1/14/41 Letter reporting on daughter-in-law's reading (see
under
2425-1 Reports): "Since Jan. 1st life has been hurling
things at my defenseless head. All the problems I have not
wanted to face have been brought to a climax and strangely
enough I have found myself not defenseless and this morning
after a trustee meeting, where I certainly took the
initiative as the reading told me I must, I feel a sense of
complete rightness and security - which is the most direct
contact I ever made with 'that which is sure'. Mme. [
2629]
(whom you met) said this morning that she expected to see me
looking exhausted and found me looking as if I had just come
back from Florida. And so this morning I feel that my feet
are on the road.
"Ever since my Life Reading I have been clearing, or trying
to, to the best of my ability, the blocks and debris within
myself to clear the channel. Some of the landmarks on the
way have been [
2425]'s coming and your offering me the boy
[[
1208], for her school]. They are very precious...
"There are two questions I have about the reading that I have
never asked and now with [
2425]'s I would like to ask. What
is the significance of the circle, the shield and the armor?
My symbol is the circle, [
2425]'s the shield. Where do they
come from. [
2425]'s shield is too beautiful. I have a
feeling that we complement each other. The other question is
the Law of One. I gained in my Egyptian incarnation because
I held to the 'law of one.'
"As you know I have a very strong feeling against asking from
your channel questions that I feel should be solved from
within, but I do feel that I would like a Mental-Spiritual
Reading. There is of course no hurry, especially since you
have been ill. But in your own good time could you give me
time?...
"You must keep well, all of you. It is hard to bear thinking
of you otherwise."
1/23/41 Letter: "I have been working on the questions for
the reading. It seems to be an essay. Perhaps it is not
what you want me to send. Therefore I am sending it quickly,
so that you can reply...
"Going over my Life Reading - it is all very constructive and
positive and it gave a tremendous lift to my self confidence
which is evidently what I needed, but it failed to explain
why it took me forty-eight years to struggle out of an iron
clad environment and breathe the fresh air of being more or
less myself - not pictures of other people and rules of
environment...
"Ask and ye shall receive. And what I ask is that from the
circle which is my life's seal may radiate those thoughts,
feelings and actions which serve His purpose with the
children of men in these difficult times. To do this I am
seeking through analysis to free myself as a channel. In the
meantime imminent and ever present is the school problem
where many people are looking to me for their security and
future. Here I meet block after block. The block to
achievement spiritual and mental, and to a sound financial
basis, lies in my relationship to Miss [...] [my co-worker],
or does it? I no longer see how it is possible for the
school to grow with her here as principal and yet what is
left for her elsewhere? I have been told through you that if
she did not conform to the unselfish picture to dismiss her.
I fundamentally feel that the solution should come without
cutting the Gordian knot. What can I do? That is my mind
seeking to 'think through.' Is it not too busy to let
through what my heart should understand? Is it not colored
by my desire to have my son [...] finish in his present
school picture? There is a difference in laying all on Him
and through inaction shirking one's task, and seeking through
action to find His way. Is this lack of faith - not in Him
surely, only lack of confidence in myself, enhanced by the
palpable insecurity of the group?
"I ask for help in saving those things which are good in the
group that now forms the ... School.
"I ask for help in freeing the channel, of myself, to a
clearer perception of His purposes...
"This reading may help me tremendously. I wonder what I will
get.
"At present everything seems static and hopeless but I
suspect it is not as static as it seems.
"Love, as we use the word, can be duty, passion,
sentimentality, possessiveness. I have used service as its
symbol but somewhere have missed - where?
"I find it difficult to know when the will to a course of
action is justifiable or when I am forcing my own personal
will - this may lead to inaction which is equally
unjustifiable."
1/29/41 See
2174-2, a Mental-Spiritual Reading.



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