8/20/38 [
1658]'s letter to EC:
Government of Puerto Rico
UNIVERSITY OF PUERTO RICO
College of Agriculture and Mechanic Arts
Mayaguez, P.R.
Box ..., ..., Mass.
Dear Mr. Cayce:-
Your good letter of the 16th arrived yesterday. To be frank,
the reading raised in me principally a fear that if the
instructions were carried out they would just prolong my days
of torture in this world. And when I say torture I mean, to
some extent, physical torture, but to a much greater extent
mental and soul torture, for ever since my third attack of
pneumonia (last Oct.) which brought on this T.B., just one
torture after another (mostly only very indirectly connected
with the illness) have been brought upon me. I would have
ended this physical existence long ago if it had not occurred
to me that maybe all this was either some sort of a
punishment of God or a test of His to try me out. I may yet
find that necessary, as now in some of the more recent
tortures other dear ones are beginning to be involved as
well. As long as they concern me alone I could grin and
bear, but I can't stand it to see my dear ones suffer on my
account (relatives and adopted family).
You perhaps realized in the reading something of the length
of this illness. I have not been well since 1922. Then I
got pernicious malaria, which caused most diverse symptoms
and was most difficult to cure. Then I just got over that
when in Jan., 1925 I came down with my 2nd attack of
pneumonia (double pneumonia, accompanied by pleurisy with
effusions, which left adhesions). Ever since then I have run
fevers, with some mysterious, apparently fungus infection, in
the chest, and probably incipient t.b. as well. But all that
kept getting gradually better, and I was able to do more and
more work (though always very subject to violent grippy colds
and influenza), until in October, 1937 I came down with a
violent attack of influenza, which developed into pneumonia
the 2nd day, and the t.b. developed after that, although not
particularly active until late April, when it suddenly flared
into the open and raced ahead in two weeks as much as it
usually does in many months. Since June my decline has been
quite slow, due to the great inherent resistance to disease
which our family (and particularly I) possess. I have had
some 7 or 8 illnesses which would have killed almost anyone
else, and scores of more ordinary ones. (Once I lost 5
quarts of blood in hemorrhage from tonsil operation, in 1929
after chest trouble had started). But since this last attack
of pneumonia I have felt I could never be well again. I
don't believe I want to be cured unless it can be really
cured, as really I am tired, very tired, of these illnesses
and other tortures, and it would seem pretty good to go [to]
the place He has prepared for us. It must be a wonderful
place.
Nevertheless, I am following your instructions for awhile,
believing that they MAY offer a real cure. But as yet, I
have not been able to put them fully into effect, as we have
not been able despite exhaustive search in Worcester [?] and
Boston, to obtain the Keg yet. [...], a Puerto Rican boy,
the one of my adopted family who is with me now, and the only
person here in whom I can have complete confidence, due to
the old-fashioned ideas and non-understanding characters of
my own relatives, has spent days in its quest, and has
finally been promised one of slightly larger than 2-gallon
size for Monday. Perhaps with increased contents it will be
all right. Possibly until then the sips of pure cane rum
prescribed by my Boston specialist will partly take it's
place, but I intend to do all you say as soon as I can.
Also, the Calcios has not arrived from Long Island yet. In
case of hemorrhage (which I have not had so far) in case
my doctor doesn't want to cooperate, I could make up
your prescriptions myself, as I always have quite a bit of
codeine on hand, prescribed in pure form by the Dr. for
reducing cough paroxysms, and I believe the other ingredients
would not be difficult to obtain.
Well, all I want is for His will to be done, and I can't help
but feeling that out of all this mess it will.
Please pardon for troubling with all these details.
With best wishes,
Sincerely yours, [
1658]
8/22/38 EC's letter to [
1658]:
Dear Mr. [
1658]:
Thank you for taking the time and for writing as fully as you
did on the 20th - am happy to hear from you and appreciate it
- but please know do not wish you to use up too much of your
strength in doing so - yes sir can fully appreciate your
feelings about the care and trouble for your family and loved
ones - but do hope you will give the suggestion the
opportunity for activity as well and as fully as possible -
there is a brand of the Brandy known as Old Mr. Boston -
should be easy for you to get - feel sure you will find help
- know we are all praying with and for you and that His will
be done in and through you just now.
Take a care - and feel you will come through with HIS LOVE
and STRENGTH SUSTAINING you - you cannot fail.
May His blessings attend you all the way.
Sincerely, [signed] Edgar Cayce
10/07/38 Mr. [
1646]'s letter to EC: "A letter from [
1658]
leads me to think he'll go over in the next few days. The
'will to die' is too strong in that household."
11/18/38 Mr. [
1646]'s letter [see under
1755-1, Par. B2],
indicated Mr. [
1658] had given up the reading treatment and
was expecting to die soon.
12/01/38 Mr. [
1646]'s letter said Mr. [
1658] died
11/25/38 and
his faith to the end was wonderful.
1/29/39 &
2/01/39 Mr. [
1646]'s letters indicated
communications from Mr. [
1658] had said he was sorry he had
not followed the reading.


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