2/08/30 [
900]'s letter to EC:
"...If once, at least three or four times, I have started a
letter to you, but something always prevented my completing
same. I have often wondered if your vacation provided you
with the same mental and physical relaxation that mine has.
I surely trust so as you seemed well worn when I last saw
you, but your letter came and was reassuring. I was more
than happy to hear that some of the strain had been lifted
from you by Dr. Lydic's efficiency and that this influenced a
better physical condition for you. It shows how the mental
influences adversely or constructively our whole development.
Therefore, despite your improved physical, I am sure you will
or have benefited immensely from your trip away. Did you go
to Texas?
"[
137] wrote me of the purchase of the lot and erection of
new building to house the help, and asked me if I thought
this a proper and advantageous step. Naturally I would and
of course anything helpful to the work is my happiness and I
am only glad to lend a hand where I may. While I do not
exactly agree with you on the matter of systematization of
handling requests for readings, and the readings themselves,
yet you are the channel for the giving of same and if the
present system pleases you, it certainly is perfectly
satisfactory to me. So far as this end is concerned, I only
had you in mind when I spoke to you regarding same - no
selfish motive of my own. I only want to make it so that you
can give the readings, to your own and others' best advantage
- to contribute my services, etc., towards this end - not in
any way interfere with how, when and where they are to be
given.
"I know that the readings have provided me with lesson[s]
that have enabled me to reach a more advanced state of
consciousness and understanding. I believe they have
likewise helped [
137], and with his fine spiritual
qualities, have no doubt but what they will bring him to a
very advanced state of consciousness. Thus it is natural
that [
137] would prove a logical and very worthwhile
individual to explain a spiritual reading. As given in a
reading, we have explained each other's experiences to each
other, thrashing them out, trying to understand them. We
have done each other much good and there is a certain kind
of experience that [
137] understands and interprets
exceedingly well - I know he has helped me immensely.
Naturally, then, he may likewise help others. Furthermore,
[
137]'s quiet, gentle and sincere manner is inspiring of
confidence in itself, and I am sure the Russian lady [
5469]
will not be disappointed in [
137]. He will go so far with
her - no farther - he will not press her - and to a certain
type person that is another advantage he has.
"I have no doubt but what the lady in question and [is] a
very worthwhile and lovely person and thus draws fine mental
forces to give a beautiful and spiritual reading. We all
have our gods so to speak, even as we are gods ourselves, yet
all One in Him. The greatest thing we can and are privileged
to do for people, as I see it, is to awaken them to the
Christ consciousness within. It doesn't matter how we do it
- through your Bible lessons, your readings, [
137]'s
intuitive demonstrations and lessons, my teachings, lesson
and exhortation, our hospital and psychical research, our
University or whatnot - it all has this one common end - to
awaken first the individual, then groups of individuals, then
the masses to the Christ consciousness within and our common
brotherhood in the Father. This, of course, is only another
way of saying that we each are a self-conscious portion of
the control, God-Head or Mind, (subconscious or otherwise)
that to the extent of our development, may and does control
the Universal substance of mind and all form, the all
prevailing and eternal substance of intelligence, form and
vibration. When we look at the earth, rocks, trees, flowers,
we see a lower developed formation of what we are a formation
of. When we eat food, drink water, breathe air, we are
simply transplanting from the outside to the inside what life
is in and outside of ourselves. When we look at an animal,
again we see a lower, (but higher than vegetable), formation
of the same thing as composes our own being and when we look
upon other people we see our own selves - all perfection, and
if we raise our consciousness we may experience with our
internal spiritual senses this perfection of all - experience
with our perfect selves the harmony and peace of Universal
being - of the Holy Ghost of celestial formation. First, to
understand this oneness; second, to experience it
introspectively; third, to apply it, use it, breathe this
ideal into material realization - this, it seems to me,
should be the trinity of our one, single and common purpose
as related to ourselves for the good we may do in teaching
others to do likewise. While we are teaching others to so
attain and so apply we may help them to health,
understanding and happiness through our own application in
their behalf. Is this not your idea of an analysis of what
our purpose should be? I know you agree with me, and I know
you, with your powerful mind, will give your life, if
necessary, (and you nearly have at times), in such a noble
service.
"Probably you will say this is tiresome repetition, but
Edgar, much has been given me - much has happened to me and I
have learned much since my trip abroad. A new perspective,
even if of the same thing has come to me. We have nothing to
fear, unless it is lack of self-confidence, caused by others
who have prestige in the world and our own lack of
understanding. We cannot possibly lose anything, so long
as we do not lose faith. We are in the Lord and He in us,
to the extent that we shall even overcome death - it shall
not stop us. The barrage of the mightiest of the gods goes
before us. We are invincible, powerful, irresistible,
unconquerable and victorious! We are positive, not
negative; sure of ourselves but not dogmatic; living in a
common and affectionate brotherhood but not weak or sloppy;
loving the Lord and man, yet none may take advantage; all
this are we, yet not us but He within us manifests through
to make us all this - to give us an overflowing cup of
health, prosperity and above all, understanding in mental
and application.
"Are our little differences then so important? Do we not
haggle over stones, while pearls lie at our feet? To you
with your great mental development has come the joy of
enriching the lives of many; of enriching the world; of
glorifying man and, thus, God. Are our - yours and my -
little differences really aggravating because I cannot go on
without you, nor you without me? As a child needs both
father and mother, so our child, our ideal, conceived from
different viewpoints in the minds of both of us, needs both
of us. That does not mean each is not a vital, important and
integral part of the work - but you and I first conceived the
ideal, transformed it into an idea, and have, above others,
the mind power to breathe it into material realization.
"When we work in harmony, God alone knows how far we may go.
Even in that, man calls death, you waited for me, (as I saw
it), and even then we applied our power for good. When two
such powerful forces clash, then the whole organization is
disrupted - becomes discouraged - breaks down. Just as [
137]
can best give, minister to and teach some, so each of us best
fits the mind of some. You are still the priest interpreting
from that viewpoint; I am still the teacher and exhorter;
[
137] does what we teach and ministers accordingly - we each
have our place - have we not? Look at it another way. I
don't know what chapter is your favorite in the Bible, but
[
137]'s is 'John'; mine, 'Paul'. [See
900-454, Par. 18-A,
19-A] That somewhat indicates the difference, yet all of us
may, should, must, work towards the same above described
ideal, and through our institutions work to realize same. If
we work in harmony we work scientifically and according to
law and nothing may or can defeat the realization of our
purpose. If we do not work in harmony, each from our own
viewpoint, applying our own gifts, mental abilities and
attributes towards this common purpose, then we tear down the
house with one hand that we seek to build with the other. Is
this not scientific, according to law? Is this not common
sense? Then let us bury our little differences as unworthy
of our glorious goal, and let the ideal inspire us to greater
achievements, and the Spiritual Force, Father or God ever
renew in our hearts greater courage and faith.
"True, some on our board have not gone very far, even in
their efforts towards achieving a higher consciousness, so as
to spiritualize, mortalize, eternalize even their physical
natures, but consciously or unconsciously they grow with the
seed we, who are making progress along these lines, implant
within them - within their minds and hearts. They will get
there, unless we falter or fail and disappoint them - in
spite of their conscious selves. They do not, some of them,
see us as we are. Some see us out of business eyes alone,
putting our higher selves aside as secondary. Some see us as
sincere but with doubtful eyes. Some see us in seemingly
unbalanced or unfair physical positions; but all will someday
see, but only when for themselves they have experienced with
the inner eye, ear, nose and mouth, that which we, from
within have experienced. Then will come the awakening that
we all seek to bring about, and in seeking to give it to
others achieve it in greater measure for ourselves, and thus
bring to ourselves a greater measure of realization of our
desires, material and otherwise, as well as greater peace and
happiness.
"[
137] has gone far in this direction and will achieve much
more. To me the promise made twice, once in the reading and
once to me direct by Jesus, is what your promise and vision
was and is to you. I have never forgotten, nor will I ever
forget the words in the reading taken in that little room in
the ... Hotel, N.Y. It was: 'Let this entity know that
again in Israel is one whom the Gods have given the approach
to the throne - even to the Holy of Holies. Not in ages has
one lived in the world so capable of understanding the
symbols of the physical plane...' [900-13?] etc. I shall
never forget those words - hoping ever to merit them and
prove faithful to them. The second promise, that of the
Master who appeared before me saying: 'While in the flesh
ye shall serve man, but when thou art come into spirit, shalt
thou rise and man shall worship thee as me.' - And the
reading interpreted this as real, saying that it was not an
ordinary dream but: 'Again the entity rises even to the Holy
of Holies...' etc. These are the two inspiring experiences
of my life - and what you have done for me - the blessing and
self-awakening that, through your service, have come to me,
you may likewise bring to others and thus gather the lambs to
His fold. Your own consciousness has risen to great heights,
as we all know and your understanding of the Master's
teachings is great indeed. [
195] we know, is developing and
unfolding beautifully, and his achievement will be great
indeed. Others will follow - and in Zion shall our name be
written, in the glory of the kingdom shall we, all of us bask
in peace and power and eternal life.
"I will not further bore you with my great experience in
which the stars unfolded - when I saw my physical body in bed
and left it to rise into what we call space - when I saw the
formation of the soul - the son - the only begotten - in each
of us - and was told: 'Now you understand the Father, Son
and Holy Ghost.' Much of this experience I cannot recall
physically - only feel it intuitively - some I remember - but
it was mighty and happened while I lie sick in Nice. Yes,
sick and how sick. That was an achievement for me. I
collapsed completely while in Nice. My antrums throbbed; my
ear hurt; a fierce boil developed on my neck; filled with
poisons. I collapsed one evening in my room and they put me
to bed. How I prayed and suffered that night no one will
know. I wanted to cable for a reading yet was told to heal
myself would be a triumph in faith and learning for me. I
wanted no doctor, yet the next afternoon as my fever mounted
and I felt about ready to die, I asked for a doctor. [
136]
rallied, or the forces did through her. 'Don't have one,
[
900]' she said. And how that little soul did work with me.
Day and night, constantly, both of us following that given to
do through our own consciousness'. I could feel the forces
about, working on me. I talked to them, naturally - yet this
afternoon as I weakened, I lost awareness of them and [
136]
strengthened. 'Ask them if we are doing the right thing,' I
replied to [
136]. She replied that they said we were.
Remember we were alone - the two of us, knowing no one -
among those who hardly spoke our language. As [
136] said:
'One of the hardest jobs was to make them understand what we
wanted.' The first night was tough indeed. I went to the
bathroom and fainted there. When I returned I felt them
working on me. One spoke to me in French and strangely
enough I understood him. He cheered me and laughingly I
answered out loud, saying merely, 'Oui', meaning 'Yes.' The
second night I felt the blood being forced through my veins -
I was half asleep. I was told what to eat and about 4 A.M.,
I heard my father say: 'Now we have met the enemy and they
are ours'. The next day my ear and antrum was better. The
boil opened, but even yet my neck is bandaged. The next
night was one of peace and the great experience. The third
day I felt much better, and I'm sure here again, what would
be considered a miracle was performed. The third day [
136]
said: 'They tell me you should get up awhile.' I tried. It
was tough and wanted to get back to bed. [
136] said they
were telling her: 'Tell him to stand up and tell himself he
is well. Make him stay up.' I did. That night Irving
Steiner, who died of cancer of the rectum, announced himself
and said: "Now watch his kidneys. Give him enemas and guard
closely.' A doctor told us what medicine to get - a doctor
in spirit and I got it - took it and am still taking it. The
doctor spoke to me saying, 'Now I don't want you to put too
much Mercurochrome on your boil. Take the medicine I gave
you, (a peculiar foreign concoction of beef, iron and wine,
but better for me than any I have ever taken), and in 8 days
from last Monday your boil will be better. Again and again
and again I tell you, watch your diet and rest. You need
quiet, rest, sleep and light foods. Stay much in the
sunshine. I will watch you.'
"Well, now what would you call that? Thank Him within. I am
feeling fine again. True, my cheeks scare people, they are
so sunken and I feel embarrassed. True, I need weight, but
I'm gaining remarkably every day. [
136] says I now look
better than when we left N.Y. and I certainly feel better.
Did I have a doctor? The king of doctors. Did I have a
reading? Many of them. The Lord has given to me a thousand
fold whatever little I have given to Him. I may only serve -
never repay and I'll never forget that lesson and I pray I
may hold to that consciousness of and in the Universal that I
had during my short but horrible illness - for which I am
thankful since it helped bring me to that.
"For this I thank you and the service you have rendered. A
great unfoldment you have given to me and awakened me to a
power the readings have told me I have, but which I never
before realized. Above all, I am grateful to Him who did the
work, and if the help you give others awakens them anywhere
near to this degree - that they may do for themselves what
the readings do for them - then you are doing a bigger work
indeed, than any of us ever dreamed of.
"My best to you and yours..."
2/18--21/30 EC was in N.Y. [
137] and [
257] and [
165] met
with him at Health Rooms, Inc. See [
295]'s diary-like
account, in the [
295] series.
2/24/30 [
137]'s letter to EC:
"...As a suggestion for the hospital report, as a result of
our week-end last week, I submit for your approval the
following resolutions:
(1) - that the Association of National Investigators, Inc.,
extend to Dr. Parker [James R. Parker, M.D.] their
appreciation of the services offered by him in the time of
their need.
(2) - that under the present regime of the hospital, it would
be to the advantage of the hospital to have Dr. Parker
retained, but this in a part-time manner.
(3) - It is suggested by the Committee that Dr. Parker be
retained at a salary of $100 per month, to visit the hospital
once a week, and to fill such needs at that time as the Chief
of Staff requires. Also, that Dr. Parker, in the event of
any necessity, be at the call of the Chief of Staff, other
than this once a week visit.
(4) - Upon the completion of our Auxiliary Building for the
hospital, the only persons entitled to their free board and
lodging will be the nurses. All others will be charged $30
per month for board and lodging, this being a very nominal
figure as compared to similar institutions.
(5) - Upon completion of investigation regarding a suitable
X-Ray for the hospital, Dr. Lydic will submit these findings
to the Hospital Committee for their action.
(6) - Dr. Lydic shall proceed with his installation of a
laboratory and other things of a minor financial nature, as
he sees fit to make our Research Department a perfect unit.
"If these suggestions are not as you feel they should be,
don't hesitate to let me know, or if you have any additions
to make, please do so..."
3/11/30 EC's letter to [
900]:
"...Well, I'm certainly glad to know you are back, safe and
alright, and that you are all feeling pretty good. Of course
we are all rather anxious to see you and talk with you, and
hear about your trip. I am sure you had a great time, and
that it was well worthwhile.
"Everything is going along fairly well, I think. Of course,
we can't tell all the little things that have come up, or do
come up. You will only see those when you are here. We made
note of the beginning of the lecture. While the hallway, or
the smoking room, is not as big or broad a place as the
living room upstairs, I think it will be a very good place to
have the meetings temporarily, and it will be a great deal
better - for both the study class and the Sunday afternoon
lectures - to have them there, than to have to go off to some
other place. Naturally, with the discussions that have gone
on, pro and con, concerning the possibility of the
university, there has been a great deal more interest
manifested in a general way, than there has been heretofore.
In fact, we are having a great many more local applications
for readings, and for people to enter the hospital, than we
have ever had before. There are four or five in the
hospital at present from Norfolk. So, you may know that
there is considerable interest being manifested in the
vicinity, that we hadn't had until recently.
"I got hold of Mr. Simpson, the County Surveyor or Engineer,
and had Him go over the grounds. As it happened, Mr. Lee was
there looking after the construction of the forms for the
foundation of the nurses home, and he went over it with Mr.
Simpson. They were in a big hurry, but drew off a rough
sketch, which I think will explain the situation to Mr.
Emmons [Laurence B. Emmons of Laurence B. Emmons, Inc.,
architect?, interior decorator, NYC.] in such a way that he
will have no trouble in figuring on the foundation
measurements for working plans. Roughly, it means the
foundation, or top of foundation for the buildings, will be
four and a half feet above the roadway level. This will
make the most economical situation, as we figured out this
morning - forcing us to make the least fills, to dig the
least for the foundation, the least excavation and the least
filling, and should give proper height for all the lower
floors. I hope this will prove just what Mr. Emmons will
need for the foundation end of the proposition.
"Kindest regards and love from all to all..."
3/19/30 [
900]'s letter to EC:
"...Enclosed please find check in the amount of $1,000, about
which I spoke to you over the telephone.
"Will you please send Laurence Emmons a check in the amount
of $1,000. As he has been calling me several times, and as I
have already delayed it considerably, I would appreciate your
sending him check without delay.
"We expect to be down Saturday noon, and will talk things
over with you at that time, and will, therefore, not draw
this letter out any longer.
"It was good to hear your voice again, and I assure you I
look forward with much anticipation to seeing you and all,
this week-end..."
3/21/30 [
900]'s wire to EC:
"Please wire if foundation plans received from Emmons and if
these are sufficient to proceed..." [See Source File Key
#900 for sketches showing the proposed architectural design
of Atlantic University by Laurence B. Emmons re 900-464.]
3/21/30 EC's wire to [
900]:
"Sufficient to proceed. Thanks." Edgar
3/22/30 He obtained his next Check Physical reading,
900-465.
5/09/30 [
900]'s letter to EC:
"...Enclosed please find the letter sent to me some time ago,
which I have no doubt you want for your files.
"We have received a letter from Lydic, stating that 10% of
the X-Ray must be paid immediately. This 10% would amount to
about $300. Would you be so kind as to pay that out of the
money we gave you, and then we will take care of the later
payments as they come due. This will allow for the
installation of the X-Ray immediately.
"Will you please send [
137] and myself some application
blanks to the Association.
"I am in receipt of a letter from [
195] who objects
strenuously to using the property we spoke of, as a private
enterprise to build houses for the faculty. The following is
an exact quotation from his letter:
'It has always been a vision to me of a large hospital on
106th Street, [now 68th St.] built on 106th Street, facing
the ocean. We could, by purchasing all the property on both
sides of 106th Street, have the street vacated to us and
acquire title thereto. This will probably come much sooner
than we now anticipate, and I feel we can get balance of lots
on 106th Street when the proper time comes.
'In the meantime, if individuals feel the idea of a present
real estate venture is feasible, there is plenty of property
available for building purposes that could be purchased
cheaply enough.
'I am merely writing this to you to voice my objections to
using 106th Street property for anything at this time, or
until that time when some comprehensive plan is adopted and
completed for expansion of the hospital.'
"Thus, you see, [
195] is decidedly opposed to using
Association property for this purpose, and in lieu of this, I
would advise that we discard the idea unless we choose to
purchase some additional property as a personal enterprise,
for this purpose.
"Nothing else new since you left.
"As always, we appreciate the many services you rendered us,
and thank you kindly for same.
"[
137] wishes to convey the news, that [
140] is getting along
very nicely now..."
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