This psychic reading given by Edgar Cayce at the office of the Association, Arctic Crescent, Virginia Beach, Va., this 15th day of February, 1944, in accordance with request made by the self - [3660], new Associate Member of the Ass'n for Research and Enlightenment, Inc., recommended by the book, THERE IS A RIVER.

Present: Edgar Cayce; Gertrude Cayce, Conductor; Gladys Davis, Steno. (Notes read to and transcribed by Jeanette Fitch.) Born June 2, 1890, in Topeka, Kansas.

TEXT

1. GC: You will give the relations of this entity and the universe, and the universal forces; giving the conditions which are as personalities, latent and exhibited in the present life; also the former appearances in the earth plane, giving time, place and the name, and that in each life which built or retarded the development for the entity; giving the abilities of the present entity, that to which it may attain, and how. You will answer the questions, as I ask them:
2. EC: Yes, we have the records here of that entity now known as [3660].
3. In giving an interpretation of the records as we find them, there are many things to be considered. These we would choose from the records with the desire and purpose that this information, if the body-mind will accept same and act upon it, may bring more harmony, more peace, and the greater ability of the entity to fill those places in its relationships to others more efficiently and more consistently.
4. There is much to be unlearned. There is much to learn. These truths we would give from here that must be learned first of all:
5. God is not mocked, and whatsoever a soul soweth, that must it somewhere, sometime reap. For in the consciousness of eternity, time is not, neither is space. In man's consciousness there appears so much mercy, so much love, that these have been called time and space.
6. In the beginning all souls were as a unity to the God-Force. As self added or subtracted that which was in keeping with God's purpose, ye added or subtracted from the blessings ye might be conscious of in materiality. Thus karma is builded. And the law is perfect - what ye sow, ye reap.
7. There is no law causing man to separate himself from his Maker. There is no cause except man's own indulgence or neglect.
8. Then to the self first: Find self and thy relationship to thy Creator. And know what ye believe, in whom ye believe, and who is the author of thy faith.
9. Then apply it in thy daily life. For in the same manner ye measure to others, in thought, in deed, in purpose, ye measure to thy Maker.
10. Ye may sow good seeds, ye may sow perfect seeds, but unless it is in keeping with that ye have purposed in thine heart, what can the harvest be? For God alone giveth the increase.
11. Remember, as was given: "Behold thy brother is in thine hand." But if ye think hate, if ye think jealousy, if ye act these in thy life, what can the harvest be other than that manifested even in the experience of Cain? Then apply thy abilities, for they are many. For to each soul is given that which if applied in the daily life will make that soul one with the infinite. But keep humble, keep patient, keep in the manner in which the pattern has been given. For it is even as that one manifested in the flesh, even Jesus who became the Christ, who offered Himself that ye through belief, through faith, through the pattern of His life, might find thy way, might find thy true relationship to the Creator, God. And He will not withhold any good thing from thee.
12. Begin and read Genesis 1:3, and see that is to thee LIGHT, the light of men, even that one who is the Christ Consciousness.
13. In application in self, ye will find that Exodus 19:5 applies to thee, if thou wilt put away blaming others. Yes, ye feel aversions, ye cast judgments upon others. By whose standard are ye measuring thy brother? By God's love for thee? For only in the same measure with which ye mete to others can life in its material expression measure back to thee. Only in that measure that ye mete.
14. Have ye been kind and patient, loving and forgiving? For only as ye forgive those who have blamed thee without a cause, who have spoken vilely of thee without reason, can the giver of life and light forgive thee - even though He came into experience that ye, even ye, might know thy place with thy God, with thy Maker.
15. Then again, as indicated, in Deuteronomy 30, see that it is to thee - not someone else. For thy body is indeed the temple of the living God. In thy heart and mind He has promised to meet thee. Will ye let Him? Will ye open the door? Will ye humble thyself and say, "LORD, HERE AM I! USE ME, THOUGH IT BRUISE MY BODY, MY PRIDE, EVEN MY CONSCIENCE. USE ME, O GOD, THAT I - THY HANDMAID - MAY BE A CHANNEL OF BLESSING TO ONE OF THY CHILDREN TODAY." Say this not merely in words, but in real purpose of heart, in real desire. And ye will find that He can and will answer thee. For His promises are sure, "Though ye be far away, if ye call I will hear, and answer speedily."
16. He is not a God of wrath to those who humbly seek, only a God of wrath to those who defy and say, "I - yea I - will do this or that."
17. For of thyself ye can do nothing, only as He in His love and mercy may show thee the way.
18. Through the periods of thy sojourns in the earth, ye have oft defied the living God, and yet He hath loved thee and hath again given thee an opportunity, here, now, today, if ye hear His voice. Harden not thy heart, but read - even as He has given, "In my Father's house are many mansions." Thy mansion, thy body, thy temple, thy house may dwell in the mansions of God, if ye will be meek and lowly in spirit that the spirit of truth, of light in Christ, may make thee alive. For He came that ye, even ye, might have life more abundantly. Defy Him not again.
19. Only these appearances may be given, that ye abuse them not. For as ye walked in the land of thine own inheritance in the experience before this, ye with thy companions, sought strange places that ye might add to the ease of body or mind - in the search for gold. Yet when ye were reduced to material straits, when ye called He failed thee not.
20. In the name then Anna Carruth, ye added much to the comfort of others. Thus in this experience ye have oft come in contact with those who have seen the light, yea those who have heard the voice that said, "Peace - be still," and the heart found joy.
21. Before that ye were in the land where the Master walked, when there were those gathered by the seashore who heard Him speak. At Bethsaida ye were among those who had heard, who looked for, who had come to expect that sometime, somewhere, God would hear the cry and answer those who were troubled by ills of body, turmoils of the struggles for life, for the meeting of the passions of the body of men, for the cries of the young for succor, for aid, yea for bread. And He spoke gentle words - the sower went forth to sow. What are ye casting into the soil of life for those ye meet? Upon what character of soil seek ye to prepare, even in thine own life and heart and body?
22. The name then was Jeseuel. Ye became strong by that simple trust in Jesus and again ye may find thy strength of thy mind and thy body in His purposes alone.
23. Before that ye were among those in Atlantis who used the divine purposes among the sons and daughters of the Law of One and the turmoils of the sons of Belial - yea, life is easy, and peace becomes at times such as to make sad the heart of those who look upon gratifying of the flesh. And ye partook!
24. These come to thee again in the warring of the body for the material things, and these must pass away. But the hopes, the desires, the purposes may change not. And the law is perfect - that ye sow, ye reap. If ye sow it to the flesh, in the flesh, ye must reap. If ye sow it in the mind, to the mind it must be made straight. For it depends upon what spirit ye entertain. For it is only with the spirit of truth as manifested in that light, that knowledge of God deep within self, that ye may make thy paths straight. See, hear, know, act - and the world is thine. For He withholds no good thing from those who seek and love His coming.
25. Do that.
26. Ready for questions.
27. (Q) Have I lost my opportunity to work for the Masters in this life?
    (A) When ye come to lose - only thyself may separate thee from the love of God. No power in heaven or hell may separate thee save thyself.
28. We are through with this reading.

    Copy to Self
    Copy to Ass'n file

BACKGROUND

1. 9/18/43 [3660] submitted questions: "Have I completely lost my opportunity to work for the Masters in this life? I can accept any conditions, do any job, or drink any cup if it is clearly known to me to be their will. Dare I think of the Master Moria and try anew to be worthy of him?
   "Would it be useful to learn on which ray I am operating in soul and in this present personality?
   "Is Sarah Jacobs still interested in me? Is she 'through' with me?
   "Should I continue to work with Alice Bailey? How can one learn to which ashram one belongs? I do not want my life to be a drag.
   "Am I trustworthy to teach others? Might I organize some study class in ... giving the teaching with earnest prayer to be guided rightly? This is what Dr. Davidson advised. Have I lost this opportunity? It seems to me I am better qualified now than before. Am I wrong in this?
   "Am I to live on to the end with my husband? Why did a fortune teller in The Gypsy Tea Room say 'that is one trip from which there will be no return?'
   "Am I guilty of an unfairly negative attitude toward my husband?
   "Should I dismiss all thought of the badly handled court hearing I was forced to go through without a chosen counsel of my own when I was committed as 'a lunatic' to the ... Hospital?
   "Is there anything I can do for those who suffer in such places as I suffered? The need is terrible but I cannot single-handed attack the problem. It does not seem to me that would be effective.
   "'I want you to do a perfect job,' Alice Bailey Once told me. I wish I knew what job she could reasonably expect me to do 'perfectly.'
   "I would like to do the job as organist as perfectly as possible. Can I have help for this? There is serious obstruction.
   "I was guilty of jealousy in relation to Dr. Davidson and his group. Am I to have any further relation with them and make good?
   "Dr. Davidson once spoke as though hierarchy had seen the starting 'glow of light' and that something special to me was expected of me. I said, 'But if I fail?' He said, 'You will not fail.' I wonder what this was all about and if I have or have not failed.
   "If I could live an orderly life free from an overburden of responsibility I believe I could give a contribution in the form of music, writing and art. This in a way that would help people is what I WISH I could do. Before attempting this I wish I could have the high privilege of preparation in retreat in the Himalayan Mountains to gain strengthened flow of contact with the high forces of light. Is there any possibility of this?
   "What was the significance of Sarah Jacobs telling me about a gold store in some cave in Missouri? Has this ever been discovered? Some old man gave it to her. What is to become of it?
   "Does Sarah Jacobs hold to the same ideas now that she had for me when living in the physical? Has she any message to offer? I once gave her nine dollars when I lost my first child. I wonder what became of this money. She was going to use it for the humane cause in a little memorial way of some kind. I wish she could come near to Mr. Cayce and offer advice if possible.
   "I lost the pictures of the Masters that she gave me. Am I still unworthy of them? Will I find them or could I get some new ones from the Arcane School?
   "Is there anything I could know about the firstborn son that I lost at birth?
   "What can you tell that would be helpful about my husband [...], my daughter [...], my son [...], my daughter [...]?
   "I gradually lose my fear of death and think that it may be very near sometimes. Should I prepare for death or a long period on earth? I want to do all I can to help while I am here. The time is little enough at best.
   "My husband is in rather poor health. Could this be eliminated? What can I do about this?
   "Is my heart condition due to physical or other causes?
   "How can I gain the positive wholehearted love of all people that I once had when people loved me more than they do now? How can I express this in a constructive way? Shall I disregard people's misunderstanding of me in this way?
   "I will pray in preparation for the reading."

REPORTS

1. 3/31/44 [3660]'s letter to EC: "The greatest encouragement I have had for many years came when I received the membership card and the reading. I had no idea the reading was to be made. It would be of interest to know how it happened. Just a matter of awaiting my turn?
   "I am deeply grateful. I accept with all the capacity I have all that it says and try to build anew accordingly. I have begun reading the Bible through and expect to find new meaning, inspiration and help. I am very grateful for the Easter papers also.
   "I wish I might FIND myself to the extent that my life could yet be the best possible contribution to the good of all.
   "The reading is read and reread. I could never exhaust its source of help entirely. There is so much in it. I have no proof nor do I ask for it. It seems good and true basically enough to give important help.
   "It would be my greatest desire realized now if I could come to Virginia Beach to get acquainted - get all available guidance and establish strongly as possible all relationships with your group that is indicated.
   "I want to BELONG to MY group. Yours appeals to me more nearly than any I have so far encountered. I will earn the right to contact the group if it is not yet possible.
   "I wish that I could come Sunday evening, arriving there on Monday and stay as long as possible to clear out all false conceptions; 'unlearn' as much as possible, get the right start ahead as completely as possible. I must not IMPOSE. I beg to have the opportunity that may be rightly mine, however, as soon as possible. I need help. My family, my children need help. We are at the crossroads and I'm hoping to find the right way. Is there any member in Chicago I could contact?
   "Very gratefully and with prayers of blessing..."
   "P.S. I had my billfold with my membership card in it stolen. May I have a duplicate? I will pay as I can. More soon."
2. 4/04/44 EC's letter to [3660]: "I have yours of the 31st.
   "I am glad to know that the information, which we attempted for you, proved to be helpful, and I am very, very much of the opinion if you will study the information over and over again, that you will be like practically everyone else who has had this type of reading. The wording of this type of information sometimes appears rather hard to understand, but as most people find, if they will read it over, then lay it away and at regular intervals, get it out and read it over again, they will find themselves understanding very much better what the words are trying to say or convey to the individuals. It is something that you will have to apply and use in your daily life to make it worthwhile.
   "Don't know just how it came about that you got your reading when you were not supposed to, but so many hundreds of requests on hand, and of course we are trying to be of help to everyone that it is possible.
   "We appreciate your interest and I just hope the help will come to you, as so many hundreds of others say it has to them in attempting to apply the suggestions made in the readings.
   "We want to thank you for your payment of $2.00 on your membership, and as I have said before, you can take care of this just at your own convenience.
   "Hoping and trusting to have been the means of a real help, and please know if we can be of any help in explaining or making the information of more value, we are anxious to do so..."
3. 9/03/73 Daughter wrote: "...My mother's copy of the reading has been lost. Is it possible for me to obtain a copy?"

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