according to
the individual, or to the own entity's application of same,
and view and concept of same in its relation to that as is
set as the criterion of the entity's endeavors.
Much may be said as respecting these conditions as present
themselves to this entity, [
900], at this time - yet these,
in this small way, without any of that of the making undue
consideration or undue noise as to what IS being presented -
but will the entity [if the entity will] but study for the
moment of the bigness that is being SHOWN the entity, then
will the entity declare within self that, "I WILL be worthy,
and WILL apply that being given me."