4/14/41 [
934]'s letter to EC:
Dearest Eddie Cakie:
Your "Problem" has a most disturbing problem of her own now.
I am so worried because I have lost two going on three weeks
of work and I've spent every cent I had on medicine for These
two cases of measles. My eye just simply wont get any better
and I've got to go back to work soon or I don't know what
will happen to [
1208] and me.
They have had to give my work to another girl at the office
and now that I have this offer at the Beach they wired me to
come as soon as possible. What shall I do Eddie Cakie. Do
you suppose I am too inconsistent with God that I am punished
this way. I just can't understand it. I want to do what is
right and I thot I was doing pretty well but to have had this
happen to me especially with the responsibility of my boy. I
am not so much afraid for myself but I must get well so I can
care for him. I love him better than anything on the earth
and I am glad for the opportunity of caring and watching and
training him. Of all the people that love him too, I feel
that I am the one God chose to raise him and I do want to
take advantage of the great privilege.
In case anything should ever happen that I couldn't, I hope
you and [
288] will look out for him. My people love him but
they know nothing of the future we plan for him and that is
why I believe you should have him.
This is a serious matter to me and I want so much to get
better. Would it be asking too much to ask for another check
reading some time this week? I can't bring myself to go to a
doctor because with them it is only guess work and I can
guess. From the last check reading I gained a lot of good
information on the care I should exercise over my physical
body but I have followed it as closely as I know how but
still the trouble persists. There is a film over my eye that
wont come off and it burns and stings. I have been using an
ointment called Mettycaine that I got from the druggist that
has alleviated the intense pain somewhat but I am a little
dubious now as to the good if not harm it has done. I've
also used 20% solution of argerol and a solution of boric
acid; putting the mutton tallow compound on my back and
applying the heat lamp twice a day. I haven't read but I
have typed a few letters but I don't have to look at the
typewriter and I can do it in the dark. (Hope you can read
it.)
Use your own judgement Cakie whether or not you think another
reading will help. I don't know. Perhaps I am too impatient
but I can't help worrying. We need the money I earn so
desperately. I have a great faith in God but I also feel
that I should help myself as much as I can and it certainly
isn't his fault that I am in this predicament. Am I wrong
Cakie. Am I on the wrong track? So again I am asking you
for spiritual help and advice. I need you Cakie, VERY MUCH.
4/17/41 See
934-10.



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