4/13/38 [
1472]'s ltr. to EC:
Dear "Ra Ta":-
It was sweet of Gladys to get the physical check reading
of last Saturday to me so promptly. It is extremely
interesting in that it conforms to my recent mental
psychology. In following instructions given me in my first
psychical reading in November most of my evenings have been
spent in doing things for my body. Fume baths; the radio
active appliance, - together consumed the best part of an
evening. Then came the Mary Miller treatments for three
weeks, followed by the acute attack of bronchitis. As a
consequence my body has been kept constantly in my thought.
It is my understanding that my body is a form - or vehicle -
through which God expresses, - or is God in expression, -
just as Troward states so often in all his books (You have
doubtless read something of the sort in his "Bible Mystery
and Bible Meaning" which I sent you). If what I call "I" is
God in manifestation it ought to be a perfect manifestation.
I believe Cosmic Law intends only perfection for it. When
therefore for four solid months I devote all my spare time
to this body in the belief that it is sick I ACCEPT
IMPERFECTION FOR IT, and WHAT WE ACCEPT WE BRING OUT IN
EXPERIENCE. Such procedure for one of my thinking is a
veritable bondage, and have chafed considerably under it.
Do you ask why, then, I went on with it? Well that because I
am both a loyal and thorough person, and felt it right to
thus follow through after having the first reading. It
didn't seem fair to you; to the Force giving the directions,
or to myself to have the reading, and not afterwards follow
instructions. Further more I have great faith in you and
you work, and felt these instructions must be right for me or
they would not have been given. But even so my thinking
habits, and my inner convictions are very strong. And both
approve leaving the actual operations of the body as much out
of thought as possible. It is normal and natural for this
vehicle to function perfectly, but if one is going to wrap
negative thought around it by constantly "treating" it for
sickness how can it rise to its normal plane of light and
health and beauty?
Now then, with all this in my consciousness there seems
little wonder that I am now told to leave all former
instructions alone, - not to proceed with further Miller
treatments; not to use the radio - active appliance and to
take the fume baths only if I can do so without disturbance
to myself (meaning of course to my THOUGHT in the matter).
I am no longer under the care of my own doctor, however, she
having discharged me a week ago with instructions to finish
the Lextron liver concentrate capsules (NOT lime tablets as
the reading says) [GD's note: The ques. was MISTYPED "Time"
but was actually asked correctly] which I shall do. I am
nearly through these, and when I am I shall try to lift
thought to that plane of Light and Truth and Love where only
Health CAN exist.
Dr. Mary Miller has invited Hugh Lynn and me to dine with
her Friday night, and this will represent the first time
I have seen him since his return from the Beach. However I
have twice talked with him on the phone, and he seems to be
both busy and happy, - The latter because of the former no
doubt.
9/26/38 [
1472]'s ltr. to EC:
Edgar Dear:
I was so glad to have our little not last night. It seems
so lo g since I head from you, but that is my fault because
I haven't written, beyond sending you my little flight into
verse. [See
9/22/38 under
1472-6 Reports.]
One reason is that Hugh Lynn told me you were vacationing in
Kentucky for about ten days, and the other is that I have
been so ill that anything beyond the absolutely necessary
things have had to be omitted for the time being.
All summer I have been very miserable physically, getting
worse and worse, until about a month ago I developed such
violent attacks of nausea my doctor insisted on my having a
series of X-Ray pictures of my whole intestinal tract. When
the plates were developed they showed the stomach and
intestinal tract alright, but, alas, a large stone in my
left kidney. I have been suffering gnawing pain in that side
for the past two years, - and it has grown worse the past
year.
I have seen the pictures and there seems no doubt about the
stone, but what kind of a stone they say they can't determine
without more X-Rays. Also that such a thing seldom dissolves
of itself and that my only hope lies in a surgical operation.
As both doctors I have had in consultation and the X-Ray man
say it is a development that has taken years to form I am
wondering why no stone was seen; nothing of the sort
mentioned in any of the tree physical readings you gave me.
The doctors say this stone is the cause of all my nausea;
that it sets up periodic infection which poisons my whole
system; aggravates the sinus infection; affects my nervous
system; is the cause of my great sense of periodic exhaustion
etc. If they are right then why was nothing said about it in
my readings?
I have seen a good deal of Hugh Lynn since he has been here
and he says he does not believe the thing the X-Ray pictures
show is a stone, or the cause of all my suffering. I wanted
to ask you for a check reading at once, but I am packing
every minute I get at my present home preparatory to moving
on Friday of this week, and I didn't want to have a reading
in the midst of this confusion, and my unsettled state of
mind and location. If you could manage it on Saturday a week
(Oct 8th) in the afternoon, or any time the following day,
Sunday, (Oct 9th) I would like to have it, and will send you
the questions as soon as you let me know.
All this doctors business has been mighty discouraging,
and would be more so if I wasn't sure that God intends
perfection for His children, and that this business can be
met in spite of the belief of doctors that it can't be done
without an operation. I've been three times already on the
operating table, and half my woes are due to it, so I will
consent to another serious operation only if I am persuaded
there is no other way. And I'll have to be six times as sick
as I now am before I did it, even so. I can function as
things stand. I do suffer this gnawing pain in the left side
and back where the kidney is located. I sometimes feel I'll
just perish with the nausea, - and when all this happens I
fix my faith on the Source of all Good, and through trusting
the God who gives only Good, I seem to rise above it, - at
least for a time. But, - strangely enough, - I don't seem
able to bring myself any permanent relief. And, Oh, my
friend, I want to be made perfect in His service!
9/28/38 EC's ltr. to [
1472]:
Dear [
1472]
Have yours of 26th - am sorry to hear you are having trouble
don't understand - how such a condition could have crept up
on you - don't understand if such is the case why you have
not been warned about same before this in the information,
but have set the time for you Sat-afternoon the 8th-3:30 to
4:30 E.S.T. will be well if you will have H. L. help with the
questions possible - and will see what the information has
to say about it all. Of course have had many cases where
such had been diagnosed and the information disagreed - and
the application of the suggestion has cleared the trouble -
one very specific case few years ago - man [
5580] was told -
stone in kidney - after his X-Ray, the information said
something else, and that was done - they came for the man to
carry him to the operation - he was out playing Golf.
Haven't heard from H. L. since he has been up there this time
- until yesterday - he seems to blame us - but we have
written - seems he just hasn't gotten his mail hope very
thing will work out alright - am disappointed tho that he
has not been able to do what he wished - possibly tho this is
best.
Can and do appreciate your feeling about these pains -
haven't I been most in the same fix for more than a year -
Dr's say I will have to have operation - but have not as yet
come just to that - effects of the former operation. The
information is not too optimistic at times - and keeps me on
a diet - well some would not take.
Do hope we may be the channel for help - for am sure HE hs
willed that we all be near perfect Physically as well as
every other way - only ourselves that separate us from HIS
love.
Dislike to think of any one using such a beautiful
opportunity - of giving others a concept of God - as might
be in - "Folk we touch in passing" or similar programme and
leaving it all out. But He will give the opportunity else
where am sure.
Thanks - hope the time is OK and that we may be of a help -
all send love and best wishes.
Sincerely, Edgar Cayce
10/08/38 See
1472-7.
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