10/19/42 [
2830]'s letter:
Statement of my condition which leads me to ask assistance
through Mr. Edgar Cayce, and The Association for Research
and Enlightenment.
I have always considered myself a healthy person, with a good
deal of natural vitality. My bringing-up was a very healthy
and sound one, and I have always had a strong constitution.
This has probably led me to take liberties with it, and to
tax my strength to the utmost. Because I rarely have colds,
and keep going when others drop out, I have not been very
sensible about care of myself. However, there always seemed
some good reason why I should be doing just the kind of thing
I was engaged upon, and I did not feel that I should spare
myself.
At the end of five years of social work in Philadelphia,
I was about thirty at the time, I began to have severe
headaches. They would begin in a spot behind and above my
right ear, a severe pain as if someone had pressed a nerve,
and would spread till that whole side of my head ached.
When I reached New York and tried other work, the headaches
continued, there seemed to be some connection with the
menstrual period, and the doctor who saw me then diagnosed a
thyroid condition. The headaches disappeared to some extent,
however, with a new and congenial job, and a more normal
life. They returned later on with some violence, and a few
years ago, at the time of the illness and death of my mother,
were almost continuous. At that time, I developed symptoms
of neuritis in my right arm and side, and there was a feeling
of congestions and inflammation in my right cheek, although
that sinus was clear, and I had not had a cold. A doctor at
that time prescribed rest and a sedative, and again referred
to the thyroid condition, aggravated by the strain and
over-exertion of that time. At that time I first began
to feel the sensation of irritation in my right side about
where an old appendix operation scar was located. Rest and
somewhat more normal conditions relieved me somewhat, but
anxiety and nervousness had given me a kind of chronic
constipation.
Since that time my story is one of trying to find some way to
come to terms with my difficulty. I have worked hard, but no
harder than I wanted too, and certainly this present occasion
is one to make me feel that I must spend all I have in the
way of strength. Three years ago I was in very bad shape and
in constant discomfort. At that time I had an operation for
tumors. When I recovered from that, I found that my tendency
to the headaches, the neuritis, and the inflammation of
the side were still there, and needed only a little extra
exertion, a little extra strain to go right into action and
make me quite miserable. I discovered that if I ate the
leafy vegetables, the raw fruit with skins on that seemed
advisable to improve my elimination, the increased activity
produced a very sore feeling in my right side, with the same
kind of headache following. If I persisted in the diet, I
was in agony in about three days, and nothing helped but the
return to the blandest sort of diet which promptly slowed
down my elimination.
At present I am working hard, but no harder than many around
me and not as hard as some. I keep in moderate comfort by
steering a careful course with a wary eye on that touchy spot
in my side, taking as much rest as possible, doing only what
I consider the essential things. What I am wondering is,
namely:
1. Is my present condition directly due to the past fifteen
years in which I have spent my physical heritage rather
recklessly?
2. Or is this slowing down of my vigor and ability to adjust
myself the penalty for being fifty-one?
3. Or is it due directly to some physical mal-adjustment
which may be righted?
I have always had great faith in the simple things, and the
simple methods, diet and common sense being better, in my
estimation, than complicated remedies. I should like, as
much as is possible to learn how I may so direct my daily
life, that I can attain the most efficient possible condition
of health. Doctors have helped me, and my present physician
is most conscientious and sympathetic, but she cannot,
apparently get to the root of this difficulty. She has
thought that I must have an allergy to certain kinds of food,
but a careful check leads me to believe that the condition
is a physical one more far reaching than that. I should
be happy to think I can escape this pain just by not eating
spinach, even though I am very fond of spinach. There is
so much opportunity right now to do so much that needs to be
done, I can not be patient with my infirmities, and I should
like some help to get rid of them. Perhaps it is something
in my attitude or habits that needs changing. If there is
nothing really wrong anywhere, then I'll just go ahead as
well as I can, and regard my condition as just one of the
handicaps I have to take on. I certainly am no worse off
than lots of other people at that.
[
2830]
REPORTS
10/26/42 [
2830]'s letter:
..., New York City
Dear Mr. Cayce:
I've just returned from the country and find your letter and
the reading waiting for me. I appreciate your friendly
note very much and I have read the instructions with great
interest. I believe they will be helpful and I shall
certainly carry them out very conscientiously. There
are many details that agree with what I have perceived
only vaguely before this. I will get in touch with
the hydrotherapist as soon as possible and start on the
prescribed routines. Just as soon as there are any results
to report, I shall write to you again. Then we can decide
what is the next step to take.
Would it interest you to know that through your help I have
rediscovered the Bible and read it every day. In this world
of frightful suffering and destruction, there is much to
perplex anyone who would work for a better world. How far we
have wandered from the simple loving fellowship that Christ
taught us! We are all looking forward with interest to the
publication of There Is A River. Some misinterpretation is
inevitable, but I believe it will be an inspiration to many.
I have been ...? aware of Divine Guidance in even very small
things at times, and of Divine Benevolence on many occasions.
Thank you for making me more aware of my close relationships
to the Divine Spirit.
Sincerely, [
2830]
11/27/42 [
2830]'s letter:
Dear Mr. Cayce:
Your friendly and helpful letters have been very welcome.
I have waited to write to you until I had been taking the
treatment a little while, and until I had a few minutes of
peace and quiet in which to think about it all.
The more I consider the reading and study its language, the
more remarkable it seems to me. Many things are explained
by it, some of which I mentioned and others that I did not.
By the way, I would be interested to know whether anyone in
Virginia Beach saw the little summary of my condition which I
sent, before the reading.
Now I am half way through the treatment as outlined. In
general I feel an improvement. Certainly I am somewhat less
inclined to nervousness and am a little less continuously
tired. The reading says, and I am also aware that my
condition is the result of long existent causes aggravated
by recent circumstances, so that I am prepared to wait for
a slow change and not to expect miracles of speedy cure. I
still have painful neuritis, occasional headaches, numbness
in the right side, and soreness in the colon in the region
of my old appendix scar. These I am hoping will pass as my
system becomes better adjusted through the massage.
Dr. Reilly is a pleasant person, as you say, and his
establishment is beautifully run. It has a very friendly
and soothing atmosphere which is medicine in itself to tired
nerves and discouraged spirits. The girl who gives me the
massage is very sympathetic and interested, and I have told
her about the readings. I am sure they are all eager to help
and they make one feel welcome and comfortable, even if they
are, like everyone else in New York, rushing from one job to
another as fast as possible.
Now I am up here in the country where I love to be, for a
four day's rest. And I am really trying to rest, though
there is a great temptation to go out and rake leaves out of
the gutter, or saw up some sticks for the kitchen stove. We
have been so continuously busy at the office for many weeks
that I have had no chance to catch my breath, and I am afraid
that now I am using up my little bit of new strength as fast
as I get it.
It rained most of the night, but at daybreak it changed to
snow, and now the ground is lightly powdered with white. I
think I'll go out and rake those leaves after all, - just for
a little while. I love every minute I spend out of doors in
the woods. God seems near and there is beauty everywhere.
It seems easier to think and to act reasonably here, and all
sorts of difficulties assume their true proportion.
When the treatments are finished, I shall give myself the
pleasure of writing to you again, not only to report on the
success of this work, but to discuss the next step. I have
been, for the past year or so, experiencing a period of
mental and spiritual self-inquiry which makes me feel sorely
the need of guidance. The first step seemed to be to achieve
sound physical health so that there might be no obstruction
to my intellectual faculties, and so that I might not be
misled by an unstable body into ill-considered action. I
feel that I am at the point of change in my path, - and
I shall need advice. In the meantime I can only pray for
health and wisdom to perform each thing as it comes. May God
bless you and keep you in your path of service and devotion.
Sincerely [
2830]
1/06/43 [
2830]'s letter:
..., New York
Dear Mr. Cayce:
A happy New Year to you and may you and all of us be given
the strength to meet what lies ahead of us, and to live our
days in the ways of God!
I have been eager to write to you for some time, but while
Christmas is always a very happy time for me, it is also
a turbulent period, with a good deal of stress and strain.
No matter how far ahead I start to plan, the last days are
breathless. However, things are settling down a bit now and
we are starting a new year.
First let me thank you for the book, - A SEARCH FOR GOD.
I have been reading it through carefully but as quickly
as possible so that I may understand the whole idea as
completely as I can, then I will go back and study each
chapter thoroughly by itself. It is all very interesting,
and I know it will be helpful. Is this part of a study
plan? As an editor, I am of course interested in how it was
written, - and by whom, but as a human being striving to lead
the best kind of life that is possible to me, I am even more
interested in who LIVED it.
My treatments at Dr. Reilly's were finished just before
Christmas. I am sure they have done a lot to improve my
condition. I still have pain at times, and I am not very
strong but I FEEL more alive. The reading gave me hope,
which was perhaps its most important contribution because
I was getting very discouraged, and when it outlined such
simple and logical causes for my distress, I felt that I
had something I could go on. I had been to so many good
and conscientious doctors who had tried hard to help me.
Everything they suggested helped a little for a while, but
soon I was back where I was before, and was slowly getting
weaker and sicker and less able to cope with the strenuous
routine of my daily life.
The first improvement under the treatments was in the
condition of my nerves, and as they steadied I felt a great
sense of relief. Some of the other difficulties told about
in the reading were slow in disappearing but I have made real
progress. Since my condition is apparently due to troubles
of long standing, I think it will take me some time to get
back to rigorous and well-balanced health, and I shall try
not to be impatient. I will use the various suggestions in
the reading as the basis for a continued plan of daily living
and hope to attain the condition of usefulness to which
I aspire. I am sure that with this help, and with the
comfort and inspiration that I have found in the spiritual
contributions of your group, I can make some very definite
progress. I am now waiting and praying, in anticipation
that the next step will be made clear to me, and that I will
find the strength to take it.
I understand that you are planning to come to New York this
month. It would be a privilege to meet you, if your time
is not too fully occupied. May the blessings that you have
brought to others comfort and strengthen you through these
disturbing times.
Sincerely [
2830]
2/20/43 [
2830]'s letter:
Dear Mr. Cayce:
It seems more appropriate to write to you from this peaceful
place, and, although I have had you and the association's
work very much in my mind, I have really been waiting till
I could get up here before I did anything about it.
Now I am here for a three day rest, - the sun is shining
brightly but the ground is covered deep with snow, and we had
a hard time getting through the little dirt road that leads
past my cottage. No car except that of the postman will pass
today and it is all very still and serene. Perhaps here I
can write the kind of letter that I want to write.
Both meetings in New York interested and helped me very much,
and I was glad to have an opportunity to see you and to speak
a few words with you. All your friends must hope, as I do,
that the trip did not exhaust you too much. It must have
been an ordeal, and yet full of renewed inspiration at
certain times.
I want now to apply for a life reading at some time in the
next few weeks when it is convenient for you to arrange one
for me. My affairs need some straightening out, and I feel
very much the need of guidance and instruction. Miss Judy
Chandler, to whom I applied at your suggestion, has given me
most generously of her time and hospitality and I am grateful
to her for advice. I have been reading the writings on the
subject of the life readings prepared by the association,
and am studying to fit myself for the reception of whatever
direction is vouchsafed to me. Then I receive word from you
that this reading can be arranged, I will at once confirm
the date with you, and send my check to the association. At
that time I will also send a few questions that I should like
to ask. These need considerable thought and self-searching
on my part and I am getting them into shape slowly. As you
will probably remember, I can leave the office and go to
some quiet place during the reading period. That also I
can manage when I know the time of reading.
I am happy to say that my health continues to improve. I am
following the general outline as it was worked out for me,
and have felt a return of strength and hope. This is very
important to me as I realize I can do little in the way of
service, if I am handicapped by an ailing body. Later, if it
is possible I should like to arrange for a check reading on
my condition, - when I have had the time to recover as fully
as possible. However, at the present time, the life reading
seems very important to me so that is what I should like to
prepare for.
This letter seems to be chiefly composed of I and ME. But
you will understand and forgive me if, in the first stages
of this experience, I am pre-occupied with my own problems.
I do feel that I can serve better in the world when my own
house is in order. For the power that is manifest through
you that I hope will guide and instruct me, I give thanks,
and for the spirit of devotion that leads you to make this
possible for me, I am deeply appreciative. May God keep you
in his loving care.
Sincerely [
2830]
3/08/43 Letter:
In asking for this Life Reading, my chief motive is to look
for guidance in the conduct of my life, in such a way that I
can be of the greatest service in God's purpose. As I have
been pondering the questions I would ask, I realize that
the answers to some of them have already been given me,
particularly in regard to the general conduct of my life and
the acquisition of that inner serenity and stability of which
I feel a lack. These then are the questions that I now ask:
1: Can I be of the most service by remaining in my present
position at ...?
2: If I am to stay on at ... what instruction and warning do
I need in regard to my conduct?
3: If I am to go elsewhere, for what kind of work am I best
fitted?
4: Is it right for me to regard life in the country and
service in it as an ultimate goal?
[
2830] New York City
For Life Reading
March 10th, 10:30 - 11:30 A.M., Eastern War Time.
Born January 19th, 1891, in New York City.
3/10/43 See
2830-2.
7/43 See letter under
2830-2 Reports.
10/10/43 See letter under
2830-2 Reports.



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