10/05/43 [
4073]'s letter: "...My condition is both physical
and psychological and I shall sketch it as briefly as
possible. I was born an ugly duckling, a fact emphasized by
family and school associates as long as I can remember. The
foundation of certain unshakable inhibitions. When about
twelve years old, a urinary weakness developed; the inability
of the urinary function to completely operate. After each
passage of urine, an unnatural amount of water would remain
in the urinary tract which no amount of voluntary or
involuntary muscular action could expel. This had to be
drained out by running the finger along the urinary canal and
resorting to vigorous shaking. Several doctors treated me
for stricture and other causes without success.
"The condition has persisted and I am now forty years old.
This has been another cause of maladjustment. Lacking
opportunity, because of appearance and temperament, for
normal relations with girls as a youngster and youth, I
turned within myself and definite homosexual tendencies
developed. Certain contacts, then and now, have inclined to
emphasize these tendencies. Needless to say, I am in a
perpetually unhappy state. Because of the above factors, the
suicide complex developed when I was very young. My artistic
aspirations were thwarted by unsympathetic parents (I wanted
to be a pianist) and, after much indecision, I became a
school teacher and taught for ten years. But I failed at
this and was discharged for my bluntness and bitter tongue.
Everything I have done or tried to do has piled up about my
ears. I seem to be cursed by all the misfortune which can be
heaped upon a single individual. At the moment, I am working
in a shipyard here at ..., but after this 'plays' out - what
next? I hardly care because I still have the very definite
feeling that suicide is going to be the way out for me. I
have recently been 'cured' of syphilis, have had two doses
of clap, have a bad case of bronchitis and am at present
treating a skin disease which has completely baffled several
doctors. 'OH, Death! Where is thy sting?' Can you help me
physically or mentally...? If I could only shed the mental
and physical past, I feel strongly that there is a definite
contribution which I can make toward the progress of
mankind... Can you help me?..."
11/08/43 [
4073]'s letter:
"...My problems are (1) urinary, (2) bronchial, and (3) skin.
If you will refer to my previous letter, you will find a
fuller explanation. Drs. Pringle and London know about my
case and will make any necessary verifications. Like
everyone else, I should like to have my reading as soon as
possible..."
3/13/44 [
4073]'s Questions submitted besides those at end
of 4073-1:
"...How did the condition develop at so early an age? Did
any of the treatment I took have any effect? How did the
skin disease develop? Why did the X-ray fail to cure the
ankle? Why should the doctor have given up? What is the
cure for the impetigo which has recently developed? The
bronchial trouble? Can the heavy sluff be eliminated? Can
I get rid of the cough? Why is there no cure in medical
knowledge? Is there a possibility of being cured of the
homosexual tendencies? What is the condition of the lungs?
How to keep my hair from falling out and to make grow again?
What is the general condition otherwise, teeth, etc?..."


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