Edgar Cayce Readings, 5032-1

Time and Place: Set bet. 10:30 to 11:30 A. M. Eastern War Time. ..., Mass.

TEXT

GC: You will give the relations of this entity and the universe, and the universal forces; giving the conditions which are as personalities, latent and exhibited in the present life; also the former appearances in the earth plane, giving time, place and the name, and that in each life which built or retarded the development for the entity; giving the abilities of the present entity, that to which it may attain, and how. You will answer the questions, as I ask them.
EC: Yes, we have the records here of that entity now known as or called [5032].
In giving an interpretation of the records there is much from which to choose, yet these we would give with the desire and hope that this information may prove a helpful influence in the experience of the entity in its dealing with problems as to relationships with others in group activity.
As indicated from the activity of the entity in Uranus, Mercury, Mars, Jupiter, there is the deep interest in any form of research, especially that which deals with the unusual, whether this be in body, in mind or in spiritual aspects.
The warnings, then, to the entity: Do know that while the body, mind and soul are one, yet in the material relationships these have their aspects. Then judge not individuals nor conditions that are of a spiritual or mental nature by purely material standards, neither judge those of the material or mental nature by purely spiritual standards, for each has its part in the experience of individuals and the answer is ever according to that which is the ideal of the individual.
For as may be the question, as in judgement or in choosing of associates or activities, who or what is thy God? The gratifying of the ego of self, or the universal consciousness in which the individual entity spends self in labor of love for others? From such only can there come and there be brought peace and harmony in the experience for any, or every individual. When the entity chooses only to gratify self, it builds barriers between individuals and self, as well as creating disharmony in its own mental and physical experience.
In the warnings then: First choose what is thy ideal, spiritually, and know that whatever comes into the experience must first be in spirit. As man would physically live, he must have air or spirit of purpose or hope or that which is of the infinite.
Then the ideal in mind: If it is only the thought of self or for the gratifying of physical or even mental appetites, it will certainly become warped in its relationship with others.
Then the spiritual ideal must be able to answer every cause, every purpose, every hope, every desire, and be able to keep whatever may be committed unto it against any experience.
For from the spiritual and mental comes the material manifestations, and as to what it brings into the experience physically depends upon that spirit, that manner, that purpose within which the ideal is given expression. And most of all do be sincere with self. For they who first practice to deceive, oh what a fatal web they weave about their lives!
As to the appearances in the earth, while all are not given, these indicate the pattern as to how and why certain research activities would be the channels through which the entity may experience the greater material, mental and spiritual harmonies.
Before this we find the entity was in the land of the present nativity among those who were of the household of those who would be called Friends, and the entity was among those who were kept strict. Thus the set rules in the experiences of the entity, of being demanding as it was demanded of. For with what measure ye mete it is measured to thee again.
In the name then Clara Rusk, the entity gained because of its teaching and administering to others until, in its own household, it made for the administering to its own offspring. The entity helped, the entity gained, though in a severe material manner.
Before that we find the entity was in that now known as or called the Norse land, during those periods when there were the expansions of the peoples and lands.
The entity was among those who were oft in that position of supplying incentive for men and for women in their activity.
Thus as may be experienced in the present, not that there is to be builded those activities upon political factions or political factors, but so live in thy daily relationships with others as ye did through those experiences, as Elmnosen, that men and women do for the very love the entity itself manifested in thought of, in care of others.
For if the individual entity thinks only of self, others will not think much of the individual. If ye would have friends, be friendly. If ye would have love, give love to others. For he [who] would save his life shall lose it. For life is the manifestation of God and to have God in thine experience, which is all love, all hope, all faith, all kindness, all gentleness, all patience, ye must manifest such in thy dealings with others.
In the experience the entity gained throughout and it would be well if the entity would manifest in its analysis of self those characteristics, those principles, for it will build a gracious individuality and a wondrous personality in the present.
Before that we find the entity [was] in the land now known as the Egyptian, among those who were of the household of the Priest. The entity was among the children chosen for the activities of presenting the ideas and ideals in a materially manifested manner. These brought rules and regulations, at times in the Temple of Sacrifice hardships, but in the Temple Beautiful a glorious experience for the entity, in the name Nan-Welor.
As to the abilities of the entity then, that to which it may attain and how:
Enter any work or service where there are research data, activities in that nature, whether pertaining to the woof and warp of silk or satins, or of other woven goods, or certain purely physical research activities, or the interest in the psychic or mental and spiritual phases. These are channels, then, in the application of self.
As ye would that men should do to you, do ye even so to them.
Ready for questions.
(Q) Is there any way in which I can continue to strengthen the position of my associates - those loyal to the company - against the seemingly corrupt faction?
(A) Read what has been given. Not in political, but in a true, sincere, spiritual relationship.
(Q) Would my resignation be a better contribution to the cause?
(A) Not if you will apply yourself. People do not come into such positions by chance. People can by their own lack of confidence in others, lack of spirituality in self, remove themselves from such. But so live, as should each soul, that to the full extent of thy ability ye are all things to all peoples in a service for an ideal.
(Q) My natural way of doing things has never seemed to conform to the normal pattern of the people around me, is this a fault or queerness that I should overcome?
(A) As has been indicated, these are pointed out. Then turn about face where it is necessary, or in finding thine own ideal, know thy God, whether it is self, fame or fortune, or place, but do find the spirituality. Then study to show thyself approved, a workman not ashamed, rightly dividing the words of truth, keeping self unspotted from the world.
We are through for the present.
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BACKGROUND

10/02/43 Letter: "Some time ago, I read an article in 'Coronet' and wanted to write you at once, but then decided there would be hundreds of people writing to you who needed help much worse than I did. In another month, however, I will have reached the 40 year period without finding the work for which I was fitted, or else I have failed to recognize it. It seems essential from a health standpoint that there be a change of some kind at once, but at my age I'd like to have the assurance that the change was for the better and not for the worse. They tell me I look and act 10 years younger than I am, and I certainly feel that way, but have been having some mental difficulties. This worries me because both my mother's and father's families lives have been unstable at times, but the doctors seem to feel my trouble is due more to mental exhaustion rather than to any weakening of my mental faculties, and that a change of work might be advisable.
About 2 months ago I went to a vocational guidance bureau to take a few tests, and the director was very insistent that I remain in the field of research, and definitely discouraged any consideration of the teaching profession, social welfare or personnel work. This was most disturbing, because I'm sure my employers will agree with me that my work is not up to par in the research field. The work went smoothly when I first came here, but my supervisor had me advanced to work that is beyond my mental capacity. The company is very considerate and I can remain here indefinitely, but it is too much like accepting charity. I completely lack the curiosity and initiative of a good research worker it seems to me. The vocational director's decision was further upsetting because my present supervisor and the professor who supervised my earlier teaching days have kept urging me to return to the teaching profession into the consumer education (extension) fields. Despite their encouragement, I still question whether my mind keeps facts well enough in hand to insure successful lecture work, and I know that my laboratory and demonstration work were never well organized, but the personal contacts and the pleasure of helping people adjust themselves to everyday living was a satisfaction that I miss in my present work.
Ten, or possibly even 5 years ago, I would have made myself join the WAACs or the WAVES despite my deep distaste for regimentation, set schedule and sharing of living quarters with innumerable young women, but I don't think I could swallow it now, and hope my work with civilian defense, Red Cross, etc. will be compensation. Before going to the vocational bureau I had been thinking of going into the nursing field and into personnel work, social welfare, therapeutics, psychology, but I've had no training in these fields, and would have to start from scratch, as my education (BS and MS) have all been for teaching and research. It would be foolish however for me to start all over again in a field that I erroneously felt I was fitted for, and the vocational director has definitely shaken my confidence in my abilities along these lines. As I said before, this is probably a very minor problem compared to many that you have received, but I seem to be backed up against a blank wall, and rapidly going 'batty', and I'd certainly appreciate a reading to guide me into a field where I could make full use of my faculties whether it be with my present employers or starting out in a new field, and will be only too glad to pay for said reading."
12/18/43 Letter: "...This is rather a tardy thanks for your notification of the May 2 reading. As you've probably noticed, procrastination is one of my incorrigible sins as it were. We're having a complete reorganization of our research department, and consequently re-assignment of our personnel to more efficient working groups. I'm the political football between 2 factions at present. Nothing personal, straight politics, but this is the time when I should decide whether or not to make this my permanent location or make a break. Think I have told you that in spite of vocational guidance conclusion, to the contrary, I still feel that it is a lack of certain inherent capacities rather than mental fatigue that keeps me from developing my position. For this reason, I would have liked an earlier reading, but like Pollyanna, I'm very glad you could squeeze it in before the middle of 1944..."
4/23/44 Letter: "Time certainly flies, and now it's only a little over a week before that long awaited event - my Life Reading... There are doubtless many life and death cases dependent upon your readings, and my reading doesn't come under that category. I'll admit that it would be a considerable disappointment to have it postponed, for I seem to be getting nowhere fast, and it is affecting my health, but I can hang on for a while longer, if you need to conserve your strength for more critical cases. Will include some questions, a la discussion that can be used next week or filed for future reference... Please feel free to postpone my reading if you're still feeling below par due to your recent illness... In my present position, I've been a sort of political football between 2 factions, and have never become acclimated as it were, but in holding the line against the faction which was putting its own individual interests ahead of those of the company, the psychological effect of my presence served to outweigh the mediocrity of my work during the first 2 or 3 years, and I felt justified in retaining my position.
Recently, undoubtedly due to my own laxity, I seem to have forfeited this influence. Is there any way in which I can continue to strengthen the position of my associates - those loyal to the company - against this seemingly corrupt faction, or would my resignation be a better contribution to the cause? I seem to have an urge to want to help people, but at the same time can't seem to get along with them for any length of time, or maintain interest in any one problem over a period of time. Certainly much of my difficulty has been due to selfishness, laziness and overdose of procrastination, and at times laxness in discipline, but at the same time from as early as I can remember, there seemed to be some personality conflict with too many interests and no incentive to concentrate on any one interest, and also my natural way of doing things has never seemed to conform to the normal pattern of the people around me. Is this a fault or queerness that I should work harder to overcome, or is it a hidden asset which I have failed to develop, or is it a type of repression as a result of being too far astray from my normal life pattern? Whether I stay in my present position for a while longer or resign now, and irrespective of financial recompense and hard work, what kind of work would be the most satisfactory outlet for the development of my inherent capacities, especially those capacities which would lead to a more understanding and less critical attitude toward my fellow man as well as a happier outlook for myself, in making a more valuable contribution to society? Would this change be best accomplished by changing to another industrial position, by returning to the teaching field, by starting anew in some contemplated field such as occupational therapy, neuro-psychic work or personnel consultant, or in some new field that I have in no way contacted? From time to time, I suspect that my parents would like to live with me. In the first place, I don't feel sufficiently settled, and in the second place, it would seem that they'd be happier in the long run in their own home among their own friends; am I wrong? Thanks for your kind attention..."

REPORTS

11/26/49 She ordered various A.R.E. publications.