3/15/40 (Friday Night) [
2144]'s letter to EC:
Dear Mr. & Mrs. Cayce -
Thank you very much for the Reading. I really do not know
what to say about it. I have read it several times tonight,
and the more I read it the deeper the meanings seem to be or
else I'm just plain stupid. Mother and I were trying to get
a full understanding and the first thing we knew, we were
arguing about something entirely different. She and I do
not always agree on one subject.
This is what I get from it.
The Reading seems to be based on Astrology, now when I think
of Astrology - WHO was the originator and how do we know he
was accurate in his findings. In other words, I must have
proof before I believe, (as the girls at the store always say
about me). Then again, somewhere, I have read, what right
does man have to question the almighty - as we are taught
"all things are possible" with him, or with the cosmic powers
(whichever you prefer to call it). How do we know, that each
planet has a definite meaning or influence on our lives, how
has it been proven? We are only taking someone's word for
it. See? I'm not trying to be sarcastic, I just want to
know.
I think I understand about the entity belonging to the
different ages, - influenced by astrological influences of
each time - (or sojourn). As to the sojourn that is listed
first - (which would be the last sojourn) my name is shown as
Jean Nathanson, alright - why is the first name not changed,
as well as the last?
And about being critical of others - yes, in my work at the
office.
And the second listed sojourn:
"just fits me".
I just don't get the meaning of Analyze thyself - I thot,
I had done that, as to analyzing my desires and purposes.
Naturally it would me materially. But the lack of money or
means prevents me from attaining my desires. As to purpose
- it looks as though I'm supposed to be a servant to others,
hemmed in by conditions I have no control over.
Even small pleasures have a way of "passing me by" - because
I have a duty to perform, which MUST BE DONE FIRST.
I'm not a pleasure hunter, but would like a change, and to
be able to feel free once in awhile. As to travel - I would
spend my last penny to see places I have never been before.
I suppose there are plenty of others that enjoy other scenery
too.
At this time my thoughts are quite confused concerning
spiritual ideals etc. I even wrote to the Rosicrucian Order
to cancel further lessons - but they wrote a very nice letter
to me and suggested I continue with the lessons, that they
would do all in their power to help me.
I have reached the crossroads I guess and am undecided which
way to go.
Mother said she thinks I have read too many different
subjects for my own good.
I seem to pick out the same meaning in all the subjects, and
still I'm no further ahead for all the knowledge I gained
from them.
Never having a good education, it is hard for me to try and
explain things to others without them getting an entirely
different idea. I can't express myself correctly.
It just seems to me every time I analyze a subject it goes
right back to spiritualism. I mean anything along these
lines.
On the last paragraph - (there will come material gain from
unseen sources in the present - or legacies not understood)
the question in my mind is - what legacies would it be. I
have no inheritance of any importance in the material that I
know of. I thot it might mean - a "Spiritual understanding".
I have always had a desire to heal people of sickness but it
doesn't work for me - something is missing.
Surely, healing the sick wouldn't be using the mystic powers
or cosmic powers for material gain would it? As I understand
it, sickness is caused from disobeying the natural laws and
if another could straighten it out - or help to correct the
opposition, surely that would be a spiritual, (help ye one
another) gain. I have had some experiences during my life
that I could not account for. When I try for them, I do not
get anything. It comes when I least expect it.
Lately I haven't had any. Due to my confused state of mind I
suppose.
Well Mr. Cayce - I hope you can read this. I write fast to
keep up with my thots. We just had a beautiful snow storm,
but hard on traffic, the streets are ice coated. Downtown
streets are shovelled clean. Every one here seems to be
well with the exception of colds.
You spoke of planting sweet peas. My goodness, the ground
here is frozen hard and covered with packed snow, but not for
long. The winter will soon be over. The days are getting a
little longer. At least I get home in daylight at 6:15 p.m.
It is 12:30 pm. now - so will stop for tonight. Will study
the reading again. I may get more understanding another
time.
Mother wanted me to answer right away. But I was not home
last night.
Best regards to all Miss [
2144] ..., Ohio
3/18/40 EC's letter to [
2144]:
Dear Miss [
2144]
Thanks for yours of the 15th regarding your reading. Wish
it were possible for me to sit down with you and go over it
paragraph by paragraph. Might help, but feel sure if you
will read it every week or so there will come to you from the
studies you have had in the mystic much that will be of real
help - only those - and thankful to say there have been very
very few of those who have discarded such after reading over
casually - but have said they have gotten a very great deal
out of them - one man wrote me recently - he said "when I
first read my life reading you sent me it all seemed very
vague - nothing definite, all far fetched - but have studied
it over carefully for the past year - and now wish to report
on same - it is the most worthwhile piece of paper that has
ever come into my possession - while I realize haven't gotten
it all as yet - each day now - I see more and more in same."
So hope as you read yours Miss [
2144] you will not hesitate
to make note of questions - and be just as severe a critic as
you wish.
No - the reading is not based on astrology - that is
astrology as we usually think of same, and think if
you read it again you will see that.
Of course there is little or no proof save as is experienced
in the lives of those such readings have been given for, and
that is only proof to them and not to any one else unless
they can and do feel something within - as answers to a
longing of some nature within, and expands such to a real
manifestation then it isn't much but just an interesting
tale.
Why the name is given the same - do not know. Evidently you
have some aversion to the name - and there must be a reason
for its being given you this time - why, do not know.
To analyze self - as I understand from the information -
is to set down what is your Ideal - Physical - mental and
Spiritual. The very fact that you say you are confused would
indicate that is something most necessary in your experience;
then it tells you how to judge these, which isn't a bad
philosophy, to say the least. Are all your purposes -
material - then all the more reason for self analysis and, am
sure, most of us do eventually come to the realization that
things as well ideas, that are not material are the most
helpful and the most valuable in our lives, and one makes
their environment - that is no matter how hard one may have
to work for even the bare necessities of living - they can
do it with a happy, thankful heart - and make the experience
of every one they meet more worthwhile. Isn't that your
observation? It is mine - have known and do know many that
have the luxuries of a material existence - yet their lives
are a veritable hell.
TRUTH alone can and does set you free. What is truth? The
same answer that was given Pilate is truth to me, and it
grows as my capacity to understand and apply it comes to me.
As to being servant - am persuaded as HE said he that would
be greatest among you is servant to all. That has been my
experience - and is the story of all our great men - they who
served best - are looked upon as the greatest men and women
among us.
Do not know the Rosicrucian lessons well enough to even give
an opinion on them. Of course have seen some of them, get
their magazine each month for the files and for members
to read - personally I take only the Scripture - and find
solace there.
Don't think we can read too much, but to read or know
something that we do not put into practice usually it becomes
dissatisfying to us to be sure. Same old thing as Mrs. Adam
experienced - or Eve.
Like to think of spirituality - rather than spiritualism.
While I know there is communication with the departed, but my
experience has been, many of those need awakening as well as
those here. Don't think we have or do change merely because
we in what is called death go through God's other door. The
room is different but the real purpose is the same - and are
necessary parts of our experience to become one with Him,
as our homes are made up of the various partitions, so our
experiences in consciousness.
Now - as to the source of the legacy, who knows, but from
past experiences this will be a part of your experience. Why
- because of the life you have and are living. How do I know
that - as said where such things have been given before they
have come to pass. Am sure if you deny it - say in your
heart of hearts, it can't. Then it can pass you by.
You can become or are already a spiritual healer - is the
desire there only to become aware of the laws as pertain
to same from the material standpoint then is all that is
necessary - but as Jesus said - "when the finger of God has
pointed out health - know the kingdom of God is nigh unto
you." It is something evidently then requires leaning
heavily on the arm and the knowledge of God for as all life
is a manifestation of God - the use of such is allowed of God
- then one must to a greater or less extent rely only on God
for the use of such, and no one else, nor for other than to
be a channel for the expression of God.
Am sure it is the experience of each of us - that when we try
so hard seemingly nothing happens - then when we least expect
it something apparently foreign to us happens. Why, the
poor concept we have of time and space - we are in a three
dimensional world of manifestation, as Body - mind - soul, or
length - breadth - depth, or God - Son - Holy Spirit, or Time
- space - Patience. One works not without the other. That
we long for then - we patiently wait for believing HE is
able to give it, and He does in HIS time, and have we shown
patience we know what to do with it. Have we been like Saul
- we do not know even as he knows what to do with it.
Don't know whether this has helped any or not - for of course
it must answer as said at first to something within ourselves
- the Kingdom is within. But please don't hesitate to ask
any questions that may arise - only want to help and not
have you believe anything because I do or say that I do.
Hoping too that you will like so many others find real
enlightenment in that given you.
Lovely here for last day or so - and very pleasant in middle
of day - you must have had some snow storm from picture your
Mother sent.
With all good wishes from all here. Sincerely Edgar Cayce
4/28/40 Mother [
464]'s letter: "I think [
2144] will be
getting married this year, all so unexpected. I lose my best
friend and pal, my [
2144]. As the reading said. I have been
worried over [
2144] and what would become of her if anything
happened to me, so now I think she will be well taken care
of, but I will miss her as nobody knows. She and I were
so close - I might just as well be a widow as far as [...]
[Husband] is concerned."
5/14/40 Mother [
464]'s letter: "I am not so keen over
[
2144]'s marriage. I don't like the set-up and I am afraid
after the novelty wears off she will be very unhappy and
discontented over conditions. [
2144] has always been used
to nice things, and his set-up is anything but that according
to what daughter [...] tells me. He is living in a little
home-made summer cottage. No water. They have to carry
their water in big bottles from ... to the resort, about 6
miles. No bathroom or toilet. The walls are covered with
plaster board, not any too neat a job, and the place is very
small. No stove, just a two-burner oil contraption. The
kitchen is like a hall bedroom, and when I think of the say
[
2144] has always been at me to fix up this, that and the
other thing in our house. Daughter [...] said our house
seemed like a palace to her when she came home from that
place of his. He is not a young man, neither is [
2144] a
young girl. [
2144] is 42 and he is 50. Eight yrs. is too
much difference in their age. There is 8 yrs. between [...]
[Husband] and I, and I think that is too much now. He is a
widower and has mighty little to show for his age. His wife
died just last Easter and 4 wks. later he was after [
2144],
and I don't like that in him either, and he talks too much
and says a lot of things he doesn't mean, about all the
wonderful things he is going to do. I would like it better
if I could see more wonderful things he has done in the
past...
"If I say too much [
2144] thinks I am trying to spoil her
chance and her happiness, and if I don't say anything and
she wakes up she will say, 'Mom, why didn't you tell me?'
So what can I do?"
5/24/40 EC's letter: "Think you can only point out the facts
and let it go at that...but from [
2144]'s Life Reading, this
may be just the job for her to straighten this fellow out.
May be a real pleasure to her to do so; if she makes the
right start with him, I imagine she will change many things,
and all for the best possibly for them both, and yet may be a
sad awakening for her. Let's just hope for the best."
6/05/40 "[
2144]'s boy friend wants to take [...] [Husband],
[
2144] and me over to Canada in his car. We are all
beginning to look on the sunny side of [
2144]'s love
affair. She will have him regardless, so what!"
9/23/40 Mother [
464]'s letter: "[
2144]'s name will be Mrs.
[...]. She is to be married on
9/28/40."
10/03/40 "[...] and [
2144] were married on the 28th as
planned. They had a very nice wedding and are very
happy so far."
1/17/41 Mother [
464]'s letter: "Four of us are down sick
with the flu. [
2144] is here to help out. I don't know what
we would have done without her. She is good with the sick."
5/22/41 Mother [
464]'s letter: "[
2144]'s husband gave me a
Bartlett pear tree and it is coming on fine."
6/05/41 "[
2144] and husband seem to be very happy."
1/29/43 "[
2144] is fine and seems to be happy. She and her
husband and the cat, Hoab. She tells some funny stories
about their cat."


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