4/23/44 [
5042]'s letter: "I have a reading for May 4.
Several days ago, I received a letter asking if there were
any questions I would like to have answered. Any of them you
do not answer, I realize are not important in my recovering.
I was discharged from the army several months ago, for a
nervous condition that prevented me from continuing, and has
kept me from being able to work. I have gone to nerve
specialists as well as regular doctors, and they can't find
any way to help me recover.
I can't use my hands for working, simply because I am so
conscious of them that when I try to use them my nerves get
so bad I have to stop or else have them go all to pieces,
much the same as after a shock. This condition came on me
while I was recovering from a serious heart condition, and
I haven't been the man I should be, since. The doctors tell
me my heart is now normal, although it does act up an awful
lot, which probably is due to this nervous condition. I am
literally a nervous wreck. I have heard of operations on
the brain being given in cases such as mine, and I would like
to have your advice on the matter. I realize this is a very
strange mental case, but I hope you will understand because
otherwise I am perfectly normal mentally, but there might
be physical conditions that aggravate it. There are
several things I would like your advice on:
(1) What type of work can I be most useful doing? I would
like to find a field that I could succeed at, if I can regain
my balance. I also lost a girl because of this condition
that meant the world to me, but of course, I wasn't the man
I should be, and had to try to forget her, which I haven't
been very successful at doing. I wonder if you can give me a
suggestion whether it would be advisable to keep on trying to
forget her, or try to bring back the good old days. Her name
is [...], and she works in ... book store...if that helps
any. I know this seems far fetched, but it is very important
to me. I wouldn't want to cause her any unhappiness, but if
I could make her happy, that's for me. I have been losing my
hair and like anyone else, I would like to prevent baldness,
if possible. If there are any suggestions, I would
appreciate them. I also would like some suggestions for
exercises to help rebuild myself. I realize you might not
answer all these questions, possibly I have written twice
as many as I should and on irrelevant subjects, but they
all seemed important as far as I know. Any help that I may
receive will be greatly appreciated, and I hope I'll be able
to rebuild a useful life out of a wreck." [This letter was
written in [
5042]'s own handwriting which was very legible.]
5/01/44 Mother's letter: "This is to let you know that my
son and I will be sitting in quiet meditation...May 4, while
his reading is in progress. This reading is of greater
importance than most anyone could imagine, for on it hangs
the chance for an obsessed mind to be straightened out, and
a very talented young man to resume his life work. Besides
the obsession with his hands, he is obsessed with the fear
of baldness, and refuses to even go into the yard without a
hat..."
REPORTS
7/06/44 Mrs. [
1152]'s letter to EC: "...I was quite surprised
to receive a letter from Mrs. [...] of Detroit, Michigan
enclosing one of your readings which told of her son [
5042]
sending to Unity for prayers. Hereafter, instead of writing
me it is very much better to write directly to Silent Unity
for help as they will take the matter up directly with the
patient and if I were consulted the letters would often have
to be left unopened awaiting my return. I got in touch with
May Rowland, the head of Silent Unity, and read her your
reading, a thing which is very new to them all, but she said
she would put his name on their list immediately and would
write to him. I have heard nothing since my letter to Mr.
[
5042]'s mother..."