2/21/38 EC's ltr. to Miss [
1468]:
Dear Miss [
1468]
Have yours of 13th and 16th. Wish could just sit down and
talk all this over and not try and write it, for one scarcely
makes a letter - say just what they are trying to say, but
just hope you don't grow tired of this, for know will take
a lot of words to say what would like to say just now. First
- if you wish your Clients to keep you busy, well, that is
fine. And am glad you are, and guess as that is your way
just now for service to your fellow man. Then you must be
busy about your father's business. But am always anxious to
hear from you - just hope don't get too anxious. Well know I
should never be on the sick list, when we attain where we
know it is all ONE and acknowledge it is in HIM, then live
it; there will not be such things, but here we are subject to
so much and are influenced by so many things, or imagine we
are - as just as well be. We do give way to the weaknesses
of the flesh, but have been feeling much better of late. But
I can and do get bad off one moment and in the hour are all
well again. And - well, guess am just the extremist that I
am. The Lady [See EC dreams] - well, there is a long story
about that, and will tell you as best can. May make you more
curious, or may answer something within - we will see. Years
and years ago, when was first convinced that there was
something to the information as was given in readings, asked
many questions as to where to work, who with and the like.
Well, among the things told was like this: "There will be a
Lady be drawn to the work, one with whom you have been
associated very closely. You should know when you met them,
by their reaction. They must feel there has been an
association for a purpose. This person will be able to help
you more than anyone else, in the work. Not only from
training at this time, more from the help and counsel they
will be able to give you; than any other, and their ability
to correlate the data you will have gotten when you meet
them, there will be definite liking one for the other. There
are signs that will be given you at the time - experiences
that will make each of you know, you have been very close in
a definite work here before. When you meet them, hold fast
one to the other. Don't let any thing keep you from carrying
on that you once began." Do you wonder that I felt, well, at
least peculiar, when what was given in your reading, referred
to my having been with you in that period? Well, have
thought several times, had met that "Lady" and have found it
not so. Am just wondering - wondering, that is all.
Would say from the last reading [1468-3] that Silas [
707]
and Silvanus [
1529] - as the child [Sylvius] of "Mariarh"
[
1468] and "Lucius" [
294] were not the same. For when
looking up the information for the person - the reading gave
being Silas [
707], he came from some where else - and that
he knew a younger person, son of Lucius later in life.
Will have to tell you his story some time, much too long
to undertake it here tho possibly will be of interest -
if any of this is of interest to you.
No nothing about Luke - but Mark [
1452], yes. He is a young
man there in N.Y. He has had a hard time coming to an
acknowledgement of it. He was trained for a Missionary.
Spent some years in China, then gave it up and is an
accountant now; with a banking house, I believe. Hope you
may meet his some time, and well, you can judge for yourself
- that is the best answer after all, that one receives from
within.
The vista that opens with the realization of all these
thoughts certainly make time - as nothing - for it is as
but yesterday - or how was it Solomon put it "a thousand
years are as but yesterday when it is passed." As I
understand the promise - "Abide in me, as I abide in the
Father, and we shall come and make our abode with thee, and
will bring all things to your remembrance, from the
foundation of the world" is fulfilled in the consciousness
of just having lived, and experienced that which, prompts
our thoughts and feelings at this time, that such
experiences come at seeming unforeseen times - and when one
might have acted differently - had they known all this
before hand. The answer it has taken all the experiences to
make us aware in the present of the truth in our own selves.
Most interesting about your family, isn't it? Well, it is
just such that gives us an assurance - one we can not give
another, but is our very own, for our edification, will we
accept it as such and the likeness of your Uncle to your
father, in the light of all the "Horrors" in a way you must
have experienced in the Palestine experience. Well, seems
to me just amazing, and to some, guess it would be just so
much fancy.
There were so many mentioned in Egypt. Would have to read
over several readings [294-147--153], but hope if you are
interested, you will, some time take all those and compile
them together - make sort of a pre-history.
Well, am glad the reading on Lucius [
294-192] was given
before your letter came or might say the answer to your
question - "If there is the attempt upon the part of the
entity to make application, of that in the experience which
brought about the same experience during the later portion of
its activities, there may be aroused those feelings, in which
the entity may picture, may depict, may paint in words" etc.
Well, seems to me that was answered in the reading as to what
happened. Yes, maybe I am just too visionary, but do you
see? Do you apply the impelling force of the experience?
Well, you may be a great writer, of a sort, and a marvellous
sort would seem to me - maybe again I am partial.
Have heard of such a book, but am persuaded from the walks
and talks have had with Jesus, that He has not incarnated
in the earth as yet, since Calvary.
Oh, hope am not making this too long, but want to talk on
and on, but must cut it shorter I know. But the 16th [
1472]
wrote she had read the reading, seemed perturbed that I
questioned as to what she taught you at that time. While
my question was - Paul evidently caused you to be sent
away - but the teachings of Judy, Mary and Elizabeth,
was what reunited us, and made happiness for all. Now
what was the lesson? Do you see what I mean? Of course,
know the letters as recorded in N. T. [New Testament] do
not carry what Paul said to Lucius [
294] as the head of
the church, nor is there an intimation of what was taught
by others. There is only the realization that Paul and
Peter disagree, as does the church at Jerusalem.
Do hope some part of the questions on the period may be
gotten with you present. Don't know when can get these
but will, when can, may be better for each to ponder that
we already have before undertaking this. What do you think??
As I understand about my staying with Lazarus [
1924] and
Mary [
295] and Martha [
560] - the fact that I was not a Jew
of the orthodox faith, they were questioned as I get it,
isn't that right? You know ethical things do perturb people
today, they did then.
Yes, Paul must have persuaded Lucius [
294], he would be
better not married - and then Mariarah [
1468] was with
the others - why she made Lucius [
294] see every thing
differently. Just as he really wanted to and it made
happiness for all. Then, do you wonder - I ask, "what
did they tell you - what did they teach you??"
And your experience here this time - my, my, my! It all
dovetails in so one might get the shivers - or feel awed
to the extent of most any thing. It is really marvellous!
And your experiences with the Science Church all are a part
of it all. What is that? "God moves in mysterious ways,
His purpose to perform."
Thank you for telling me all about your experiences. Am sure
there is much some where for us to do. We will see what we
shall see. Will let you have what ever data we may get from
time to time. Am anxious to be sure, but do not want to be
hasty.
Write when ever you can. All send love and best wishes
Sincerely [signed] Edgar Cayce
3/05/38 Miss [
1468]'s ltr. to EC:
Dear Mr. Cayce:
Thank you so much for your very interesting letter which I,
as usual, meant to answer long before this. About my client
- I have one at present from London who sails back of the
23rd of March who needs me in the morning to one o'clock or
after, and then again from five in the evening to seven but
more often seven-thirty to eight. In between I have to take
care of the affairs of a couple of clients who are away, so
that by the time I get home in the evening I am quite
exhausted so nothing much but eat dinner, turn in, read and
meditate a little and then sleep!!! This client from
England is EXTREMELY difficult and if it weren't for the fact
that she leaves on the 23rd I would give it up, but I find
there are a number of lessons I am getting from the
experience. One lesson in particular I am happy over is that
the GLAMOUR of WEALTH and SOCIETY makes no impression on me
NOW whatsoever. This healing seems to be COMPLETE. The
strange part is that all my clients are very wealthy but I
had to make the contact with this particular one to see
through the shallowness and sham of that kind of existence.
That, in no way, interferes with my belief that each one
should have enough for his needs while on this plane, but the
richness of mind and soul is what counts and is real, I
think. Anyway that is the story about the client who keeps
me so busy! Then I thought if I could stand it, I could
afford to have a couple of Readings, see???
I was so very interested in what you said about the "Lady".
I still think your question about what "Judy taught Mariarh"
a very important one to ask. I can't understand [
1472]'s
attitude because there wasn't even a hint of such a thing
when I was with her. My motto is usually to be so very
careful in what I say but guess I'm still not careful enough.
I was merely so carried away with the whole thing that felt
she might have an intelligent question to ask, etc., etc.,
but guess its best to go back to my policy of keeping quiet.
I do hope you will ask the question.
I hope by this time you have completely recovered from the
cold and are having no set-backs, also that the doctors are
doing for you what they have been told to do.
It seems strange to hear about "Luke" being here and that
he was a Missionary - most of the people who were in the
Palestine experience do seem to have that strong religious
urge - and especially a rebelling against something.
In thinking over the promise of being able to bring back in
memory the experience in Palestine, etc., it has been coming
to me for quite a long time that I could get no where until
I had gotten my health back to such an extent that I could
put my body out of my thought and only then could I settle
down to accomplish anything. Therefore, I have been doing
everything in my power to GET WELL. I have withdrawn from
peoples and have kept very quiet and gotten plenty of sleep
to calm the nerves. Now I am having treatments from a
Physio-Therapist who rubs my back to relieve pressure on the
nerves, etc. and then he uses radio-active lamp and violet
ray lamp, the latter for sinus trouble, and he seems to be
helping me. Of course, I never stop working along the
Spiritual lines for healing which I thoroughly believe in, so
with it all I know I will be healed. So with as much
solitude as I have, and quiet reading and meditation, many,
many strange things seem to be happening to me. That is,
changes are coming quicker than they did before - I mean in
my viewpoints - the changes in my consciousness. Therefore,
I have stopped striving, and know that I must be working
toward that end.
The book "Adept in Galilee" was very helpful from this
standpoint: it brought out the great love which Jesus had
for all mankind. I know the Bible does that, but this book
seemed to bring it all a little closer, and I felt very much
up-lifted after reading it. It also spoke of Jesus having
said: "I have food to eat of which ye know not of. My food
is to follow the dictates of Him who sent me that I may fully
accomplish His work. Ye who think much of the needs of the
body, do ye not often say to yourselves "Ah, it wants four
months to harvest-tide". But reflecting on the needs of
the Soul instead, only look round and contemplate these
fields of SAMARIA, which are already ripe for a Spiritual
harvest - aye, that maturity of Soul, when its sourness is
fast becoming the sweetness of enlightenment and love. And
so, aptly might I say: "Already the reaper is receiving
his wages and gathering in fruit for the Eternal life, that
both he and the sower may rejoice together. For herein, ye
may see the true meaning of the old adage, "'One soweth and
another reapeth', seeing I send you to reap a harvest not
of your own labouring, in that ye are benefitting by the
labours of others instead." And then he went on to explain
to them why this was so, in that many a seer had sown seeds
of wisdom among the SAMARITANS, which by reason of their
open-mindedness and beautiful humility of spirit had fallen
on good ground."
I found this particularly interesting because in my "reading"
[
1468-2] it spoke of the Samaritans as not being orthodox,
etc., or in other words were broadminded and open minded!
That is one of the many things that I find with the "Reading"
so many things now mean something where before they would
have passed by unnoticed.
I have been wondering so often and intended asking you:
In a reading for yourself, have you ever put forth such
questions as to where the information comes from, that is,
is it your Superconscious Mind, or a Master, or is it that
you just REMEMBER? etc., etc.
In regard to the Egyptian data, I think your son said that
the Egyptian History was already being compiled and would
be ready in the course of time. I already have a rough draft
which he sent me but I think I will be more ready for that
after I have had a reading on my Egyptian experience which
I hope to have before long.
I think you are wise in not being in a hurry to ask the
questions already referred to, although of course my "human
self" is in very much of a hurry!!!
Hoping you are greatly improved in health, as I said before,
and with love to you all, I am,
Sincerely yours, [
1468]
P.S. I won't be so long in writing next time, am getting
things better organized and have caught up on much work.
3/16/38 EC's ltr. to Miss [
1468]:
Dear Miss [
1468]
Mighty glad to have yours of the 5th, and know full well
what it means to have some one calling on you all the time,
especially those that are so very busy with something to
them is the all important thing of this life.
Am sure you have and are having some very unusual experiences
with your clients, am sure too, you get some very good
lessons, at the same time, it affords you an opportunity to
put in a word here and there that you, yourself may not see
the good it will do. "God moves in mysterious ways his
wonders to perform" and each of us may be a channel of
blessing to some one - today - now.
Ah - the "Lady." Well, am expecting to know - yes, KNOW,
here this experience, and am sure it will be a marvellous
experience for me (and of course each of us, that is what
would make it marvellous). Yes, want to know what was the
teaching at that time that made every thing so different.
Understand [
1472] is quite ill. Hope she is soon back to
normal good health again.
One of the amazing things to me, is that most people who are
supposed to have been in the Palestine period, or the Jesus
period of same - have at one time or another been very much
interested in Christian Science, and few if any, have
remained wholly in same; if you understand me - or as you
say, rebelling against something.
Hope you soon have your health in fine shape, yes, body,
mind, soul, are ONE we are able to do our better work when
there is coordination of these within. But I need not
philosophise with you. Have need rather have you teach
me, as you must have oh, so many, many times! And like to
think you did - and that you liked to do so.
No, it is not that story as given in the Bible doesn't
teach us all these things. Yet, some one may tell it in a
way that will bring it home, so to speak; as we have never
had before. Words, WORDS, words, it is not in the words, but
the spirit with which they are sent, the current of power
that runs through them that arouses us here and there. Or as
the Book puts it, "My Spirit beareth witness with thy spirit"
so it is with books, that have a message for us. To one the
message may be just so, so to another very vital. Don't
think I have seen "Adept in Galilee." Am sure it must be
beautiful, for some how there has always been a feeling of
exultation with me to even speak of Jesus in Galilee, even
the song "Jesus in Galilee" makes a thrill move up and down
my spine as scarcely any thing else does.
It is so hard to think of or write of the readings - as
apart from me - yet know they are - but am sure it is
confusing to some. But, as you say, and it is the experience
of most every one who gain any thing from the reading - that
is, from the reading so much comes to mean something, where
formerly one just passed over them. That is what makes them
wonderful to me, or realize they really have LIFE.
Yes, many times has it been asked as to the source of the
information. The answers are ever the same, the "UNIVERSAL"
to put it short. Have even had Mediums [[
507]?] say that it
is not from an "Entity" or "Master" but my own soul
development. Would like some time to talk with you at
length about this, for am sure with your experience, could
be put in much better wording, than I have ever been able to
do. For evidently you helped me be something at one time,
help to the many.
Have had another siege of cold, but hope am handling it OK
now. H. L. is in New York. Am sure you will see or hear
from him.
Write when ever you can. Am looking forward to when may see
and talk with you again. Haven't been able to get to my
questions as yet - will when can.
All send love
Sincerely [signed] Edgar Cayce
3/30/38 Miss [
1468]'s ltr. to EC:
Dear Mr. Edgar Cayce:
It was such a comfort to get your interesting letter which
I have read over many times. My "difficult" client got off
last Wednesday but she left me in rather a daze after the
"intense" days and just as I was coming to I got a bad cold
but have succeeded in throwing off most of it and hope to
be normal and really getting down to TRUE business very soon.
In your one letter [1468-3, Par. R7] you said something about
my being of service in the case of this last client I
question whether it is truly being of service or merely
catering to the carnal mind! She seems to take it for
granted that I will be with her again next November but I
feel strongly that it is no place for me and hope I have the
courage to refuse it at that time. Better to have less
money and to retain one's Spiritual poise, me thinks! I
have learned much and grown through the experience but feel
there is no need to repeat the "agony". Well so much for
that.
I was so sorry to hear you had another cold. [
1472] said
H. L. had told her you were much better and I am glad. She
and I went to ... studio last night to hear [
1470]'s program
which he put on. It was very interesting.
My "readings" have been a great joy to me especially after a
"hectic" day for I always found a loving and peaceful
"something" that would help me into a "balanced" and normal
state of mind...a quiet and gentle rhythm.
In going over your "Reading" [
294-192] again, I pondered
over the following: "And indeed the entity as Lucius in the
activities of the entity called Cayce may become an influence
and a power for good in this present portion of this
sojourn." Would you gather from this that you are to have
the "conscious memory" of that sojourn?
I would indeed like to hear from you one day about your
"talks with Jesus". An experience like that would be
wonderful.
I also find myself thinking about the child [
318] of friends
of yours who called you "brother" and clung to you, etc.
Have you heard from him recently?
If a person had a Life Reading such as I had, and in it were
three or four incarnations, and they in the course of time
had a reading on each incarnation and finished that up, then
had another Life Reading, would they get three or four
other incarnations? For instance with yourself, have you
had just the one Life Reading (aside from the physical)?
Does there seem to be more of the Palestine "sojourns"
brought out now than there have been in the past? I seem to
have a peculiar feeling about this Palestine experience that
I can't put into words, as though we had just finished a
cycle and were [we're] now back at that point where we
started [Palestine], and were [we're] in a way wending our
way back to the cycle beyond that, etc. until finally we are
back to the "Give to me the glory that was mine before the
world began" period! This is all put very badly, but as I
said it is more of a feeling.
I have had a book for many years which I turn to off and on
by a man named "Cheiro", an Englishman who did horoscopes,
but this book is a horoscope of nations and he gets most of
his material and symbols from the Bible. Well it is the
weirdest book you ever read as it forces one to accept
certain conclusions he has come to because there are the
predictions right in the Bible! He harps on the ten lost
tribes of Israel, and the two tribes that are still out and
refuse to "fuse with the ten" are what we call the Jews
today and the ten tribes are US. Until the two tribes do
fuse with us so that we get the whole number twelve, there
will not be peace on earth, but we are on the way. The fact
that the Jews are going back to Jerusalem is the beginning of
the end of the conflict, he says, and that Jerusalem is going
to rise in glory and be the greatest center of culture, etc.
than we can imagine at this time. Well you have no doubt
read all about this, but I mention it because it all confirms
that peculiar feeling about JERUSALEM, if you know what I
mean! Oh yes, one sad thing this man says is that we have
to go through the Great Armageddon before we can have the
peace on earth. Has anything come through with your Readings
about having to go through another war?
It was very interesting to hear that "the information comes
from the UNIVERSAL" and that mediums have said it was not
from an Entity or Master but was your own Soul development.
I wonder if you were able to do that in your Jerusalem
incarnation or whether it is something you developed
"somewhere along the line" since that time? What puzzles me
greatly is why we seem to have forgotten so much of what we
knew or had developed - or shall we say learned - in that
Palestine sojourn - so much we had gotten from being on the
scene when Jesus was present. Of course, if we could
remember every life experience since that time I suppose we
wouldn't be puzzled. Perhaps we had much in THEORY only in
those "Holy Days" and have had to dip deep into the earth
experiences of joy and suffering to run the gamut of
emotions and make TRUTH one with us - I DON'T KNOW - I'm
merely THINKING OUT LOUD to you!
I do want to have a talk with H. L. one day soon and go over
a number of things.
Will you make an appointment for me "soon as possible!!!"
(says she selfishly!!!) for a Reading on my PHILADELPHIA
incarnation [
1468-4] - that is, the one before this present
one. I haven't my questions ready or the particular form
you start with - all of which (together with check) I will
send you in a few days, but anyway, thought you could put
me down for an appointment in the meantime. You will
remember that Monday, Wednesday and Friday mornings I am
busy with a client. However, that client is so peaceful
her surroundings are so quiet, that if it is difficult
to give me any other time, I think it might do - I would
prefer, of course, to be alone.
I seem to have written an extremely long letter. There
seems to be so much to say.
Hope you are completely well again, and with love to you
all, I am,
Sincerely yours, [
1468]
4/04/38 EC's ltr. to Miss [
1468]:
Dear Miss [
1468]
Very glad to have yours of 30th - when hear from you seems as
if am hearing from home - from some one have been looking for
a word from for always. So it always is a red letter day
when your letters come - thank you.
Glad you got your client off in fine shape. And am sure you
sowed seeds of good will that will bear fruit. You see, it's
our job to sow the seeds and God's to have them bear fruit.
That is how we do not wish to recognize the seed we have sown
at times, for all will bear fruit of one kind or another.
But there I go you know when I try and write you - find
myself running off at one and another angle; and in trying
to curtail my verboseness, wonder if I say what I really
intended to say. Oh yes, tho she may be carnal-minded, am
sure you can and did render a service that will bear the
right sort of fruit.
Am happy to say feel have about overcome a cold. A cold
becomes a very close friend - of a nature - at times, and
this one seemed to have gathered the seven other - what ever
they say they were and came very close this time. But the
mind has so much to do with what we do - even a cold. Well,
MIND IS THE BUILDER and thoughts are things, so we build this
or that.
[
1472] and [
1470] - they have a lot of scraps to fix up -
what we of today would call ancient ones; but all the time
being one time they are as fresh today as when they started.
How is his programmes these days? We do not always get so
well here, don't know just what the interference [is], the
Coast Guard station perhaps.
Thanks - to have one say as you - the readings bring joy -
well that is to me most worth while. For am persuaded to
bring joy, hope, peace, and all the children of the fruits
of the Spirit. Well, that is making life worthwhile, and
will live on and on in the hearts and minds of others - and
too is what makes me know it is not of myself - but the
spirit of truth that may work in all of us.
"Lucius" have pondered over that very portion of the
information many times - possibly will have much of that
experience come to me. Have had so many experiences, at
times, wonder where I am headed? The why this was
withheld - the Lucius experience - is the mystery to me.
Am hoping to have more light on that soon. Can't take the
time that should be given to another in need, but hope to
get to it very soon. Then hope will be able to answer many
more questions about that experience. Of course, materially
you are so tied up in that experience, that am at times
afraid you represent that experience to me, tho realize that
is not the proper way to feel about it. For then, am looking
for the material when as the Bishop of the church must have
meant much to a great many people, and will have to be more
and more impersonal. But the real good, evidently was
accomplished by your sincerity; and while not exactly a pawn,
was directed, and the urge was motivated by the love for you
at the time. But possibly had better not get too far into
that until know more of the happenings of the period at
least.
The "Talks With Jesus": They have been the highlights of my
entire life. Possibly will try and put them on paper some
time, but they are so personal, so precious - in cold type
they do not have the feeling one really has and does
experience in even telling about them.
The boy - [
318] - yes, hear from him rather regularly and
he plans to come spend a while with me this summer. His
Mother and Father both say even now, they just hope he comes
back home. He wants to stay with me, tho have only seen him
twice in this life. Will be some experience when he comes
this summer, won't it?
As I understand we grow to the experiences of a incarnation.
That is, as we have and do apply our opportunities in an
experience, then we become subject to another that may not
have been given. Just as we learn to ride a bicycle, it
brings certain portions of our bodies in to action, the same
body and apparently same muscles used in walking. But far
from it in fact - so we ride, we walk - but are subject to
different influences that aids us in keeping the equilibrium.
Do you get the idea?
Feel just as you about the Palestine experience or rather it
is about like this to me: It is something have felt always
existed, but not quite aware of it. Now that am aware, there
is something must do about it, but what and how, don't just
know. But am very sure there is something that must do, who
is to move first or act first - do not know. That is why
also am so anxious to know more about that period. Yet, am
so sure there is something we have to work out together - but
know there must be the same answer within the soul of each of
us, before any move of any kind may be made. How might I get
a copy of that book "Chiero"? Who is Author and Publisher?
Think would like to read it - tho am compelled to say, there
are all too few books that I read. Yes, there has been
reference to conflicts - and as to how and why they may be
averted and what would precipitate them. But all too short a
space to put even an outline here, for when I start to write
you, don't want to stop, nor to cut off like this. So am
sure don't say what is in my heart to say, but maybe too much
as it is.
Apparently, from the information, the development of the
readings come from the Persian-Egyptian and the American
making it impossible for me to be aware of the experience;
except visions - but feel, well, shouldn't say it - well,
then won't - but the Palestine has something to do with
a better retention of the experiences. How is that? Said
it and didn't - you will have to think it out. If true, you
will get it, if not, then shouldn't have said it - as didn't.
About your appointment - am making it for the afternoon of
the 12th 3.30 to 4.30 E.S.T. - long ways off, but
appointments make it necessary. Hope that hour suits you,
and you can make your questions, and keep that period if it
fits in with your programme.
Let us hear from you. Hope you do not get weary reading
all this but to me, it all seems most vital. Yet wonder
what it is all about.
Sincerely [signed] Edgar Cayce
4/10/38 Miss [
1468]'s ltr. to EC [Letter not rec'd by EC
until after
1468-4 reading]:
Dear Mr. Cayce:
Thank you so much for your letter. You seem to have
expressed my feelings exactly in regard to my hearing from
you. I have about worn out your last letter reading it over
and over and suppose I won't half answer it - I always think
of so many things I wanted to say AFTER I have dropped the
letter in the mail box.
The best news of all is that you are almost well again -
I hope completely well by this time. You simply can't go
"to the happy huntin' ground" yet - there is entirely TOO
MUCH for you to do!!
This is a nice quiet Sunday afternoon and it has been so
pleasant going over all the Readings and just meditating
and thinking...thinking. The vibrations on Sundays seem to
be different than on week days and in order to take advantage
of them I make few engagements to be with people and am very
often alone. It seems to fix me up for the week!
[
1470]'s program is on ... I think every evening at 7:45
[Copied into
1470-2 Reports]. It is something like the
"March of Time" program - a sketch of some outstanding
figure - last time of Mellon. Did you know he was married?
I think it is much better so for all concerned. He has
resigned from ... and is a free lance.
I was so glad to hear that [
318] is going to visit you this
summer. Has he had a Reading? I am wondering if he might
not have been very close to you in the Palestine experience!
I have also been meaning to ask you what month you were born
in - was it by any chance under the sign of Aquarius?
When I read over again the part about the LADY, I still find
myself wondering because it seems I have so very little to
offer... I sort of expect to hear from you any day that
there has been a mistake and that the real LADY has been
found!!! However, the Palestine experience does stand
according to the information as given. As I told you in one
of my letters [1468-3, Par. R5], the Christian Science
Church experience and also the Moon Trail [Horace Hambling's
spirit guide] (short) experience, has made me feel that I
want nothing to do with organization as organization, but I
have felt ever since my first reading and meeting with you
that here was a strong pull - something hard to explain.
Going back a little, in my studies and meditation, when I
finally and definitely accepted the fact of reincarnation,
and KNEW I had lived before, I began to include in my,
shall we say prayers or affirmations, the fact that I could
KNOW WHEN and WHERE, and it was shortly after that I heard
about you and immediately decided that I would have a reading
as soon as I could. I can never explain what that first
reading did for me. It seemed to push both walls and time
back. I have always had the kind of mind that was thirsting
for knowledge - knowledge along the Fourth Dimensional lines
- and here was something that opened the a door to vistas
undreamed of. Never have I found anything that seems to give
everything as this does. It has stimulated my interest in
history, both ancient and present, and gives unlimited food
for the mind. However, with all this was the wonderful
Christ spirit which I felt pervading all. That to me was the
perfect combination!
I remember the second time I went out to see you, as I told
you then, I had been greatly stirred by the reading, and
seemed to be a mass of raw nerves, but after I had talked
with you a little while I began to feel that Christ spirit
and began to calm down.
It has occurred to me that perhaps I ought to tell you of
my "impressions" while I was having the reading [
1468-4]
and ever since as a matter of fact, although they seemed
to lie dormant. I have to almost force myself to tell you
this and it is only because I know that you will understand
that I venture to do so. Here it is: While I stood in
COMPLETE AWE of what you were doing, there seemed to be an
impatient something pounding at my consciousness saying you
did NOT HAVE TO GO TO SLEEP. A feeling as though there was
no limit to what you COULD do! Now I have said it! I feel
that the veil between the sleeping and waking with you is
mighty thin. Then when I heard you speak at the lecture
hall and you spoke of not having an education - again I had
that same impatient feeling as though ALL you had to do was
to REMEMBER consciously. I feel WITHOUT doubt that you can
have dominion over your body in every way. When you heal
spiritually, both yourself and others, and that you no
longer need to "go to sleep" and have your conscious memory
and knowledge of all things, you then are in the place that
Jesus was in, and He, Himself, told us to go and do the
things He did, and GREATER things. Of course, I have always
- perhaps I should say since the time I began to reason -
believed that not only were these things we could do, but
what we would HAVE to do in order to ascend, and I never
cease to be impatient with myself for being sick, growing
older, having limited means, or any of those things, but
when I met you and saw what you were doing, there was no
doubt in my mind but that the bridge was a very small one
for you to step over. Oh yes, I believe you can precipitate
almost anything you wish, for you have grown to the point of
wisdom where it is proper. We have all been talking for
ages about what Jesus did and perhaps sometime someone could
do something - but I think the time is at hand to do...and I
somehow KNOW you will.
For myself, though I don't seem to have any pronounced
psychic experiences (the lights seem to have stopped
completely). I seem to be governed more and more by these
impressions that I get. Sometimes I seem to almost hear a
voice speaking, but it is always these conscious impressions.
If I am puzzled about something and have a tendency to go
and ask someone about it, I always seem to hear something
say, go within and and the answer will come, so I do that
more and more. Often I am led to go somewhere or to get a
certain book and there I find the answer. It is as though I
am not permitted to lean on anyone or anything. If I do, the
props go down. If I get too tied up with any particular book
along metaphysical lines, I notice something strange happens
to that and I have to turn within. All very strange! My one
burning desire has been for a long time to heal spiritually.
Not just the healing of the physical body, but IN THE HEALING
have such light go with it that there would be revelation as
well so the person would be "stepped up" well along the
PATH. I am sure that anyone whom Jesus healed received
great LIGHT as well. It also seems that I am not permitted
to talk much on the outside, if I do there seems to be a
mass of misunderstanding, etc., and so I stay within. I feel
that this is a lesson that I needed. I see and talk with
all kinds of people but it is all very simple for I notice
I don't really have to talk.
I feel as you do that there is something one must do, but
what that is, I don't know. I seem to be so definitely led
from day to day by that "something" that I am depending on
it more and more to reveal to me what to do. I seem to have
been in "strict training" the past few years and especially
this last one, to look my faults and weak spots "in the face"
and try to correct them and bring out strength of character
and more love. My reading said "love more" and I am trying
to concentrate on that but it all seems to go far too slowly.
When I think of trying to help someone else - the old
question comes up - what have you been able to do for
yourself, there seems to be much room for improvement.
However, I plug along.
I feel now as though I have talked entirely too much so shall
have to mail this letter immediately so I won't change my
mind. I could not finish it on Sunday. I got halfway down
the first page and I seemed to strike a blank wall - couldn't
seem to think, so after struggling along for a while,
decided to put it away and have only now been able to
finish it. Don't you think that is strange?
Brentano's had the book of the Horoscope of Nations (did not
have to send to England) so had them send it to you - perhaps
you have it by this time. Am delighted to have you have it
and hope you find it as interesting as I did.
Tomorrow I hope to sit quietly while my Reading goes on.
And as it is now the wee small hours of the morning, I must
close, and send love to you all.
Very sincerely yours, [
1468]
4/12/38 See
1468-4, a Ck. Life on her early American
incarnation.
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