8/02/43 Letter: "...I am enclosing some questions for my
reading, and my husband's application blank. If I continue
at the rate I am now, without any interference, I won't be
able to stand it until Nov. 1st, for my appointment. I am
reaching a point of desperation, and haven't much to work on.
The things I have used in the past to give me relief, now
fail. Electricity applied to the hands and feet have given
at least temporary relief in the past, as Sloan's Liniment
and Epsom Salts baths, but now nothing does. My body and
mind are so tired I can't do the spiritual work I have done
in the past by walking the floor all night long and saying
affirmations and trying to become more and more aware of my
own Christ self. You see, it 'tackles' my legs and
arms, mostly in the joints but sometimes in the fleshy part,
and not frequently in the solar plexus and lungs when there
is an opening from a cold in the chest, etc. It not only
jerks so violently, it tears my body to pieces unless I keep
moving and exercising, the reaction of the nerves is
maddening. I can't stand it unless I vigorously exercise and
move. So I walk all night long until my body is so weary I
can't go any longer, and I'm mentally a blank and fall asleep
sometimes standing up, and the minute I sit, only have to get
up and move on. It's a most peculiar case, most unusual. It
goes wild when we pray and work, and becomes even more
violent. My sleep has averaged for some time now, 1, 2 or 3
hours a night, and that only from the most desperate fighting
and walking, only to be violently awakened again at the end
of that period. And I haven't been able to rest days either,
it's constant. My poor husband, who isn't at all well, is
straining himself and working so hard, and he is very
powerful spiritually. My mother and father too, work daily,
and our dear Father T.E.M. is very powerful. He is very
close to the masters. When he comes, this creature is more
violent. It has been seen by him and 2 others, a huge
octopus. Of course, I realize that nothing matters except
our spiritual progress and I can truthfully say that we have
all made tremendous strides from the effort put forth because
of this. So it definitely hasn't been in vain. And I also
realize the karmic debt which I and my loved ones have to pay
off to the last farthing. But I understand that every effort
should be made to face ourselves. I have no fear of death...
In fact, I would welcome the peace of it after what I've gone
thru for 22 years. I hate to be 'licked' for my family's
sake... I don't expect you to give me an appointment by
taking it from someone else who is equally as important and
entitled to his own... (1) Exactly what is troubling me?
(2) Is it prompted by someone else, or on its own? (3) What
satisfaction does it get from me? (4) What did I do in past
incarnations to cause this? (5) What can I do to permanently
free myself from this creature, and from everything else of
an undesirable nature? (6) Is there a solution or formula
that can be used for the helping of others generally in such
cases? (7) To what should I devote myself in the future for
my spiritual improvement to be of more service in the world?"
REPORTS
1/06/44 Letter: "I want to acknowledge the readings received
for my husband [
3480] and myself. We both hope to carry out
all instructions as fully as possible and as quickly as
possible. I have sent in my order for the Radio-Active
Appliance, and hope to see the osteopath tomorrow. I am
fortunate in having a doctor who has an understanding of such
things, and he has read 'There Is A River' and likes it very
much. His name is Dr. S. P. O. If we see changes in our
health for the better, I will write you about it..."
