Edgar Cayce Readings, 3307-1

Time and Place: 4:00 to 4:30 P. M. Eastern War Time. ..., Illinois.

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GC: You will give the relations of this entity and the universe, and the universal forces; giving the conditions which are as personalities, latent and exhibited in the present life; also the former appearances in the earth plane, giving time, place and the name, and that in each life which built or retarded the development for the entity; giving the abilities of the present entity, that to which it may attain, and how. You will answer the questions, as I ask them:
EC: (In going back over years from the present - "1903 - changes in expressions - 1923 - another change - " etc. on back to birth date.) Yes, we have the records here of that entity now known as or called, [3307].
In giving the interpretations of the records here, for this entity, many questions might arise as to sources from which such records are taken.
These would be of interest to some. To this particular entity the immediate carries the greater import in the present. But this entity, as every entity, has in its experience the result of the application of certain laws in the consciousness in which the entity has been active; that is: That which is enacted for selfish motives alone comes from the motivating spirit with which such prompting was done. That from meditation, or mind, for the gratifying of appetite or of self is met within the mind. The material results are the effects of the activities of these two in whatever realm they may be active.
Much might be said here that would be well for the records, but for this entity:
As we find, the birth date was rather September the third, 1893, in a portion of the Chicago area; not a tenement or tenant either, but rather of those in position, an the body entity was an offspring of love that was belittled by an individual entity.
In making for impulses that arise in the emotions of this body, and in the experiences of the body, here - too - much might be given as to the body's experiences, the body's attractiveness, the body's relationships, the body's influence in the lives of those attracted to the entity in this sojourn - a result of the entity's own application of self in its relationships to others.
There is a channel, there is a way in which mental, physical, spiritual, doubts and fears, troubles, illness, disappointments may be met - whatever may be the disturbance for an individual entity. This is in Him, who is the life, the light, the way, the truth, and the application of those tenets manifested, proclaimed, lived, experienced in His life may bring to the entity, any entity, any soul, that which will produce harmony and peace within the own experience - whatever may be the earthly experience. For, if He abides with thee, who - or what - may be against thee? For He is life, light, and immortality. He healeth all thy diseases. He rectifieth all wrongs.
Then, they that put their trust in Him, without fear, without doubt, without the disturbing forces, may come to know that peace which He alone may give in material things. For He, as an individual, has passed through those temptations, those trials, those understandings, and has overcome them all.
So may this entity in the application of its life in this experience. Study, then, to show thyself approved unto an ideal, to be at one with Him. And the entity will find that those things that have caused doubt, fear, disturbance - in mental and in material things - will gradually dissipate, even as the fog before the morning sun.
As to the appearances these are few and far between, yet these are sufficient that the entity may interpret in self those abilities, those virtues, those doubts, those fears that arise from one disturbance, disorder or another in the present experience.
For, before this the entity was in the land of the present nativity, when there was the building up of a heritage - physical and mental - during the early Dearborn experience.
The entity was among those that entertained, or prepared what today would be called the conversation, the script for the play that would be enacted for entertainment, in what today would be called questionable places. Yet the entity kept these sayings, these activities, in that line, in that phase of experience that - more often than otherwise - brought the lesson home to those that were entertained by the activities.
In the present we find abilities of the entity in writing, depicting, the ability to make "small talk", to present a real lesson. But take rather onto self that deeper meaning, as in the lessons from the sermon on the mount as might be gained from the period of conversation with the Master and His disciples during the last hours before the offering up by the deceitfulness of a kiss. The night before - or the night of the Master's arrest - as depicted in the 14th, 15th, 16th and 17th of John. Weave that into thy stories, as to the promise as to the IF as to the manner in which each soul would make itself at one with that Creative Force. Not that the book, the article, that the entity would write, would become as a tract; no. But the purpose, the idea, the hope behind each conversation depicted in the writing, shall carry a lesson.
The name then was Mary Cowan, and this was not far from the real name in the present experience - Ryan.
Before that the entity was in the Holy Land among those people when there was the calling of Jairus' daughter.
The entity was among those that were the hired or paid mourners of that day.
Thus the entity in the present may find those abilities to draw upon those scenes that are of the inner life, those pertaining to spiritual, mental, yea of material happenings that move the spirit of others.
The name then was Elada. The entity was a changed person in those days because of the happenings there, and was among those active in he early church as helpful groups for training the young.
In the present experience these have been and may be not only a part of the problems but of the greatest help and hope to the entity, - the activities that have given, that may give others the opportunity for not only the expressing of their own lives but guided by and in such channels through the efforts of the entity. "Not by my might, but by His might" ever should be the expression of the entity.
Before that the entity was in the Egyptian land when there were those activities such that others were to be entrusted with the truths and tenets of those active in the periods of the Priest's dispersing of truths.
The entity then was an emissary to portions of the Grecian land, as now known.
Thus in the present the grace, the aptitude, the quickness, the abilities to attract, the ability to become (though quiet and demure) one powerful in its ability to help those disturbed in their inner selves. The name then was Elear-Ezan.
Before that the entity was in the Atlantean land, in those periods when there was the changing within the body forces of the sex of individuals.
The entity was among the children of the Law of One, and yet cohorted with the sons of Belial in the usage of their efforts to use those tenets attained by the entity for the propagation in an unseemly manner.
In the present the activities, the self, the abilities in its writing, in its depicting of the truths, must ever be entrusted in the one thought - the Lord is One - He is in His Holy Temple and thy body is indeed a manifestation of that Temple. Keep it holy.
As to the abilities of the entity: The activities of the entity should be where there is a contributing to helpful influences in groups, organizations, writing, music, home building.
Do that; keeping first and foremost, as may be expressed in this as the prayer, ever:
FATHER, GOD! IN THY LOVE, IN THY MERCY, SHOW THOU ME THE WAY. LET MY GOING IN, MY COMING OUT, EVER BE IN ACCORDANCE WITH THY PURPOSE FOR THIS SOUL'S MANIFESTATION IN THE EARTH. LET THY WILL, OH GOD, EVER - AND DAILY - BE DONE IN MY BODY, IN MY MIND, IN MY PURPOSE AND SOUL IN THE EARTH.
Mean it, do it, live it, be it! For as ye do unto the least of thy brethren, ye do to thy Maker.
Ready for questions.
(Q) In my writing, what can I do to clear myself, make of myself a channel for stories that are real and which will help the one who reads to see more clear?
(A) Just as indicated, put those truths, those tenets into activity as may be gathered from the sermon on the mount, the talk by the sea, the walk in the garden.
(Q) Is there anything at all I can do to help my lost boy, [...]? get a message to him?
(A) No. These are his choosings. Let thy ways be rather blessings ever upon him in body, in mind, in spirit.
(Q) Will [...] and I meet sometime, somewhere and be given another chance?
(A) Sometime, somewhere, every soul meets that which itself, has been - good or bad. It is dependant, then, upon the choices; knowing thyself to be thyself, which only may be done in Him. For, as He sought, as He asked, "Father - that I may have that glory with thee that I had before the world was - that where I am there these may be also." The world then is indeed His, and all that in it is. Then walk, then think, then talk in that world of His - but be a citizen of that world that will be in honor and glory to Him - if ye would know thy [...] again.
(Q) May I know where [...] is?
(A) Safe - not physically, but safe.
(Q) How can I best help my daughter, [5356]? Should I urge her to marry [...] now, or wait?
(A) Do not urge such. Let that be of their choice. Do not live another's life. For, remember, even as He, "Neither do I condemn thee."
(Q) Can you tell me anything at all about my parents?
(A) Leave them as they are. Their name was Ryan.
(Q) Shall I go on with the studies I began in 1940, of characters reading from the lines and shape of the hand?
(A) These may be well, but rather read character, read the lines of the hand, of the face as taught in the Book - as He gave, as from the beginning -
"These are given that they may be as signs, as symbols, as seasons, as years."
We are through with this reading.
Copy to Self
Copy to Ass'n file

BACKGROUND

7/30/43 [3307]'s ltr. to EC:
Mrs. [3307] ... Illinois
Dear Mr. Cayce:
Thank you for your letter of July 8 - and the appointment is of course quite all right - the 19th of October from 3:30 to 4:30 Eastern War Time.
I was so glad to have the material on the Congress and the letter from Mr. Sugrue about his plans to write more books. I will look forward to them with the greatest interest.
About the questions - they come into my mind helter skelter. My trouble is to sort them out, to put them in clear form. For instance, one reason Mr. Sugrue's plans interest me so much is that I have a writing problem of my own. Once I began to see that this world wasn't the end - this world of the senses and of materialism that is - that it wasn't all - I tried to find as much of the Truth as I could. I studied new Thought and read the Bible and practiced sporadically what I learned. But my writing seemed a thing apart from my new found faith - it came as if of its own volition, and it was mordant and bitter, speptical; casting a shadow and not a light. The characters I depicted were a sorry, even a sinister lot for the most part. It wasn't at all what I wanted to write - so - the question is - what shall I do with my talent for writing novels?
Now I have stopped writing my third novel. I wait for light. I am not going to do as I did before, let the book come out like an explosion and then look at it in amazement and some dismay. I note in the book CHILD TRAINING which I read and re-read, that one reading says, "There is often a real purpose in the soul, ...seeking a period of expression of self..." One of my questions would be, Has my soul a real purpose in entering the earth, and is that purpose being fulfilled? Am I to go on writing? Go on with this novel trusting it to develop in a way different from the others? I would give a great deal to be able to say as Mr. Sugrue says, "I write nothing that does not carry a message. I get the work into everything." To integrate the ideal and the talent, that is true joy. If it is right I want to manage this in this time - but how? My writing is innocent of any and all messages, except those implied in materialism - You see it seem hard to couch to my questions in the right form so that they may be more easily answered. Shall I sent them in a separate letter?
I would know whatever it is possible to know about my son, [...]. "[...]" ran way from his ship, the ..., as I told you. He always wrote to us no matter what else he did or didn't do.
Whatever has happend to him, whatever his mistakes, they are our fault, we his parents are to blame. We didn't believe in anything but expediency and self aggrandizement when he was in his formative period. Since we've had no word since 1941, we can only think our [...] is dead. Because otherwise we know he would somehow get word to us. For all the way we were to him he loved us intensely. I have had two messages one that seemed to come from him, the other about him, that he was in great distress and was praying constantly. I asked how I might help and the answer came, "How can you help?"
So that is a question I would ask for my reading if it is a suitable question - How can I help...? - where is he? can I reach him? His distress, his pain, whereever he may be - it is mine, too. I have come here to ... to be with my husband. He has gotten into difficulties financially, and is trying to make up for the past - a question I would ask if how I can best help him. Whether the way I am taking now is the right way or whether it would be best to take a war job and help him financially to get his difficulties solved. I wonder if that question could be answered?
Often I wonder, - but this one question seems to have no real bearing that I can see on my life now - still I do wonder sometimes about my parents - who they were - whether they still live on earth - have I met them unknowingly - did they try to find the "foundling door step baby?" why did I never know them? Was that in a plan?
Then -
Whenever I would share what light I have with friends, I am blocked. You see - even as a child I resented with all my heart and all my mind any and all forms of church service. I had to go with my foster parents to church and Sunday School and Christian Endeavour and Wednesday night prayer meetings, and I still remember how uncomfortable it made me when people "testified" or prayed out loud, and how I squirmed and rebelled inwardly when mother or father arose to pray. I hated it. It was torture, and as soon as I could I turned away from all of it.
Now, sometimes I am moved to "testify" a little but the memory of the embarrassment I used to feel may be what holds me back. Only a few weeks ago an old friend asked me what had changed me, made me seem young and trusting and happy. I told her I had come to believe in God. She said, "Oh, no! you don't. You can't - not you - it isn't possible."
I told her I did believe - she has read Mr. Sugrue's book - I said I could accept the chapter on your philosophy. And I convinced her that I did believe, and that accounted for the change she noticed. But I've often thought that perhaps I wasn't intended to talk about it - that somehow, since I am a writer I should be able to write the message. So that is another question - how this may best be accomplished.
I started out in this letter to speak of the booklet you sent on World Affairs. Our older son is off now to one of the many fronts. He has been long in England, and England seems to be his spiritual home. He feels at home in their tradition of training their young men for government service and hopes when the war is over to come back to the United States and be of some use to his people, to serve that is in some governmental capacity. Will he be able to do this - make use of what he has learned? Again, questions about members of one's family may not be proper. Believe me, I am not trying to get more that what is right for one reading. Oh, Mr. Cayce, I wish with all my heart I had known long ago when my children were small, what is in the book on Child Training! If somehow I could share my beliefs -
These all seem to be problems, not really questions, and if you think best I can boil it all down to questions -
Thank you [3307]

REPORTS

11/01/43 [3307]'s ltr. to EC:
Dear Mr. Cayce:
May I say thank you now for the reading. I received my copy a week ago. Already it has helped me.
The enclosed $2 is to be applied wherever you see fit. There's so little it won't be much of a decision! I'd like to become an Active member of the Association, please. Would that be possible?
May I have a copy of the pamphlet EGYPTIAN Eleven Thousand B.C. when there's one available?
On Page 15 of the Life Readings Booklet, I note: "The Association needs more detailed reports on the Individual Life Readings. We understand the mental and emotional reactions are hard to describe..."
Now this I can do - I've had practice describing mental and emotional reactions. Every writer uses himself first as material - I think better with a typewriter in front of me, a pencil in my hand. So - when the Life Reading came, I picked up pencil and pad and made a commentary as I read. And then, this past week, as I went about my work, I made notes a [of] various things the Life Reading brought to my mind. Some of these comments make a detailed report, and may be useful to the Association for their files or in any way you see fit to use them.
If you like, I will send you the notes and keep on making the notes I have and will keep on making them to send.
I have a great deal to say, but I will put it in the notes.
The Bulletin with the lovely verse, and the horoscope of Edgar Cayce came. Thank you.
Sincerely, and again, my thanks -
2/01/44 [3307]'s ltr. to EC:
Dear Mr. Cayce:
Thank you for your letter of the 25th of January setting an appointment for a physical reading. I enclose the form filled out for Miss White.
The weekly bulletins are wonderful to have and study.
I wish to thank you too for my Life Reading. It is to be studied and pondered, as each time I study it prayerfully a little extra light on its meaning seems to show - (well I'm getting mixed up, but I'm sure you know what I am trying to say.) The advice given in the Reading will be of the greatest help to me in my work - writing. So far - since I have come here to ..., I have not been able to write anything much at all. I have the time it isn't that - frankly I don't know what it is. For a time I felt that perhaps I was not intended to do any more writing at all since certainly I had misused the talent I had been given. But the Life Reading counsels me and gives me a prayer to pray. So - in due time the story will be there to be written. I am sure of this and sure too the story will be in keeping with this new knowledge given in the Reading.
I have been able to do so little in return for all the Life Reading and membership in the Association have done for me. At least I have been responsible for two sales of the book. I notice in January Bulletin, Vol. Xll, no. 4, that the note on Active Memberships suggest something I might be able to do - its number 8 - " writing or lecturing on psychic development." Not lecturing. Writing. "You'd probably have to do a good deal of studying first!" Right they are. I would. But I can read - I have time, some intelligence and a retentive memory. Also a talent for writing so that people like to read what I write. If someone in the Association has a suggestion about what I'd better read first I'll be grateful. I don't think I AM an active member, but I'm going to act as If I were one and hope one day to pay up the membership!
Will you ask Miss white to send me the following booklets - The Last Supper, Meditation, The Essenes, and the Physical Case Studies, the mimeograph on the Common Cold? Then some day I hope to get the Bible study notes. I have the list of publications now, and I will send a check to cover these I have asked for, along with my contribution to the Sponsorship -
Thank you again - will send money later.
Sincerely, [3307]
3/07/44 [3307]'s ltr. to EC:
Dear Mr. Cayce:
One of the recent bulletins suggest that those of us who can solve their own problems try to do so, and postpone appointments for further reading until 1945.
This I would like to do, cancel the appointment for a physical reading to be given the morning of July 7, 10:30 to 11:30 W.W.T. - this is the reading offered in the letter of 25 Jan. The Life Reading you were so kind as to give me in October, suggests a certain Way, and says, "those things that have caused doubt, fear, disturbance - in mental and in material things - will gradually dissipate, even as fog before the morning sun."
My physical difficulties are all minor - neither hazardous nor acute! I shouldn't like to be using time which might be needed by someone suffering pain. I hope you will understand - it is not that I wouldn't appreciate and profit by the Physical Reading at this time.
If 1945 is not being filled too fast since the bulletin suggested postponements, might I, sometime in 1945 have another LIFE READING? I have questions brought up by the answers to the original reading. I'd like to know more about the incarnation that has the most bearing on this present one. I cannot possibly thank you enough for that Life Read- ing and I will send a brief of my ideas about it for the Association Files soon. (this too was suggested by the Bulletin.)
The ecnlosed check is to be used in any way that seems best just now.
Sincerely, and with every good wish, [3307]
7/19/44 Mrs. [3307] obtained a Life Reading for her daughter, Miss [5356].
7/20/60 [3307]'s ltr. to GD:
Dear Gladys Davis Turner:
[5356] says you wouldn't be able to track down "Elsie Rowell" the name was misspelled in your letter, it is Powell, that you wouldn't be able to do any tracking without she sent some money which at this time she has not got. About grammer, dear Gladys I couldn't care less.
However I place my fingers on these keys to state that reincarnation, the whole idea of it makes me feel cross! It is as if you were to get your child ready for kindergarten, and half in fear and half in hope he asked WHY DO I HAVE TO GO? You'd say it would be fun, meeting the other children, making new friends - and he would lean interesting, helpful things. He'd say, "what things, Mama? What things would I learn?" You'd try to tell him, give him a little list and let him say it forward and backward all the way to school and you'd hope it might help him over the hump of first hours when he felt strange and missed home, and you. All right. But suppose instead you told him there was something he was to learn but the instant he got into the school he would forget what it was. He had to. You'd increase his bewilderment as much as possible. Maybe blindfold him, put stops in his ears, take him to the schoolyard and deposit him there. Spin him round and round and shove him through the door screaming. Give him a couple hard spats for good measure and say, "be sure you don't remember be sure you never figure out why I sent you here! Unless you're one in a thousand lucky or unlucky enough to meet up with that saint and seer, Mr. Edgar Cayce you'll never know. Just stumble round as best you can if anyone hits you don't hit him back. Turn the other cheek."
That my dear Gladys is what God or whoever you happen to think has charge of the universe does when he or she or it sets people on the path of reincarnation. If there's any truth in reincarnation. Which I hope there is not. I am a very old woman now. When I go hence I shall certainly speak my piece anent this horror. As for the soul I hate it. The idea. Not long ago I read in an old Searchlight about that poor old blighter of a clergyman - he was, so the Reading affirmed - a clergyman in the days of - I believe - the war between the states and he kept slaves from running away and sermoned against freeing them. And in his next life he was rich - it seems he'd longed for riches and sold slaves or received rewards for turning in runaways in order to obtain money. So he was rich. But stymied, a monster, a Mongoloid - the idea being his soul wished this on him! What a monstrous horrible idea. I am but human with no wish to be a saint. Yet on my enemy I would not if I could put such a punishment. Any more than I'd send my son to be hanged. Would you? why the whole thing is a Grimm fairy tale. Disgusting and horrible beyond belief? you can have it for yours, I'll have none of it. I wish MY soul goodbye! I do hope I've misunderstood the whole matter. If there should be God and He good, or NOT GOD and He evil, still one would not wish to be caught out judging.
Sincerely, [3307]