7/06/39 [
1786]'s letter to EC:
New York, N.Y.
Dear Mr. Edgar Cayce:
My deepest gratitude for your generous letter of June 28th.
At this writing, I am planning to go to the Calvary Church on
Monday morning, July 10th, at 11:30 AM and remain thru 12:30,
the period you have assigned me. You state you are giving me
from 10:30-11:30 E.S.T., and we are on Daylight Saving Time,
hence 11:30-12:30. This Church is located at the Corner of
21 Street and Fourth Avenue, New York City. I prefer to go
there, to be in solitude at the time of my reading.
Should some work come up on Monday, and I would not be at
that address, I shall wire you, if possible.
I am anxious to have guidance concerning what should be my
life's work. I have great difficulty in knowing what I would
be happiest in doing? And what I would be best qualified to
do? Also, how it would be possible to attain it? There are
many obstacles such as age, appearance, lack of specified
training etc. which seem to hinder me.
The next problem, which has become quite a serious one for
me, is how to overcome this terrific sense of loneliness,
since my mate passed on. How to get motivation for living?
How to FIND MY PURPOSE IN LIFE, since I have been left here,
and he has gone on?
Should I try to see if I can do anything further in trying to
become associated with those trying to help alcoholics?
Since Mr. [...]'s death (July 19, 1938), I have done nothing
along that line. Can contact be made with him now, since
death? Does he know of my prayers?
I have a feeling that there is some definite work I should do
- that I am here for - but what is it?
Because I have worked for so many different lines of
endeavor, University, Theatrical, Commercial, Psychological,
etc., and have not yet found my permanent place, I am
completely bewildered. I have had stenographic training, and
have written publicity. However, in trying to analyze the
situation I am handicapped, for people do not seem to be
inclined to take me for routine stenographic work (for which
I'm grateful in one sense) and I've not had specific training
in anything else. I have abundant sales ideas, executive
ability, and very broad experience. I though I WOULD BE LET
IN PSYCHIC WORK as "hunches" - intuition, premonition and
mental telepathy are very strong with me. I've always had a
keen desire to be of help to humanity. That seems to be my
only answer for living. But as fate will have it, I seem to
have amassed "human" experience chiefly - and do not know how
to employ it - as I am not trained to be a minister, doctor,
nurse, scientist, etc. - those who serve, or a Social Service
Worker.
MY CHIEF QUESTIONS:
1. Have I any further contact with [...] since he has passed
on?
2. Am I to continue on thru life alone?
3. How shall I "know myself", "find myself" - I have prayed
every day and night for this answer.
4. What IS MY LIFE'S WORK? How shall I find it? What am I
now here for?
May God guide you, Mr. Cayce, and may you truly find these
answers for one who has earnestly tried to find them herself,
and apparently has failed. My present difficulty is in
getting a job because they do not want to take me because
I've had so much varied experience - and because I do not
seem to know one outstanding thing I'd like to do. At
present I'm working only a couple days week - thru the
courtesy of a Welfare Organization.
With a heart full of gratitude to you - I am [
1786]
7/10/39 See
1786-2.



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