Edgar Cayce Readings, 1035-1

(Life Reading Suggestion)

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EC: Yes, we have the records here, that are manifested and innate expressions of the entity now known as or called [1035].
Unusual, beautiful in many ways, are the records here - as we find.
Those things having much to do with what are termed signs or omens become a portion of the entity's experience in the present, through the activities in the earth.
Many of the activities in the earth may be found to have been, some rather gay - but some rather beautiful in their expression; and making for very definite tendencies that are innate and may be expressed in the activities of the entity in the present.
Yet some warnings also appear through those omens. For the entity is among those of the Atlanteans, who in entering the present experience will find things MUST HAPPEN about the entity. And in its activity there is the positiveness that resembles even at times, to many, stubbornness; but should not be considered so much stubbornness as rather the convictions that are deep in the entity's experience through those abilities that are innate in the experience of the soul of the entity.
These conditions used or applied aright in the present may make for influences such that the entity may be called blessed in the experience of many. For many will be influenced by the activities of the entity. And it is as a natural force that the entity will ever excel in its influence among its associates, in whatever may be the choice of the entity's activity in the material world.
The entity will find two influences or sources of expression before it; a career in which it may make for not only a name for itself but beneficial or helpful experiences in the lives of many whom the entity contacts.
Again we would refer to the records as written here, regarding omens:
Amethyst stones should ever be a portion about the body, either in amulets or adornments about the body. These in their very vibration will make for an influence that has to do with the entity in its innate and manifested expressions in its associations.
As to numbers, or numerology: We find that the number nine becomes as the entity's force or influence, which may be seen in that whatever the entity begins it DESIRES to FINISH. Everything must be in order. It is manifested in those tendencies for the expressions of orderliness, neatness. To be sure, nine - in its completeness, then - is a portion.
From the astrological sojourns we find the influences of Jupiter, Venus, Mercury, Saturn, Uranus, Neptune.
And with Neptune and Uranus there is no wonder that many persons will, in their contact with the entity, find expressions as to say, "Well, she is rather curious in her ideas and ideals in many directions." For mystic forces, occult forces, are a portion INNATELY of the entity.
Thus if the entity will act upon not merely the impulse but those URGES that arise from the INNATE influence within self, the more oft will the entity find those things in which it may engage its activity, mentally or physically, will be for the success from every angle.
For the entity is sensitive to not only the environs of mystic forces, as may be said - or occult or spiritual forces and influences, but the SOUL DEVELOPMENT rather has been and is the influence that animates those experiences.
Hence the entity finds in itself at times definite urges in given directions. At times it allows itself to be influenced or talked out of that which is chosen as to its activities; but in meditation, in day-dreaming - as it were - the entity enjoys at times to be alone and to think for itself.
So these influences that arise from the Uranus sojourn, as well as Neptune, bring those periods when many a question, many a problem that becomes a portion of the entity's activities - whether it pertains to the spiritual, the mental, or even the material welfares - may be solved by the entity.
And it would be well that many of those about the entity oft take the entity's advice or counsel.
But if the entity allows this to become active to such an extent that it tends to lord its opinions over others, it brings detrimental influence.
Know the source from which the impulse arises, and we will find the greater blessings, the greater harmony will arise in the experiences of the entity.
From Mercury's sojourn there are the natural high mental abilities, the tendencies for the entity in every association to make for an analyzing of situations, of things, of people.
The entity finds itself in most of its contacts forming definite opinions. These should not ALWAYS become final - that is, the opinions that are once set; yet such tendencies do arise. Weigh them well. Know the purpose or the motivative force from which the activities of others also arise.
This tends also to give the entity that air or feeling of intolerance. And tolerance is that which the entity must CULTIVATE within itself; meeting not only the influences that arise with spiritual forces but with reason, that there may ever be in the imports and activities of the entity - in its relations throughout this experience - a well-balanced, well-rounded experience that may make for, as indicated, the greater advantages not only materially but the mental satisfaction, the material gratifications, and spiritual developments. These should be hand in hand in forming the opinions, in forming those activities that may make for those relationships in the entity's associations throughout this experience.
Those influences from Venus make for a sympathetic activity that BECOMES the entity in all of its relationships, making for a pleasing personality in its meeting with others and in its influencing of those whom it may meet at times.
And the forming of friendships becomes as a NATURAL inclination in the entity's associations, yet there are those tendencies that are indicated at times to END such almost as suddenly as begun. But this, as indicated, if used in those activities in tolerance and patience, may become as one of the beauties, one of the virtues that will make for the growth of the soul, the contentment of the mind, and the fulfilling of its purpose in the earth in the present experience.
From Jupiter (for these interpretations have been given backwards) we find the great expanse, or the large forces or groups to which the influences of the entity may expand. These, to be sure, depend upon the application of not only the personality but the individuality of the entity, and the application of self in relationships to those influences that are indicated innately and that may be manifested.
Remember this, which may be said to be as a LAW - in self, in the earth, in its relations to others:
Like begets like. If you would have friends, be friendly. If you would have loving associations, show thine self lovely. And that YE sow in mind, in activity, ye must reap in thine own experience.
KNOW that the Lord liveth, and manifests in and through thee. And that BORN of the spirit in thine mental self may find expression in the material life. For Mind, in the mental, IS the Builder; and bringeth forth fruits worthy of that which is held in the inmost self in its relationships of self to things, to conditions, to peoples.
For thoughts ARE THINGS, and as the currents run they become miracles or crimes in the experiences of individual life.
As to the appearances in the earth, then, and those that influence the entity in the present, we find:
While these are not ALL, these we find are those making for those urges that come NOW rather as emotions of the mental self; the abilities also of the entity in the present, as applied to those experiences through the astrological sojourns, become a portion of the entity's experience in the present.
Before this we find the entity was in the land now known as Chicago, during those periods when it was Fort Dearborn.
It was during those periods when there were the establishings of the associations in and about that place, when there began to be the relationships established for this not only as a trading post but as a place of abode, as a place to which and from which many in the surrounding lands came to seek those things that might be distributed through those activities in the place.
The entity then was young in years when it came to be a portion of those activities, through its associations with its companions in that sojourn, in the name then Marg Dodson.
In the experience the entity gained, not only in the material things but in the mental and soul development.
Much of the business acumen, much of that expressed in its abilities to judge human nature, arises from the experience in that sojourn. The abilities to make for much of the correlating of plans and ideas become a part of the entity in the emotional portion of itself in the present. Many of the abilities for the making of a career in the present arise from those experiences.
In the present we may find also those abilities to minister unto others in periods when there is the necessity for sustaining the mental attitudes of people, whether they be those that are worried in mind or in body.
Hence in those fields as a secretarial activity, as a companion, as a nurse, the entity's activities may FIND an expression that would be most helpful. Yet in the RECORDING of such activities, even though the time may be given in same - as in writing, as in those things pertaining to the records of same, there may come not only satisfaction but material gain - and a breadth of self be expressed. Also in the ability to aid many to come to the rescue, as it were, of many that are troubled, the writings would become the channel through which the entity may reach out and help not only self but others.
And as the entity will experience, the wealth of purpose consists not in how much is known or how much is held in stocks or bonds, but in the ability to give to others that which will enable them to take hope, to look up, to look unto the hills from which help may come to many.
Before that we find the entity was in that known as the Roman and Grecian period, when there was first begun the exchange of the ideas and ideals in the philosophical manner; as to the arts, as to the purposes, rather than as to political influences.
For the entity then was of Roman AND Grecian lineage, and combined in self's activity that which may be said to have been the BEST of each.
Hence the influences that the entity during that sojourn wielded into those things pertaining to the art and literature of the Romans, the beauty and the strength of the Grecians, were expressed in the entity's activities during that period - in the name Sustio.
The entity gave aid to many in authority, to those that made for the establishings of the periods when there was the combination of the Grecians' presenting of life in the activity of the stage and the Romans' strengthening influence that depicted the valor of individuals upon periods of activities or missions to which they were sent.
And those things become as dramatic influences in the life or in the experience of the entity in the present.
Hence the abilities to make for creations within self, not only through those innate expressions but the ability to write in such directions becomes a portion of the entity - and these abilities need only their magnifying, or their expressions within self, for the entity to be able to give much that will within the inner recesses of individuals and groups find lodgements that will give hope and aid in all experiences in life.
Before that we find the entity was in the land now known as the Holy Land, during those periods when there were those returnings of the peoples who had been as strangers in a strange land.
And the entity's activity became as a portion of those peoples' activity, as their journeys began through the wilderness.
And the entity was among those who entered into the promised land, and saw those days and periods of the establishing within the land of those that had been promised that activity.
The entity then found joy in the expressions with those that aided in the establishings of those periods when, later, from the very writings of the entity the Psalmist chose much that was set to music.
For the entity was an encouraging one to the leader, Joshua, in the experience; in the name then Shumeman, and was of the daughters then of Judah.
In the experience in the present from that sojourn there arises that which makes for a harkening within self to that which is of praise to a holy purpose, a holy desire.
Hence the entity becomes, then, one that must look, within self, to the answers that were promised there; that:
"The Lord thy God is ONE; and meets thee in thine own temple."
For those admonitions were given, that the entity set to music:
"There is before thee good and evil; choose thou. The Lord heareth the cry of those that seek Him. The Lord is not far from those that call on Him."
These became as a portion of the entity's experience.
In the present turn not away from them.
Before that we find the entity was in that known as the Atlantean land, during those periods when there was the exodus from the land to what is now known as Egypt.
The entity then, as a companion of Ax-tell [487], became the leader in those activities when there was begun the correlation of the experiences of those peoples when the turmoils and strifes arose.
And the entity aided much in the clearing of differences, and in establishing those activities that made for the greater understandings of all the different purposes, or the different presentations of purposes in that period.
A judge, then, became the entity - as Ix-enl.
The entity made for those expressions of the relationships that began to be expressed anew, according to the activities of the sons of men who chose the LAW OF ONE as their ideal.
Hence things of natures partaking of the oriental reaction become as thoughts and expressions to the entity in the present.
As to the abilities of the entity in the present, then, and that to which it may attain and how:
It has been indicated that the abilities, the possibilities which lie before the entity are above or beyond the ordinary; yet the purposes, the aims and the motivative influence (which the entity has set in music) will make for the choice as to whether these be in keeping with the law of the Lord of One, or whether to the satisfying or gratifying of desires that arise only from the flesh.
Then, how?
In making the applications of self rather in that direction as to how HELPFUL, how hopeful, the entity may make the experience of self in the lives and expressions of others, as a part of its own experience.
As to the fields of activity, choose - whether in ministering to others in nursing or in secretarial activity, or in combining same with those abilities that lie in the field of writing or acting.
And it will be found that there may come to the entity a great opportunity. For many will call the entity blessed, if it is held in that of the Law of One - or many will say, "Away with such a wayward one."
Ready for questions.
(Q) Should I go to college?
(A) This would depend upon the choice as to the activities in which the entity may engage. If in the ministry through nursing or through secretarial activity, then the choice would be in the PREPARATION for same; not necessarily in college but in those institutions or schools that are the means or manners for preparing self in that direction. If the choice is to be as a writer, or to make such its vocation, then in such a school as Barnard - and in the journalistic portion of same engage its activities.
(Q) Which am I best fitted for?
(A) Either; or they MAY be combined, as indicated.
(Q) Which subjects should I take up?
(A) As indicated. Either a special course in nursing or secretarial work, or those subjects that would fit the self for journalism or writing work.
(Q) Would Barnard be better than the University of Wisconsin or Michigan?
(A) From those experiences in the land, Wisconsin and Michigan both call those urges innate within self. Yet the presentation in Barnard is better for the entity's abilities. However, we find that the activities may later be presented much in other realms; and in and about the north and northwest will become the sources of much that may become a part of the entity's experience.
Hold fast to that thou didst give to thine peoples when thy self, thine inner self, supplied strength not only to the leaders of men - as Moses and Aaron and Joshua - but to that which BECAME the strength of the musician [Asaph?] and of him [David?] of whom it was said, "The Lord loved him."
For thou didst give of thy strength IN those periods that excelled much. And same may be multiplied in Thine expressions among thy brethren in the present.
We are through for the present.
Copy to Self
Copy to Ass'n file
[See GD's notes at 1035-1, Par. R1.]

BACKGROUND

11/17/34 She had been present for Physical Reading for her grandmother, Mrs. [736], who was in a State Hospital for the insane.

REPORTS

GD's notes in re comments immediately following the reading:
Dislikes amethysts; has given away several such stones which have been gifts to her. Her father says she has definitely shown abilities in writing, all thru high school, etc.
11/02/35 EC's ltr. to [1035]:
Nov. 2nd 1935
Dear Miss [1035];-
Of course we had all thought a great deal of your Father every [ever?] since we first met him at Dr. [438]'s farm more than a year ago, but will have to admit we had not suspected he had such a lovely daughter, it was a real pleasure to have met you, and we all just fell in love with you at once. Do hope you will be able to make a whole lot out of your reading, don't know how much you have thought along these line, but am sure from meeting you and talking only just a bit you have an understanding of many things, am sure you recognize that the approach of the reading is from the spiritual side of ones experience and there may be a lot that is not seen at once but believe you will find the information worth looking into, you have heard the comment, as Hugh Lynn gave. after thought you may want to ask questions, please don't hesitate to ask just as many as you will, some you might ask might be too hard, but am sure all or any you might ask are worthwhile, so please ask them if we can possibly be of help we desire to do so.
Do hope to see you and your Father when we are again in N.Y.
with all good wishes.
Sincerely Edgar Cayce
1/05/36 Ltr. from [1035]:
... Street New York City
Dear Mr. Cayce:
Innumerable times I have composed, decomposed, and recomposed this letter to you but not having once recorded the results of my - oh so confusing - "brainstorms", I am yet at a loss as to how and where to begin. However, I have often heard that the beginning is a very good place, so, succumbing to the influence of people I admire (from a distance) and personally detest for their orderly-mindedness, I shall endeavor to begin there. But first let me thank you for your kind letter and let me explain that only the direst of misfortunes - illness - has kept me from answering it. When I received your letter my right hand was swathed in bandages - from a second degree burn - and by the time that had healed sufficiently I found myself in a hospital. It was only with the greatest insistence that I discourage Dad from wiring you for a reading. I didn't want him to know the extent of my illness.
Now to come to the beginning: I have studied my reading diligently, put it away to forget it, studied it once more - and even tried to hide it from myself - but not for very long has it remained forgotten. It has brought me a greater understanding of myself and has therefore proved helpful in many ways. For these things I am grateful, but my failure to understand, to work out a solution for myself in that which is so importantly stressed as "the Law of One" has brought me such mental anguish, spiritual unrest (call it what you will - my pen could never describe it) to almost cause me to regret ever having had the reading (But I cannot put it away and forget so do forget that I ever said that.) I have a problem which I know only I can find the answer to - yet I've searched and probed, within and without, and the answer is as remote as ever. I have been searching for the answer for the last 5 1/2 years and had just appeased myself by declaring, not wholly believing, its non-existence when through you it was brought forth as the most important thing in my life. Doubting the existence of a God seems to be a natural stage of adolescence - but am I not almost a woman?
Mr. Cayce, I want to believe, I feel the necessity for belief, I have TRIED to believe - but I can't. Something in me just won't.
Please bear with me a while longer while I attempt to outline what my religious experiences have been.
Until the time I was thirteen I was a zealous student of Christian Science. I had been brought up in that belief and believed in it with the wholeheartedness only childhood can claim. I never even knew or wanted to know what medicine was. A doctor was a being of a different world. When I was thirteen I didn't denounce religion - but Christian Science. [GD's note: 11/17/34 See Physical Reading for her grandmother, Mrs. [736], who was in a State hospital for the insane. Could this be one reason for denouncing Christian Science? Evidently her father [721] and mother were separated. Perhaps she was brought up by her grandmother [736] until she was 13?].
Since then, at steadily decreasing intervals, I have felt the need of a religious belief. My own philosophies came to resemble Swiss cheese. Subsequently, I attended churches - I've missed few popular denominations and each one in its turn came to look like the cheese. And a hungry man needs substance and I am hungry and I'm sick of holy cheese!
Perhaps I shouldn't have written you this, but you are the only one I could write it to - and I need understanding and guidance, not the too popular condemnation. I may appear ridiculous in your eyes, but to me my problem is too paramount to let my pride stand in the way of a possible aid.
Do remember me to Mrs. Cayce, Miss Davis, Hugh Lynn (and I thought of "AX-TELL" [487] too).
Also (if you get this far) thank you for wading through.
Sincerely [1035]
1/23/36 EC's ltr. to [1035]:
Dear [1035];-
It was very lovely of you to write me as you did on Jan 5th, and want to assure you I appreciate every word of it, and feel very much complemented that you wanted even to ask me the questions as you did. A very lovely letter from a very lovely person and deserves a very direct answer to many of your questions and I only trust I may in some small way be of a help to you at this time. First am sorry to hear you had a burn, hope there is no bad after effect either from the burn or from your illness, you make me a bit ashamed tho not to want me to at least try and help, but hope you are all OK and feeling just fine.
Now about your reading that it has made you dissatisfied with your self or about the way you have been trying to convince your self, well that is a great big help. for there are to me, [1035], a few very trite sayings to some that is the crux of the whole matter, They that seek shall find" is among them and am sure you will and have found it true. Even tho the gold we seek be in her hair" guess you have read the little book of mine where I tried very humbly to tell of some of the experiences that had brought about my beliefs, for cant say I have any Philosophy, or any pet ones at least, for to me God is ONE and any religion or Philosophy I may have must be just that in any language any sect and clime and just as understanderable to a child as to any grown up. Yet, I do believe every one should have a reason, not just an excuse for their beliefs.
For my self I had a very unusual experience I grew up, and believe can appreciate your experience until you were 13, well I was 19 when I came to the same cross road as you no doubt find your self just now, and looked every where for the answer, but you can only find it within. For from my first promise God is ONE then I, body, mind, soul must be included in that one, and only that that is the Image of him may reflect GOD, and I can only see it in the flesh in myself, isnt that good reasoning. Then life or that we call life is GOD, then we cant prove God we may only experience HIM. Experience Him by and through the manner we treat our fellow man, for they too have in them that which may reflect him and we catch that reflection, and there by become aware of his presence, his love, his mercy, why, for to be loved we must be lovely, to have mercy shown us we must be merciful, and as He is all these in that we see and know HIM. But when we attempt to give goodness a name and with all its diversification we see about us. We confuse ourselves and declare there is no God. Then what is the Law of one?. The whole gospel the whole being is sumed up in this; Love the Lord thy God with all thy heart thy soul thy body, and thy neighbor as thy self. All the fandangles we may add in any way is just trying to explain that. Why should we love God, The first law is self presivation and if for none other that is a wonderful reason, for when we apply the law as above it becomes proof to us in That He has said, and application of it proves it "Thy Spirit beareth witness with my spirit whether ye be the children of God or not" Now I dont want to tire you with all this when no doubt you have gone over all these and many more many many times, but that you are thinking and do think, shows and is proof of the Love of God, for as has been said, and we may prove that also by applying same, "IN Him we live and move and have our being" and it is very hard to put a real answer in cold type for each line may need its own interpretation, But look within and you will surely find him there, try out the fruits of the spirit on others and you will see and know him as your very own companion, and these fruits are as you know. Be patient, be kind, be just, long suffering, gentle, forgiving, merciful, loving, for against such there is no law, but do show forth the love of God, and the still small voice speaks within.
Write me again and again, do want to help if possible and none of your problems are ever ridiculous, but every one worth while and I thank you for writing me, and May His blessings keep you always.
All here send love to you and your Father, are expecting "Ax-tell" [487] home for few days after examinations, write me again. Sincerely yours, Edgar Cayce
11/04/41 Father [721] wrote he would try to bring [1035] to EC's lecture at The Shelton in NYC: "She is just fine, as you shall see, and wishes to be remembered to you."
10/08/46 M.A.W. ltr. in re amethysts was ret'd - no address.
6/04/64 Father [721] requested (and was later sent) a copy of daughter [1035]'s Life Reading.