6/22/44 [
3130]'s letter [GD's note: Did not get this letter
till
6/29/44]:
New York City
Dear Mr. Cayce & Assoc. for Research & Enlightenment
As my CHECK reading is due - one week off (July 12th bet.
3:30 and 4:30 P.M.) when I will be quietly sitting receptive
in the apt. at above address in N.Y. City during the hour.
I would like to give you more fully my present conditions and
state of health as compared to July 12th 1943 (the original
reading) and more recently than my letter to you of May 27th
1944 - I enclose a copy of that 1st reading of 1943 - to
facilitate comparison with the present.
I feel your diagnosis then was undoubtedly correct. You
suggested means be taken to improve impeded circulation of
SPINE nerve centers and I have had osteopathy - magnitopath
treatment and gamma rays to reach this - also hot and cold
baths and ordinary massage (spine and all over) and I have
taken vitamins and diet-changes although I did not CUT OUT
all red meat as suggested and would be contrary to the the
doctor's advice here - but if the 2ND reading directs - I
will go against his advice - in its respect to cooperate
completely. My blood pressure which was HIGH in July 1943
and a big worry is now much lowered and really about almost
normal except at times of excitement - I'm still VERY
APPREHENSIVE and NERVOUS and (although better) if I had to
ask any ONE question and could just concentrate on ONE point
I'd like to see improved or removed a specific "remedy"
suggested - it is the ever present (sense of DREAD I have) -
physically - I feel like fainting - "passing out" - I avoid
all public places - conveyances - crowds - fatigue -
associated with public places - unpleasant effort - or news
of any kind unpleasant. I feel I am SUFFOCATING. This is
often in abeyance and I am better since JULY 1943 - still it
is THERE - and prevents my calling myself a well person - as
I never felt that way when I was WELL - I had a heart
examination several times and (radiocardiogram) last Dec.
1943 and it was then NORMAL and still said by the doctors
o.k. now.
I believe this dread is a result of nerves circulation and as
Mr. Cayce said the "batteries run down" and circulation
impediment. Also the spiritual and psychological factors -
ALL IMPORTANT may I say here that I have become "religious"
in that I pray sincerely and OFTEN and try to feel God's
presence - hourly - I have tried to overcome my faults -
become less critical - more gentle - I had a fierce TEMPER -
I think I can really say it is IMPROVED and I do not harbor
the grudges and antagonisms. I try very hard not to give
them hospitality within any more. I am trying to live
according to the 4 gospels. My success is VERY SLIGHT - but
still I'm ever trying - please Mr. Cayce how can I get rid of
the dreadful DREAD (a physical and mental sensation) very
horrid - I heard you speak in New York this winter - and I
was touched. Every WORD you said was true and ALL that was
needed. But I still need help as the dread and sense of FEAR
paralyzes my will and action.
I'm writing this out fully if belatedly - as I didn't
understand 'til the most recent communication that this was
needed or desired by you and the Foundation - I wrote briefly
May 27th 1944.
I shall be at this apt. ... during the Reading on June 28th,
'44, 3:30 to 4:30 P.M.
Yours sincerely, Mrs. [
3130]
June 22 - 1944
6/28/44 See
3130-2.



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