3/31/41 Letter: My very good friend, [
307], has suggested
several times my getting a Reading to help me solve numerous
hard problems too great for me, but I have told her I had no
money and understood that type of Reading was not available
to me. However, my need is very great, and if the Spiritual
Vocation Reading is permitted me at this time I would greatly
welcome it. I am enclosing two pages of questions that I
need to have answered if possible in order for me to proceed
with my life and work. There are things that I need very
much to know before I can continue writing the books I was
told by former Readings to write.
I will be in my room at the above address any time you may
set, if such location is necessary when you get ready for the
Reading, - if such is to be mine. I know that for one of the
Readings you did not need to have my exact location.
This year with me has been a most heart-breaking affair for
lack of guidance. I have been kept living from moment to
moment in great anxiety always expecting to dash to some
work. I have had some wild goose chases which did not amount
to anything, and I have not been able to settle down to
anything because of lack of knowing what this year was to
bring forth. If I could have been told that I would not be
regularly employed this year I could have settled down,
gotten my material from the ends of the world and set to work
and accomplished something. As it has been the year has been
one nightmare wondering what is best to do, and how long I
would be able to do it if I should start. Why the long
punishment - double that I have ever experienced before, -
and just for sharing the light and helping people, I do not
know. I have turned the evil into as much good as possible,
and I am sure there must be some fruit from the long and
intense suffering in a tiny dirty dark ill-ventilated room
with little food, no clothes, no hope. My health has not
been very good, my hip still aches a good deal and my ear and
neck seem to be troubling me of late. I suppose when I can
find out the reason for some of these things I will improve.
Yes, I begin now to see the light and believe I may soon be a
person again with at least a dog's chance.
4/07/41 See
2067-6, a Ck. Life Reading.



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